No Renters Allowed

Okay...so, I have great style ideas and I love being creative but....I moved into my first apartment last year and due to budget restrictions it is very garage sale chic and I don't feel like it is very me.
I am also overwhelmed by everything. There is so much I want to do...i am in desperate need of organization and storage, i hate all the white walls, and i have absolutely no kitchen space at all. I have like no budget and i don't know what is most important or where to start.
SO....genius that I am decided...hey..all those people going on hgtv and other design shows get help...why don't i go on TV and get them to help. So i started looking into design shows...and they all have the same thing in the application....No Renters.
WELL EXCUSE ME....but some of us can't afford our own home...some of us can't afford to decorate either...so why should us renters be left out just because of some sort of landlord tenant act. You know...renters deserve help just as much as home owners and if you are such a great designer that you have your own TV show..then you can figure out design solutions for apartments.
I need help with my place...i have been living there over a year and as much as I love it....it still feels like a place I am living and not a home. I don't know where to start to fix that, and I don't have the money to fix it either.
Anyways...I just feel like the television design world is missing out....i am willing to embarrass myself on TV for a newly decorated apartment..shouldn't that be enough...I'm good TV!!!

Tin VS Sushi

So it was my co-workers birthday on Saturday and we decided to celebrate it by going to this sushi place near work today for lunch. I am not the hugest fan of sushi...although i really enjoy the sushi with avocado in it.

Here's my issue...i find the sushi pieces too large to put all in my mouth at once...then with the chewing and the swallowing...sometimes it is just too large. And the chop sticks add extra pressure...i never have a great hold on the piece of sushi...there is so much pressure, got to get the whole piece in your mouth, don't drop it due to your horrible chopstick skills. Chew and swallow without choking yourself. Eating sushi in public is just to much pressure sometimes.

Today...in a very public restaurant in the underground while consuming a very large piece of sushi, I gagged a little bit and almost choked myself. Isn't that a great way to make friends...not at all embarrassing. NOPE..i am not embarrassed. Okay.......i lied...i am so embarrassed. And you can't really pretend it didn't happen...so now...i am the weird girl in the office that chokes on sushi.

To mount or not to mount....that is the question?

So the wonderful joy of watching TV while in bed...(favourite thing of mine) is now back in my life. Ever since the destructo-kitties knocked over my old TV and broke it. I have been sad...so sad. It took me and the destructo-kitties a long time to get over the tension the broken TV caused. But with the arrival of my tax refund, which was so small it barely counts as a refund....I managed to find a lovely 23inch flat screen samsung TV. It is wonderful and makes me ever so happy. But now comes the paranoia.....will the cats knock it over. We made it through the night without them knocking it over..but..this morning...I just couldn't leave the apartment without safe guarding my new precious baby. So..I unhooked it and put it in the bathroom with the door shut. Strange I know. but i just need it to be safe until i decide what to do.
Wall mounting is a great choice, if i didn't live in an apartment and the walls weren't made of concrete. I am already afraid of my landlord...i don't want to piss him off more by damaging his walls for my TV happiness.
Then there is a TV stand from ikea that has a back piece that is made for mounting flat screens. It is a great stand and super nice....BUT. the place i want to put it is between these two wall 'outdents' it is a space of 45 inches across. But the stand is 47 inches across. so do i buy it and find a new place to put it..and re-arrange my entire bedroom.
Or is there some unseen third option that i don't see.
Help me great blogverse...also if you suggest wall mounting...you will have to come mount it because me and power tools aren't a great idea and if the landlord finds out and yells...i am gonna tell him you forced me to do it. Just a pre-warning.

Lessons

So..I have learned many things in my 29 years. Some lessons are way harder than others and some lessons smack me in the face. Friday night was a face smacking night.

Here's my issue, you open you heart and give someone a chance and than another chance, and another. At what point do you start to look like a fool? At what point is your heart able to recover.
Here's what I know, I stupidly gave boy another chance in September..and everything was going great, it was nice to have someone who seemed to understand me (crazy and all) Than after Christmas, we just sort of stopped talking...not really but there were very small amounts of talking. Then off he goes on a trip so I text him telling him to have a great time. And NOTHING. No response, no acknowledgement. NOTHING.
So I decide its for the best, whatever, he's a loser and I am better off without him. I tell myself this for all of February and all of March. Then two weekends ago I went to a work function and I had to watch him with all these drunk girls all over him. It was horrible. That moment. I realize I am way more hurt that I let myself believe.
Then Friday night...its one of my best friend's goodbye party, and off I go to help him celebrate. Here's something i know....Sitting there at the same table, with him one person away, acting like everything is all good. It hurt so much. Now i know there wasn't anything real official about us and he was never my 'boyfriend'. But to act like I am nothing...made me feel like I am less than nothing. What made it worse...every one's like oh its okay or do you want to talk about it...or don't worry, he's just stupid. I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear anything. I am upset, hurt, and embarrassed. And what makes it worse is people trying to hold my hand. I got so worked up on Friday night, I had to just leave the party...i just picked up my jacket and purse and walked out. The worst part...i cried...I CRIED IN PUBLIC, while riding the stupid subway. I think that is the most embarrassing thing ever.
Its not like I loved the guy, its not like i was dating him forever. BUT what it is...I let him in. I let him in and he walked away. That's the worst part..that's what hurts the most...he knew exactly who I was and it wasn't good enough. He didn't even have the BALLS to tell me to my face that he doesn't want to date me anymore...what kind of coward just stops talking to someone. I don't even know what went wrong.

A BBM Conversation about Glee

Everyone, Me and my sister Andrea are probably the coolest people you would ever want to know...Seriously! We share a love of many things, crafting, musicals..especially GLEE. So I thought I would share our bbm conversation from yesterday.
Erin: Glee tonight. YAY!
Andrea:Woohoooooooooo!
Erin: Glee glee glee. woot woot
Andrea: Not watching til tomorrow - no spoilers!
Erin: Okay i will keep quiet. I might just occasionally send you cheers
Erin: Hahaha. You are gonna be happy with this episode
Andrea:Woo, Kurt is gonna talk i bet!
Erin: Lots and Lots. Although i didn't like the second song.
Andrea: I wonder if they sing cherish? it's been in my head all day for some reason
Erin: OMG. I love this episode so much
Andrea: Gah, I hate waiting!!! Damn you Lost!
Erin: Well you and braydon can watch it tomorrow
Andrea: I have 4 hours of tv to watch tomorrow - glee, parenthood, and biggest loser!
Erin: Stupid Lost. You miss glee and parenthood. what a horrible night
Andrea: No. Parenthood is for deadliest catch, and i don't mind that shifting
Erin: Well that's okay
Andrea: This is gonna be a sad season. My fav captain passed away and this season will deal with that.
Erin: Oh tag. That will be sad
Erin: Omg. Not to ruin anything Mercedes and Kurt....LOVEIT
Andrea: Oh Tag?
Erin: That should be yah.
Andrea: Gotchab
Erin: I really enjoyed glee tonight
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Andrea: Watching glee now!
Erin: Really do you love it
Andrea: Much more. Balanced
Andrea: Hah, Kurt is awesome - actually dancing on his seat during express yourself
Erin: This episode has lots of kurt, you will be very happy
Andrea: I miss rachel and finn together. Nothing good can come from jessie. I am looking forward to kurt's multimedia presentation!
Erin: I want Finn and rachel together. and my theory - finn and rachel will be together by the end of the episode
Andrea: this episode? don't you know if they are or not already
Erin: Sorry, i meant season
Andrea: Yes, yes, yes! We make culture!
Andrea: Hah, as if sue is 29!
Erin: I told you. Do you love sue's hair confession about Will's hair
Andrea: She's so lying
Andrea: Bah, Bah on you jessie
Erin: It was a really good episode, Lots of other cast. Not all Finn and Rachel
Andrea: It must have been hard to recreate the video exactly
Erin: I love and appreciate their eye for detail
Andrea: Hah, I still love adding sue sylvester and will shuester i hate you. Awesome
Andrea: Hah, was waiting for like a virgin
Erin: Its a good one. I enjoyed it
Andrea: But will they all go through with it
Erin: You will see. It was one of my favourite songs of the show
Andrea: No, no reinventing kurt!
Andrea: you know, still not enough kurt for me. Apparently i need an all kurt show
Erin: Just wait there is more kurt to come
Andrea: Hah, so only finn got lucky and he's pretending he didn't
Erin: yup. finn has realized that he really loves rachel
Andrea: AHHHH. what is jessie doing?
Erin: you are not gonna like him. but don't worry i have faith in finn
Andrea: I love brittany almost as much as kurt
Andrea: is kurt justin?
Erin: Really she is so dumb i just can't get past it. but tina rocked tonight
Erin: Yup kurt is justin
Andrea: What? Tina? is there more to come from her?
Erin: Just wait. Its Great
Andrea: Not enough puck though tonight. that's what i'll complain about tonight
Erin: you just want to complain about something
Andrea: Hah Tina, love her
Erin: i would love more quinn and puck. i want to see how their relationship is going
Erin: I told you Tina is awesome
Andrea: last week it seemed like quinn had him pretty whipped
Erin: i know. i want to see more of puck being whipped, i think it would be funny
Andrea: A sing off? jessie is lammmmmmmmmme
Erin: I know so lame. isn't finn so much more classy
Andrea: i love me some awkward finn
Erin: and did you see rachel's face when finn told her that he really did like her
Andrea: and her, noooo
Andrea:Yah mercedes brings in the choie
Erin: I know. She loves finn. this jessie guy doesn't stand a chance
Erin: my favourite song of the night
Andrea: is it like you are reliving the episode

The End. I hope you enjoyed

Hope is fading fast!

It is Tuesday morning and no word from GoodLife. I am thinking I didn't get the job. :(

Oh well...I am still gonna join goodlife..well maybe, I am also trying out a different boot camp tonight, and I am gonna try out boxing. I really think the boxing is gonna stick...I have a lot of anger and I enjoy hitting things.

I am also trying out new a boot camp because I have started hating the one I am in now...it is like an hour of running, and running makes me so grumpy. I know it is an awesome work out blah blah blah. But its not for me. I would be way more happy doing an intense spin class or some sort of cardio class than running. And because running makes me so grumpy, when other things happen in class like him point out to the class that I am doing it the wrong way and uses my badness as an example for the class....its adds to my grumpiness. Especially last night when he yelled at me instead of helping me. I don't take kindly to yelling. In fact, I am kind of a girl about yelling and I start to cry. I don't want to cry...I just can't seem to prevent it from happening.

Anyways, I did end up taking a large amount of dirty laundry to my parents house on Saturday. It was awesome, I did laundry and I watched some marathon for this tv show on space, about a girl who died and her avatar was stuck in a robot. It was called Caprica. It was pretty interesting.

Also this week is very exciting because my crazy nephew is turning 3 and in honour of his birth...I am taking Thursday, Friday, AND Monday off. Really...I just wanted a break from work.

Fast Food Rules

So....This past week...I have forgotten to bring my lunch 4 times...I know I know... 1 out of 5 is not a passing grade..but mornings are not my friend. And I like sleep soooooo much. Anyways. I have come to realize something in the jungle that is underground food courts. People are crazy. For example, if you go to a place that you have never been before and you hold up the line asking questions and creating a disturbance in the flow of the line...the people behind you get so angry. I know..because I have experienced the anger of being stuck behind someone that hasn't properly prepared to place their order. Drives me crazy. It is just common courtesy to observe the menu and prepare your order before you reach the front.
That is why I end up at the bagel stop a lot, there is never any line, I know exactly what to get and I am not experiencing line rage.
And there are a certain places that people line up for days and days. I just don't understand it. Why would you want to go to a place that charges you like $10 for lunch and you have to wait like 20 minutes to order and get it...that's like half of your lunch time wasted right there!
Thai Express...their line gets so long..they brought in those dividers..you know the ones that they use at movie theatres to keep the lines organized. And people line up...its crazy.
There is also this place called Freshi I think...I don't remember the exact name because I always walk by it completely intimidated. They have like 4 entrances to lines, depending on what you are ordering..then you have to like shout your order to the person..and people are going everywhere and there are so many things happening. I can't handle it. I would be interested in eating there but I know I am not up to the pressure of the ordering. I often want to walk up to people who have ordered there and ask them how they do it...how do they survive the pressure and the order chaos.
I also don't understand why anyone would pay so much for lunch either. You can get a pretty decent sized lunch for under $5. The only time i pay more is if I am treating myself to something special or it is large enough that i can save half of it and eat it for dinner.
Anyways...it's Friday...woohoo weekend. I am cat sitting my parent's cats and I am debating taking a huge bag filled with dirty laundry just so I can do my laundry in peace without any scare old ladies in the way.
Yup...my life is exciting....and I know you are all JEALOUS!

Destiny

So....this job...is perfect for me. They only need someone to work 12hours a week, you get full access to the gym facilities and....best part....it's a CHARITY JUICE BAR. All profits go directly to this autism charity that the owner of goodlife created to fund autism research. Seriously.....how great is that. All the produce is donated, all employees are paid through the gym...so every time you buy a fruit smoothie at this juice bar...you are basically giving right to the charity.
I want this job!

But now that I want it so bad.....I am trying to remain positive, this job is meant to be mine. I don't see how it could work out any other way.

If it doesn't work out....I will be sad. So continue with the positive vibes!

Special shout out thanks to Amy and Andrea! Woot Woot. I am doing a little thank you dance right now, in my office/cubicle. My co-worker just walked by and gave me a strange look...but than she joined in. LOVE IT!

Two birds....One stone

So....as you all know, I am focusing on trying to get into shape and I am down to my last 15pounds. Well, on Saturday I had a check up with him to see where I am at and how I am doing on my goals. I have been working really hard to get these last few pounds off and to get into shape. I walk home from work once a week, I do boot camp twice a week, yoga twice a week...well they canceled one of the classes so now it is once a week.
Anyways...I am very active now, Marv even said so. He said that my fitness level has improved dramatically since I started and I could keep up with anyone. I don't really believe that...most of these girls are machines.
But when we get down to the numbers...nothing changes...month after month after month...and I work harder each month, I have improved my eating habits - that's right, I eat breakfast now.

Soooooo, Marv says I need to make a drastic change to shock my body into losing weight again. I can either increase my cardio or restrict my diet significantly.

AND

We all know...I don't have the will power to restrict my diet...so cardio it is.
Now everyone keeps telling me...RUN. It will change your life, it is so good for you...blah blah blah. My family are a bunch of runners...it is like some crazy cult..and frankly..I don't want to drink that Koolaid.
Running should be reserved for when you are being chased...although there is a major catch-22 in that theory...because how are you gonna outrun a psycho-killer if you aren't a regular runner. Let's face it...I doubt this killer will do 10 and 1's with you...although he is probably winded to..but he does a lot more chasing than you do running. Now don't worry, as long as you have a back up plan... like always hang around with someone you are willing to sacrifice. I know it sounds cruel..but you got to do what you got to do to survive.
Okay........Sorry about that...got distracted.

So I am looking into alternative exercise choices. I may take up boxing, I have a lot of pent up rage..and I know I would enjoy hitting things. I am looking to join a gym so I have access to their facilities and classes.
But memberships are like CRAZY expensive. So as I was looking over the GoodLife web page...I had a...now, I don't want to sell it too much..but I had a BRILLIANT IDEA!!!!!!!!

If I worked at a gym I get access to the facilities for free, as it says on their website. What a coincidence...i am looking for a part time job. So...I applied to be a beverage/food counter girl. I have an interview today at 5:30. So people of my blog...send all your positive thinking and magic vibes my direction. Do whatever you can do to help me get this job.

Chia Suicide

So....I majorly lost the last chia challenge....got my butt handed to me. But it wasn't my fault...I did everything I could to help Melvin grow the most rockiness fro ever. But he was always behind Gari. And then a horrible thing happened...I came in one day and all of Melvin's hair had been smooched on one side. It was a brutal set back for me and Melvin. But we survived...I gave him a pretty green hair bow to hide the fact that he was dented on one side. But nothing I did distracted from the fact that Gari...he clearly grew the better fro.
So we decided to start again...and I had a great new plan...make the seed mixture thicker so it wouldn't all slide off like last time. This time I had my eye on the prize. Sexy Rexy was born. Melivn was retired. And we were doing great...the seed stuck very well and it looked like I had a good chance..but then I came in this morning and tragedy struck. The seed mixture on the back of Sexy Rexy...they were all off...it looked like someone took their thumb and wiped off part of him. I was very distraught....who would do this to me. I made a list of enemies and was ready to do some investigative work...when I looked back to sexy rexy to tell him we would get through this....and more seeds had come off.

That's when I realized that Sexy Rexy....he is the one that is causing all these accidents. My chia pet doesn't want to fulfil his destiny. He can't handle the chia contest pressure. I had to put him on my co-worker's desk..I just couldn't look at him anymore...I am just to disappointed in him.

So people of my blog....what do I do?

Boys of the world....

WHY?

Really....Why??

Okay I am sure you are all wondering why I am questioning the boys of the world...I will tell you.

So I am out Friday night for the first patio of the season with my new awesome friends....side note....LOVE THEM! Patio time was fun, some more new friends..and a great new business idea. I don't want to get into that now but FRIEND AIR...look for it in the near future.
So after the patio we went to this karaoke bar on queen, The Gladstone, and relaxed and enjoyed the singing. During this time....I made eye contact with a guy and than he came over beside me and was leaning into me while still talking to his friends...he than started talking to me...we are all flirty. He's from Kingston..and my whole family is from the K-town..so we had a lot to talk about. Everything is going good..and I ask him what he is doing in town....and his exact words are:

"I am in town visiting but I have a WIFE to go home to"

Erin's Internal monologue:
Seriously...what the fuck...what are you doing flirting with me..giving me single vibes and then just throwing that out there...jack ass.

My response to him....'Good for you' than walk away...seriously..I am not up for any of that mind game crap.

Maybe it is time to consider the crazy cat lady future. I mean I like cats...and I am already slightly crazy...it seems like it is a good fit for me.

NAH...we all know my future is to become a ninja assassin.