So....I have lost another pair of headphones to the destructo kitties. To be fair, they were my back up pair and I really hated them, they never stayed in my ears....aways falling out, so annoying. So I haven't been very careful with them at all, secretly hoping that they would eat them. Well it took them long enough, I have been using this pair for like 4 months. So I am off to buy another pair.
I am positive that it was remy that killed them this time...because he brought them too me all proud. I had to give him a time out....not that it ever changes anything. Logan still tries to climb me while i am cooking so he can see what I am doing. That may have been my fault because when he was a kitten, he liked to sit on my shoulder or I would carry him in my housecoat pocket so he could see everything. Remy still pulls books off the shelf one at a time while meowing at me for attention.
I really need to get them a new hobby....destroying things....not cool.
On a TIFF note. I have put my choices in, i was in box 27 out of 39 and they drew box 9 out as the winning box. So....I have a 50/50 chance of getting my choices. Fingers crossed everyone....send me positive film festival vibes.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
And the band plays on....
And on and on....and so much that you would like to do violent things to the musicians.
You are probably wondering why I am feeling negative thoughts towards musicians because normally i am all about the arts and all that.
BUT.....a marching band concert on a Saturday evening when you are trying to concentrate on your TIFF film choices.....not cool.
So I get home on Saturday from a very successful and awesome day on the beach, I have a shower and wash off all the sand...then i lie down for a lovely Saturday early evening nap before dinner. And I am rudely awakened by a marching band playing on the field behind my apt. So I get up make some dinner and try to maintain my relaxed state by watching some TV.....and the next band starts up. I am thinking that a foot ball game is starting soon, so the band will go away soon. But not so lucky....i look out my window and there are numerous bands all standing around. So from like 5pm to 10:30pm....it was a great marching band concert. and really there is only so much marching band you can take. I almost became that crazy lady that yells out her windows to keep it down. Really all the songs they played sounded the same!!!! Relaxed state GONE!
So if you hear any news reports about a crazy lady attacking a marching band. Well...someone is going to have to come bail me out!
You are probably wondering why I am feeling negative thoughts towards musicians because normally i am all about the arts and all that.
BUT.....a marching band concert on a Saturday evening when you are trying to concentrate on your TIFF film choices.....not cool.
So I get home on Saturday from a very successful and awesome day on the beach, I have a shower and wash off all the sand...then i lie down for a lovely Saturday early evening nap before dinner. And I am rudely awakened by a marching band playing on the field behind my apt. So I get up make some dinner and try to maintain my relaxed state by watching some TV.....and the next band starts up. I am thinking that a foot ball game is starting soon, so the band will go away soon. But not so lucky....i look out my window and there are numerous bands all standing around. So from like 5pm to 10:30pm....it was a great marching band concert. and really there is only so much marching band you can take. I almost became that crazy lady that yells out her windows to keep it down. Really all the songs they played sounded the same!!!! Relaxed state GONE!
So if you hear any news reports about a crazy lady attacking a marching band. Well...someone is going to have to come bail me out!
Friday, August 27, 2010
Books
So. If you read my other blog you will know I am right in the middle of a major obsession about this teen book series...The Hunger Games. 3 books and the last one was just released.
I have not slept the last two nights because I have been reading and I can't stop. Even right now...I am fighting the will to read at my desk at work. I mean i use to do it as a teller during slow periods. But i have work to do.
There is nothing that makes me happier than a good book, well except maybe a good movie. And this last little while i have found a new favourite movie - Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. Seriously people it is such and Erin movie. It wasn't predictable and when it was....it was suppose to be. I mean don't you hate it when you go to a movie and you have the whole thing figured out within the first 20 minutes.
I think that is why I am so into books right now, because I am not great at predicting them. There are two many factors or possibilities. Sometimes I wish that movies would stop being such predictable watered down copies of each other.
For now...i would love some more suggestions on books. Interesting ones that can keep my interest and aren't predictable.
I am now taking suggestion.....
I have not slept the last two nights because I have been reading and I can't stop. Even right now...I am fighting the will to read at my desk at work. I mean i use to do it as a teller during slow periods. But i have work to do.
There is nothing that makes me happier than a good book, well except maybe a good movie. And this last little while i have found a new favourite movie - Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. Seriously people it is such and Erin movie. It wasn't predictable and when it was....it was suppose to be. I mean don't you hate it when you go to a movie and you have the whole thing figured out within the first 20 minutes.
I think that is why I am so into books right now, because I am not great at predicting them. There are two many factors or possibilities. Sometimes I wish that movies would stop being such predictable watered down copies of each other.
For now...i would love some more suggestions on books. Interesting ones that can keep my interest and aren't predictable.
I am now taking suggestion.....
Thursday, August 26, 2010
TIFF
It's that time again people.....the most exciting time of the year after Christmas and right ahead of my birthday......The Toronto International Film Festival!!!!!
So I am in the middle of picking movies this year. Right now...the jury is still out on if i think it is a good selection or not. I sort of got distracted yesterday and instead of narrowing down my movie choices....I read an entire book instead. But it was so worth it. and i can narrow down films at work today. I have 10 choices and I am gonna take Andrea to see one movie hopefully, and hopefully me and mom and dad can go to a few together...same with Will and Jess. But I expect for the most part...i will be flying solo on most of my films. Which sometimes....i enjoy just for the ease of finding seats.
I will update you tomorrow on my choices. Today's job is to re-read every film in the catalogue and decide which ones make the first cut.
So I am in the middle of picking movies this year. Right now...the jury is still out on if i think it is a good selection or not. I sort of got distracted yesterday and instead of narrowing down my movie choices....I read an entire book instead. But it was so worth it. and i can narrow down films at work today. I have 10 choices and I am gonna take Andrea to see one movie hopefully, and hopefully me and mom and dad can go to a few together...same with Will and Jess. But I expect for the most part...i will be flying solo on most of my films. Which sometimes....i enjoy just for the ease of finding seats.
I will update you tomorrow on my choices. Today's job is to re-read every film in the catalogue and decide which ones make the first cut.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
GOAL!!!!!
So two things happened this week that make my day....
1. My contract was extended, so i have longer to find a new job. It is like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I can finally breath easier.
2. I spent the day in the sun yesterday and I got a sunburn. Now most of you are probably like...really, A burn is not a good thing. While for me to get a tan, there is a certain process...first i must burn and then it will gradually change to a tan. the red eventually fades away to reveal a slightly darker than normal skin tone.
It has been my goal of the summer to get a tan. Also this weekend. I am headed to the beach. We aren't going out of the city or anything...so i still won't be headed to the sandbanks like i want to be but....it is getting late in the summer and a beach is a beach.
1. My contract was extended, so i have longer to find a new job. It is like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I can finally breath easier.
2. I spent the day in the sun yesterday and I got a sunburn. Now most of you are probably like...really, A burn is not a good thing. While for me to get a tan, there is a certain process...first i must burn and then it will gradually change to a tan. the red eventually fades away to reveal a slightly darker than normal skin tone.
It has been my goal of the summer to get a tan. Also this weekend. I am headed to the beach. We aren't going out of the city or anything...so i still won't be headed to the sandbanks like i want to be but....it is getting late in the summer and a beach is a beach.
Monday, August 23, 2010
A World of Change
Have you ever woke up one morning and wonder what happened? Well, I haven't been sleeping lately and I know you guys have noticed the extremely depressing turn this blog has taken. That isn't me, I have always been a pretty happy funny person. But lately I just can't shake all the negative and bitterness. I have to let it go or it is gonna pull me down.
So I am working on releasing my anger and moving forward.
I have created another blog. You can read it if your interested. It is called The Happiness Project. You know how I always say...take some time for yourself...do things that make you happy. Well it is easier said than done. So I have made an agreement with myself to do one thing every day that makes me happy and then blog about it. I want to find that thing...that spark that I have lost.
Think of this as my Eat, Pray, Love moment without my self discovery being sponsored by a publishing company. Well unless anyone wants to sponsor me. Because I am cool with that. Money is gonna be tight soon and I could use all the help I can get.
Anyways...i just wanted to let my loyal 7 readers know that I am trying to bring this blog back to happy and upbeat stories that will brighten your day instead of doom and gloom it has become lately. I will try to keep my emo poems to a minimum. I swear...only one a day! That's all I promise. Although I really think my emo poems show promise.
So I am working on releasing my anger and moving forward.
I have created another blog. You can read it if your interested. It is called The Happiness Project. You know how I always say...take some time for yourself...do things that make you happy. Well it is easier said than done. So I have made an agreement with myself to do one thing every day that makes me happy and then blog about it. I want to find that thing...that spark that I have lost.
Think of this as my Eat, Pray, Love moment without my self discovery being sponsored by a publishing company. Well unless anyone wants to sponsor me. Because I am cool with that. Money is gonna be tight soon and I could use all the help I can get.
Anyways...i just wanted to let my loyal 7 readers know that I am trying to bring this blog back to happy and upbeat stories that will brighten your day instead of doom and gloom it has become lately. I will try to keep my emo poems to a minimum. I swear...only one a day! That's all I promise. Although I really think my emo poems show promise.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Scars
Every day cuts happen. I can't heal them all. I am covered in scars and they are mostly from you. Why do the ones you love always hurt you the most.
You cut me off and pick a different side when although I may have been rude, I was only responding to a situation he created. And he may tell you it was all a joke but it doesn't feel that way and even if it was, a normal person would see me getting upset and tell me. But I had to find out from another source.
And you are completely fine that he was snotty and rude, he doesn't have to apologize at all because of course it is never his or your fault. You are always right and don't have a speck of dirt on you. Your closet isn't filled with regret or skeletons? Because no one is spotless and it's impossible to be right 100% of the time.
I bend so much that this time I broke.
You cut me off and pick a different side when although I may have been rude, I was only responding to a situation he created. And he may tell you it was all a joke but it doesn't feel that way and even if it was, a normal person would see me getting upset and tell me. But I had to find out from another source.
And you are completely fine that he was snotty and rude, he doesn't have to apologize at all because of course it is never his or your fault. You are always right and don't have a speck of dirt on you. Your closet isn't filled with regret or skeletons? Because no one is spotless and it's impossible to be right 100% of the time.
I bend so much that this time I broke.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
LIGERS
So, a private zoo in Taiwan kept an African lion and a Bengal tiger together and surprise surprise....Ligers were born. This like blows my mind. All I can think is....good call Napolean Dynamite....good call.
One of the best parts was the zoo keeper who is being charged for breeding protected animals says that it was a love match.
Anyways....I am officially obsessed!
But than again...why wouldn't i be obsessed with a hybrid...some of my favourite things are hybrid...like brunch, and glee, and other things that can't think of right now...but I will.
Here is a list of some animal hybrids:
-Zonkey
-Cama
-Grolar/Pizzly
-Wolphin
Hope you enjoyed this informative post. And remember according to Napolean Dynamite, Ligers are bread for strength and magic.
One of the best parts was the zoo keeper who is being charged for breeding protected animals says that it was a love match.
Anyways....I am officially obsessed!
But than again...why wouldn't i be obsessed with a hybrid...some of my favourite things are hybrid...like brunch, and glee, and other things that can't think of right now...but I will.
Here is a list of some animal hybrids:
-Zonkey
-Cama
-Grolar/Pizzly
-Wolphin
Hope you enjoyed this informative post. And remember according to Napolean Dynamite, Ligers are bread for strength and magic.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Questions
Do you think she even misses me? 25times a day I go to text her or call her about something I heard that I think she would enjoy. Then I remember.
Be the bigger person my mom says.
But I just feel like I am always the bigger person, I am always the one to make the first move. Why does it always have to be me? I guess it is because she can get along just great without me. She probably hasn't even noticed our lack communication. Which is sad. Because teen mom has been particularly dramatic these last two weeks.
I mean really Farrah, you never take a cheque and then wire money. That was so obviously fraud! And really Amber, Gary is a loser and you two should not be getting engaged, although I doubt this engagement will last long. And finally Tyler, asking for phone records really! And back to Amber and Gary....leaving bath water in the bath while you are away in Florida...gross.
Maybe tomorrow I will make an effort.
Be the bigger person my mom says.
But I just feel like I am always the bigger person, I am always the one to make the first move. Why does it always have to be me? I guess it is because she can get along just great without me. She probably hasn't even noticed our lack communication. Which is sad. Because teen mom has been particularly dramatic these last two weeks.
I mean really Farrah, you never take a cheque and then wire money. That was so obviously fraud! And really Amber, Gary is a loser and you two should not be getting engaged, although I doubt this engagement will last long. And finally Tyler, asking for phone records really! And back to Amber and Gary....leaving bath water in the bath while you are away in Florida...gross.
Maybe tomorrow I will make an effort.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Apartment Crisis 2010
So you will be glad to know that my electricity was fixed yesterday afternoon...it apparently was just a fuse and I am not electrically savy. Well we already knew that I wasn't very handy. I solve all my problems by duct tape. It is a miracle....this thing called duct tape. Red Green was really onto something.
So by 1pm I had electricity back...but water was another issue. And I was all gross and sweaty. The water was gonna be out for awhile and there were 3 apartment buildings effected. They closed off my street and were digging a huge hole in the street in order to fix the broken water main. I decided the only way to get clean was to shower at the gym. Which is a big deal because I HATE those showers, there is no privacy what so ever. Although a lot of people at the gym are completely comfortable to walk around naked in the change room. I don't feel like sharing my naked with a bunch of random strangers. But sacrifices must be made in order to not be sweaty and smelly anymore.
I ran for 50 minutes on the treadmill, straight running, no walk breaks at all...except for the part where i dropped my ipod and i almost fell off the treadmill trying to retrieve it before stopping the belt altogether. Then I enjoyed the shower...although the gym towels are like so tiny...it does not work well to cover you for that walk back from the shower.
And guess what. Sometime around 11:30pm last night, water was returned WOOT WOOT. Although no hot water yet because everyone in the whole building probably showered this morning..meaning...no hot water for me.
This ends the tale of the electrical/water crisis of 2010.
So by 1pm I had electricity back...but water was another issue. And I was all gross and sweaty. The water was gonna be out for awhile and there were 3 apartment buildings effected. They closed off my street and were digging a huge hole in the street in order to fix the broken water main. I decided the only way to get clean was to shower at the gym. Which is a big deal because I HATE those showers, there is no privacy what so ever. Although a lot of people at the gym are completely comfortable to walk around naked in the change room. I don't feel like sharing my naked with a bunch of random strangers. But sacrifices must be made in order to not be sweaty and smelly anymore.
I ran for 50 minutes on the treadmill, straight running, no walk breaks at all...except for the part where i dropped my ipod and i almost fell off the treadmill trying to retrieve it before stopping the belt altogether. Then I enjoyed the shower...although the gym towels are like so tiny...it does not work well to cover you for that walk back from the shower.
And guess what. Sometime around 11:30pm last night, water was returned WOOT WOOT. Although no hot water yet because everyone in the whole building probably showered this morning..meaning...no hot water for me.
This ends the tale of the electrical/water crisis of 2010.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Life Happens
It is Monday morning, and I am sitting in my apartment. And i just can't help but laugh at my life right now. A water main broke which has screwed up the water pressure in my apartment building and there is no water available to the upper floors. Which means, there is no water in my apartment. Then to add to the fun, i woke up Sunday morning and there was no power in my bedroom, so I was like..ahhh a fuse has blown...so off i go to the hardware store to buy new fuses. Guess what...the fuses don't fix things. So...my apartment has no power in the bedroom and no water. Wanna trade lives? Oh well. Things happen...and I am trying to be casual about it. My worrying days may not be over but i am working really hard to minimize them.
Also....this weekend, I saw Scott Pilgrim vs The World...and it was everything i wanted it to be. Filmed in Toronto, set in Toronto. I loved it!!! Did you know the library scene was even filmed in my library. Just made my day. And i am very proud of myself because i went to see it by myself. I didn't want to share the experience with anyone. I just wanted to go and love it.
I also started on my goal wall, I have made my exercise plan chart, and some goals to achieve. now i just have to put them up on the wall and they can remind me everyday to keep moving forward and trying to achieve things that are good for my soul. I know....sounds cheesey but it feels right.
Thanks for not minding about my mental vacation. I needed it. I have learned that sometimes it is better to be the bigger person. and someone has to make the first move.
Also....this weekend, I saw Scott Pilgrim vs The World...and it was everything i wanted it to be. Filmed in Toronto, set in Toronto. I loved it!!! Did you know the library scene was even filmed in my library. Just made my day. And i am very proud of myself because i went to see it by myself. I didn't want to share the experience with anyone. I just wanted to go and love it.
I also started on my goal wall, I have made my exercise plan chart, and some goals to achieve. now i just have to put them up on the wall and they can remind me everyday to keep moving forward and trying to achieve things that are good for my soul. I know....sounds cheesey but it feels right.
Thanks for not minding about my mental vacation. I needed it. I have learned that sometimes it is better to be the bigger person. and someone has to make the first move.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Hiatus
Sorry my avid reads....the 7 of you will have to do without me for a little while. I need this week off to recharge. Also, i don't think you want to hear my feelings right now. They are a swirling mass of anger, hurt, and sadness. And yes I know I am being dramatic...but guess what...I am a drama queen. Live with it.
I will be back in a few days..when I have my emotions under control.
In the mean time, Here are a few suggestions to fill your time:
I will be back in a few days..when I have my emotions under control.
In the mean time, Here are a few suggestions to fill your time:
- Take up knitting
- Start reading comic books...sorry graphic novels
- Learn to play an instrument
- Sign up for kick boxing lessons
- Start your own blog....I will read it.
Friday, August 6, 2010
ONE WEEK
And I am starting the count down.....One week until Scott Pilgrim vs The World, An epic of epic epicness! I cannot wait, I am super nerdy excited.
Just to get all of you pumped as well, here's the website!
http://www.scottpilgrimthemovie.com/
On a side note...I am thinking of getting rid of facebook.....I never use it and I find it boring, I mean you can only stalk people for so long. Let's all face it...why did we get facebook in the first place, to show how awesome we are and to see how lame all our old friends turned out to be. Well i say live and let live. Who cares if your ex best friend gained all that weight or married a really really old dude (still funny)!
I am bored of it. I am bored of all this social media, twitter and facebook....yawn. I mean..even this blog, i don't write it for my avid 9 readers (which you all rock by the way, thanks for reading)...I write it because i have always had a journal aka diary to write out all my feelings and deal with my excess of emotions.
On another random tangent...my dad has suggested that i try living in the now and stop worrying about the past or the future.....and i promised him i would try. Although, i am a champion worrier and most of my worries are focused on something i did wrong or some future event i am worried about. So if i start living in the now...what will i do will all my worry energy? I wonder if i could harness this worry into something super useful like......well i don't know what worry energy would be used for other than worry. so i will have to work on that. ANyways...i will keep you posted on my new NOW lifestyle.
Have a great weekend everybody...i shall be in buffalo shopping and doing cheesy tourist stuff.
Just to get all of you pumped as well, here's the website!
http://www.scottpilgrimthemovie.com/
On a side note...I am thinking of getting rid of facebook.....I never use it and I find it boring, I mean you can only stalk people for so long. Let's all face it...why did we get facebook in the first place, to show how awesome we are and to see how lame all our old friends turned out to be. Well i say live and let live. Who cares if your ex best friend gained all that weight or married a really really old dude (still funny)!
I am bored of it. I am bored of all this social media, twitter and facebook....yawn. I mean..even this blog, i don't write it for my avid 9 readers (which you all rock by the way, thanks for reading)...I write it because i have always had a journal aka diary to write out all my feelings and deal with my excess of emotions.
On another random tangent...my dad has suggested that i try living in the now and stop worrying about the past or the future.....and i promised him i would try. Although, i am a champion worrier and most of my worries are focused on something i did wrong or some future event i am worried about. So if i start living in the now...what will i do will all my worry energy? I wonder if i could harness this worry into something super useful like......well i don't know what worry energy would be used for other than worry. so i will have to work on that. ANyways...i will keep you posted on my new NOW lifestyle.
Have a great weekend everybody...i shall be in buffalo shopping and doing cheesy tourist stuff.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Feeling Low
So....I know I try to keep things up beat on the blog....well okay...I try and fail. But....this is just a great way to deal with my feelings...and today...I am feeling a little low. I got some bad news about a job I really wanted and I am also feeling under the weather...which i am convinced is from the extremely unpleasant conditions at work. It is so cold in my office...I need a winter jacket to stay warm...right now I am wearing leg warmers on my arms. So going from this extreme cold to the extreme heat of outside...I have caught a summer cold.
So...when I am feeling low, I love to watch sad movies and shows. Yesterday I watched my favourite episode of Buffy. The season finale of season 5. (spoiler alert) When she sacrifices herself for her sister Dawn....it gets me every time!
Another thing that I love to do when I am feeling low...Eat Junk food. Which is directly contradictory to my goal of getting into shape. Luckily, the summer cold is making me not want to eat at all. So I guess there are positives and negatives to every situation.
So besides this low feeling....I have made a few summer goals. One in particular...going to the Sandbanks...to spend a day of fun in the sun and sand. We went there all the time as kids and really i just want to recapture that feeling of fun and freedom. I want to go and soak up the sun, and dig water holes and body surf. But I have yet to get there. Hopefully before the summer is over. Worst comes to worst...i will pick a random day and just go myself. All i need to do is find a car and figure out how to get there.
So...when I am feeling low, I love to watch sad movies and shows. Yesterday I watched my favourite episode of Buffy. The season finale of season 5. (spoiler alert) When she sacrifices herself for her sister Dawn....it gets me every time!
Another thing that I love to do when I am feeling low...Eat Junk food. Which is directly contradictory to my goal of getting into shape. Luckily, the summer cold is making me not want to eat at all. So I guess there are positives and negatives to every situation.
So besides this low feeling....I have made a few summer goals. One in particular...going to the Sandbanks...to spend a day of fun in the sun and sand. We went there all the time as kids and really i just want to recapture that feeling of fun and freedom. I want to go and soak up the sun, and dig water holes and body surf. But I have yet to get there. Hopefully before the summer is over. Worst comes to worst...i will pick a random day and just go myself. All i need to do is find a car and figure out how to get there.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Beginnings are Scary.
So....my party on Friday night....I may have made a grave error and mixed beer and liquor. I know...rookie mistake. but I haven't drank in a very very long time. And once the Jagger bombs come out. I don't make smart choices.
So...Alcohol: 1 Erin: 0
But that won't be a problem anymore, although no one believes me....I am giving up the stuff. I am going Straight Edge.
Due to my bad choices with alcohol, I had to cancel the dinner with mom and dad I was so looking forward to. And no brunch at the Stockyards on Sunday morning. Nothing exciting at all this weekend. I didn't even get any sun. My goals of getting a sun tan this summer are failing miserably.
While lying in bed this weekend not liking myself or life very much, i watched Hope Floats on W. And this one line has been stuck in my head ever since. It is the lesson i have been trying to teach myself for ever but i never seem to learn.
So...Alcohol: 1 Erin: 0
But that won't be a problem anymore, although no one believes me....I am giving up the stuff. I am going Straight Edge.
Due to my bad choices with alcohol, I had to cancel the dinner with mom and dad I was so looking forward to. And no brunch at the Stockyards on Sunday morning. Nothing exciting at all this weekend. I didn't even get any sun. My goals of getting a sun tan this summer are failing miserably.
While lying in bed this weekend not liking myself or life very much, i watched Hope Floats on W. And this one line has been stuck in my head ever since. It is the lesson i have been trying to teach myself for ever but i never seem to learn.
Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad, but it's what's in the middle that counts. So, when you find yourself at the beginning, just give hope a chance to float up. And it will!
Beginnings are scary...and that is where I am right now. At the beginning of a brand new chapter. I just have to remember....don't let the fear psych me out. I have made great progress so far...I just have to keep moving forward.
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