Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Today is the Day!!

So, I have been meaning to renew my passport for weeks now and the office isn't very far from my work.  I have my form all filled out, and my passport pictures taken.....so I am ready.  The office opens at 8am and I don't start work until 8:30 so I have half an hour to get it done before work.  But every morning when my alarm goes off, i sit up and decided....i can renew it tomorrow.  I have been doing this for like a week now and i really need to get this done because i only have until the 19th and then passport is expired and i can't just renew, i have to do the whole process again.  So i have decided...screw the lines, i am gonna go this morning and just get it done.  I am in fact leaving for the office in like half an hour.  No more procrastination!

On another note....i have 5 assignments for my fundraising class all due next Wednesday, so I will be quite busy this week.  Also in my hr class, we have a group project due on Monday as well as a presentation....then final exam the week after.  So lots of schooling on my plate right now. 

Now for all you gleeks out there, tonight is glee night, and it is sectionals.  Now let me tell you, i don't believe they are at all ready.  They haven't practiced at all or even picked a set list...and now losing Kurt...they are in serious trouble.  Now for our glee girls, we are at Amy's tonight, so excited, and i will be making a delicious snack.  Really I am trying out recipes that could work for Christmas Day appetizers.  Tonight, crescent wrapped baked brie with cranberry.  I think it should be delicious!

Monday, November 29, 2010

The weekend of rest

So, all my weekends for the past few months have been very full of activities and other such stuff which means I have not been able to do my favourite thing ever - lazy Saturdays.  So you guessed it.  I spend Saturday in my pajama's and watched movies and did some homework.  I still have a bunch more homework surprisingly but it was quite a relaxing weekend.  I didn't even misbehave food wise....no ordering out and no junkfood....just what I had in my kitchen. 
Although on Sunday, I did force myself to get dressed and leave my apartment.  I had a mission....it failed but I had to try.  As you know, I love crafting, and as you also know...I have two cats that are quite destructive.  That is not a good match.  See whenever I craft, the cats are quite interested in the wool, often Logan picks up the ball of yarn and runs away.....which drives me crazy because when I put my crocheting down to chase him, Remy starts attacking the wool I am currently using.  So they tag team me.  I have three blankets and a scarf that i have started that i haven't finished due to the frustration I experience while crafting...I miss crafting and want to get back too it....so I need to find a solution, so I popped up to Mary Maxim and was sad to discover that there was no storage/organization options for me.  So now me and my dad are going to Macgyver something.  If anyone has any suggestions, let me know.

Anyways...my day is full of finishing my HR project and doing some work but I am hoping it will be a easy day....I caught a cold/flu last Sunday and it just won't go away....I have a horribly sore throat, no appetite, and a runny nose.  Although I hate being sick...maybe my lack of appetite will make up for the fact that I have zero energy for exercising.

On a Christmas update: 25 days until Christmas.  Are you done your Christmas shopping.  I only have a bunch of small things to finish up.  My one major issue is to decide my wrapping theme this year.  I like all my presents to look the same, that way everyone knows which presents are from me. 

Friday, November 26, 2010

Purple Slushie Friday

So, today at 711's across the US you can get a free purple slushie because it is purple slushie Friday.  And although it is freezing here and I have a terrible cold, I still wish i was in the states to get myself a free slushie.  But things are looking up here, as you know it is cheese bagel Friday, which is always a happy day.  There is also a draw today for a free day off.....fingers crossed that i win.  Although let's hope I use some restraint if i do win and not cash it in immediately.

I also forgot to mention yesterday.....it was a month until Christmas.  So the count down is on and I hope everyone is ready! I know i still have lots to do, most of my Christmas shopping is done but I still have to do all my Christmas baking as well as some cat proof Christmas decorating.  The cat proof decorating is really just hanging some bows on the door and high up on the walls.  Oh and I have to come up with a great baked brie and cranberry recipe...which i basically have figured out already. 

Anyways.....my brain isn't working too fast this morning so I can't think about what else to tell you but maybe later i will write something.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Winter Up You Twelve Year Old Girl

So....it is finally time to start admitting that it is cold out and we need to dress warmer.  Today, I traded in my fall coat for my winter coat.  And since I have grown my hair long I have been obsessed with wearing hats because I finally don't look bald, I can wear winter hats!!!  That is very exciting for me because I love any form of accessorizing and winter wear you can only accessorize so much - Scarfs (i have a lot) Mitts (i am retiring the mitts that are animals because I have been told i am too old) Boots (i have purple sorel boots because they are the most waterproof stylish boots you can find) and finally Hats (the one accessory that i have always struggled with).  You know how they have those hats with the ear flaps and all the fur...i believe they are called trapper hats.  While before they became all popular my mom brought me one back from Yellowknife....but i have never been able to wear it because i haven't figured out the right attitude to adopt when wearing it.  It just seems like it requires a level of commitment that i am not ready to make.  Also, i don't know what winter jacket I would wear with it...i only have two winter jackets, a businessy one and a snowboarding one.  I know what you are thinking...why do you have a snowboarding jacket when you shun winter sports because you don't have the coordination to successfully participate?  Well i wanted to have a jacket that would be good for winter sports if i decided to participate.  Anyways...back to the hat.  This year my goal is to successfully wear that hat and in the words of tim gunn 'make it work'.

Now one other thing i have been thinking about that i wanted to bring up....Maturity levels.  I know that i talk about being a grown up all the time and everything and how mature i have become.  But Alex made me realize something Tuesday night, I will probably always be a 12 year old girl when it comes to some things.  For example....I enjoy peach schnapps....and i know that is the preferred drink of choice for teenage girls but I considering that when I was a teenager I drank straight vodka because the boys said girls couldn't drink it...and me being me had to prove a point.  I deserve the chance to enjoy it now.  Besides it is great with Iced Tea...just add it and you have alcoholic peach iced tea.
But maturity levels aside and everything...I think like what you like...even if that means you can talk to a 12 year old about Wizards of Waverly Place and probably know more than them.
You know this is probably why all my friends that I have made at school this year think I am one of them, a young 20something going through school.  They all refuse to believe that i am 30....hell i refuse to believe it sometimes. 

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Identification Photos

So here is what I have discovered.  When you go to take a photo for say a passport or an id, you are normally not allowed to smile.  This is a problem for me because my natural face for some reason isn't neutral it seems to be sad or mad.  What I need to learn is how to, in the words of Tyra Banks 'smize' (smile with my eyes for those of you who don't watch America's Next Top Model).  So this morning while getting ready for work, which by the way I overslept this morning, I decided to try this 'smize' thing....well it was not successful, let's just say I looked like a crazy person.  So I guess I will have to practice more...if anyone has any smizing tips please let me know.
My current passport, I look angry with short black hair, and the new pictures i took for renewing my passport I look sad with long brown hair.  I would like one where I look happy....because think of the reason you are getting your passport, so you can travel, that's a happy experience....so why should i look sad or mad in my photo....if they allowed it, I would be smiling with two thumbs up. 

Also, a new poll is gonna open soon, the facebook issue, i am still undecided on.  I just don't know if i should go back, I do miss being invited to things, but I am usually so disorganized that i always accept and then forget about it.  Or I cancel last minute because I am lazy. 

We had a lovely dinner last night at The Factory, it was so cheesey and delicious.  I also got a delicious Mango Lemonade, but what really made it awesome was the heartiness of the mug it came in....it was a serious mug, I could cheers the shit out of that mug and not even break it.  I have a history of cheersing to enthusiastically and breaking glasses.  But not is i always drank out of that mug.  An interesting topic came up about my lack of country pride because I don't want those new Canada mitts.  A lot of people I know what those mitts and think they are so cute.  And after some reflection, I have figured out why I am apathetic towards country pride....it is because everyone is so 'woot canada'.  Everyone wants to wear theses mitts...and I hate blending, and I hate matching other people....I feel like if I match someone, they are stealing my identity (Hey, i never said it was a sane reason).  Therefore, I have adopted the attitude of who cares.  It is part of my no logo's thing, I do not like to advertise for other people, also if i am wearing a cool outfit and someone likes it and there is a logo on it, they immediately know where to go to copy me, but if there is no logo, they must first come and compliment me about my outfit, which makes me all happy and then I will usually tell them where I got it.  Anyways....it may not make sense to you...but it all works out in my head.

One last piece of excitement....Alex mentioned to me last night that she was thinking of having a cousin's fondue....and DUDE...I love this idea...fondue is fun, and we haven't had a cousin's party in FOREVER!!! It needs to be done.  And I would volunteer my place but it is way too small and very messy (i am not good at the cleaning and i have so many clothes that they tend to take over my apartment)....So I think we should all think about this cousin's party thing!

Wait...I forgot to tell you, in laundry news, there was a note in my elevator when i got home last night, we are getting new larger front loading washing machines in our building....and they are card activated....I am free from the quarters and loonies....I don't normally do a happy dance when laundry is involved...but I made an exception!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

The Factory

So that is what I have decided we should call The Spaghetti Factory from now on.  It just give it a fresh fun new name.  Just like Walmart should always be called The Mart, and Ajax should always be called The Jaxs.
Anyways, I am getting off topic, like usual.  Today we are gonna have a super fun dinner because my new bff Ryan and my favourite married cousin Alex are coming to Toronto for a concert.  I am so excited....I love The Factory and it is our regular family dinner place but we haven't been in awhile.

Now, I didn't blog yesterday because I slept all day, I called in sick and spent the day sleeping and sleeping and sleeping.  I felt like my head was going to explode, so much pressure.  But I press forward and forced myself to go to work today even though I feel yucky.  Due to my illness, I am crazy grumpy so I am avoiding my co-workers because it is just for the best I don't interact.

So our Christmas Parade party went great even though Andrea was sick and Steph wasn't feeling good.  The cake i baked and decorated did not get eaten which made me a little sad...but Brady was really into the parade this year so it was lots of fun.  I made this baked brie which was SO good.  Everyone loved it but now I am looking for a new recipe because we found that just the brie and the crescent roll dough was just a little salty and Steph suggested adding cranberries to break up the salt.  So it is gonna be an appetizer we will have at Christmas dinner but I am gonna look up a new recipe. 

And finally, let's say hypothetically I came into some money.....and you were suppose to use it frivolously, would you get your eyes lasered, buy a new wardrobe, or stuff for your apartment?

Friday, November 19, 2010

Friday's are my favourite

As I eat my Friday cheese bagel and sip my chocolate milk, sitting in my new cubicle......i am satisfied and happy.  Who know a change of location and some food would give me such an upswing of a mood.  Well okay, we all know food can sway me very easily but as I have always said - I am an emotional eater and being an emotional person, I eat a lot. 

But seriously to be sitting with people again....so happy.  I have already accomplished way more work then normal, I haven't even looked at one gossip site and I get to talk with all my co-workers.

And so excited about tonight....body flow class with Amy and Steph, then we are gonna watch Glee and order in dinner I believe.  Then maybe a fun girl movie. 

Then tomorrow I will be busy with Christmas lights and prep work for our Santa Claus Parade day party.  I am in charge of snacks and fun.  Which let's just say...those are two of my strengths.  I am gonna do some sort of dip or maybe crescent wrapped and then baked brie.  And cupcake decorating for the kids...which mom hates because it is messy but dad loves because it is fun.  So we are gonna do it!  I just need to find someone to take me to bulk barn before Sunday.

I will keep you posted on the Santa Claus Parade Day party!

Have a great Friday....remember everyone should get a cheese bagel from Tim Horton's it makes the day SO much better!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Goodbye Classy

So I was told today that my time in my fancy office is over, I am being moved back to the bullpen with my co-workers.  An Economist needs my office, which you know...I am fine with.  As great as having a window office on the 63rd floor....the glare from that window make it hard to see my computer screen and the chair I have keeps sinking so i am always really low at my desk.  It was never really my office anyways, it is filled with tons of economic paperwork and charts....it is better to move back with my people.  Plus it is lonely in an office in the Econ area...no one to talk to and no one comes to visit me.

So...woot, I am returning to my roots, a cubical in a crowded area where everyone can hear everything and i can chat all day with my co-workers.

In other news....I bought a Christmas present and then decided I loved it so much....I may keep it.  So I need to brainstorm a new plan.  I am also almost done all my Christmas shopping.  I just have to buy myself some long john jammies and wrap them and put them under the tree from Santa.  Grandma buys us pj's every year and this year she gave steph the money for all our presents and i spend all my money on Christmas themed bake ware and a running sweater.  But i want some long john pj's, and i will just have to get them from 'santa'.

Lastly, I am thinking of re-joining facebook.  Just for the fact that I never know what is happening...well, even when I had facebook I never knew but at least people remembered to include me.....even if I didn't pay attention to their invitations. 

So it is poll time:
Should I rejoin facebook?  Or should I continue my shun of all social media except this blog which apparently is a form of social media according to steph...I just view it as my online diary.

So i don't know how to actually put in one of those poll in....so just comment and then maybe after talking to steph she can help me set it up.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Issues of the Day

So I am 15 minutes into my work day, and I am not enjoying it so far, everything seems to not be going according to plan.  The hem on my pants fell and i had to staple it back up, an event on Sunday has no host, and I need to do laundry so bad.  I was gonna do laundry on Friday night....yes that is how i spend my Friday nights because the laundry room is deserted and i get complete access to all the machines.  But last Friday....NO QUARTERS.  So i had to post pone the laundry.  Now on Wednesday, I am wearing clothes that are quite obviously second time around clothes. 

I woke up this morning wishing that I had caught some illness that would require me to stay in bed!  Like Mono, last time I had mono, it was great.....I got to sleep all the time, I love sleeping and to have a illness that requires you to stay in bed, AMAZING!!  I could read trashy novels that don't require thought, and watch movies and TV series that I haven't had a chance to see yet. 

I think I am in a funk and I need to break free.  I am not happy with anything I do at all.  And this is the time of year where I am super happy to the point of annoying people.  I love Christmas and that should heal any grump funk I am in.  Hopefully the funk will dissipate soon.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Tuesday

So blog world as you know I have been on an exercise quest and although I SWORE I would never join the running cult....I started running. So now to make me seem even more crazy steph suggested that we run at 6:30AM on tuesday's and friday's because it will help us be more alert at work.
I am so so so so SO not a morning person and I laughed at this plan at first. But because steph is sort of my trainer I found myself running this morning at 6:30am.

In other news I am off today to help my dad get settled at home after his surgery. Which means glee night may have to be rescheduled because I don't know what time I am getting back from my parent's.
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Monday, November 15, 2010

Fast Pants, Surgery, and The Destructo Kitties

So it was quite a weekend for me....hopefully everyone else had a great weekend.

Let's start my weekend recap with a story about fast pants.  In our boot camp class, this one girl wears exercise pants that are super form fitting, like leggings but made out of running pant material.  Marv always teases her and calls them her fast pants.  So on Thursday me steph and mom went to the Reebok store at Vaughan Mills and I purchased myself some fast pants.  See in terms of running, I am terribly under prepared for winter running.  I don't normally buy running pants because well, I am too short and all the pants are miles to long for me.  I buy a lot of carpi's, which on me works out to floods.  So I went crazy and got fast pants and then when I went with steph for our normal Saturday run, I had to pull them pretty high up and it bunched weird in the crotch and then I was worried I would suffer some sort of camel toe...all scary things so I wore my short shorts of the fast pants thus hiding any embarrassing crotch issues.  I really need to work on my winter running wardrobe.  I also got a running jacket on Saturday...steph helped me pick it out, it is aqua with lime green inside.  I really enjoy it even though the colours are not something i would normally wear.  I think it won me over with the weird location of the pockets and the thumb holes.

Anyways....in other news, I have scratches all over my feet because when I am sleeping or in bed, the minute i move my feet the destructo kitties attack!!!  They bite and scratch my feet, which normally wouldn't be so bad if the covers protect me but they are sneaky and get under the covers.  Also, Saturday Remy just wasn't feeling the sleep in and he meowed for an hour....that's right, i was stubborn enough to ignore his meowing for a whole hour before I sat up and yelled 'WHAT IS IT YOU WANT, I DON"T SPEAK CAT'.  Then he tilted his head at me and meowed again....so I forced him to cuddle with me, then he scratched me and escaped and at that point I was pretty much awake so i watched TV in bed...while Remy still meowed.  I think it is all my fault because on Thursday when I was off, I used my blackberry to reflect the sun onto the wall and Remy chased it and chased it...and now he stares at the wall meowing because he can't find that shinny thing to chase.

And finally, my Daddy had his appendix removed this weekend, he is doing fine and plans to be back at work in a week (which is crazy, we may force him to take two weeks off).  He should be released from the hospital today. 

And don't worry this surgery will not affect the Santa Claus Parade Christmas Season Launch Party that dad hosts every year.  I will be spearheading the party planning committee this year.  It is gonna be great!  There will be a cake, and I will be putting the Christmas lights up on the Saturday.  I have everything under control!

Friday, November 12, 2010

How Embarrassing

First off....Alex, you rock.  I love you!  Thanks for all your comments on my previous posts...and don't worry...I have decided to merge the Erin Awesomeness with a more professional Erin to get BUSINESS ERIN.  That is what i shall call my work persona from now on. 

Okay...so now, I have the most embarrassing story to share with all of you.  On Wednesday, I wore a lovely 'afternoon tea' dress to work, it was black and grey plaid, and sort of taffeta material, with blue tights.  Now on Wednesdays I go from work to the gym and then to school, so it is a busy day.  Lately, I have been bad with the exercise but I was forcing myself to go....so I am walking in the underground from work to the Eaton's Centre and as I am walking through the mall my hand brushes my leg and i feel tights...and this worries me because my dress goes to my knees, i should not be feeling tights near my upper thigh.  My dress on the one side is up around my butt!!!!!!....so to not draw attention to myself or to make a scene, i grab the hem of my dress and yank it down.  Then continue to walk to the gym like nothing happened.....although for the rest of the night, i held that dress down while walking to ensure that something like that could never happen again!

Embarrassing, Right?  So embarrassing and worst part.....I don't know how long it was up there for, which means, i could have flashed my way through the underground.  Although it would have only been my tights that people saw and they were thick blue tights...but still...."hello world here is the my right butt cheek" not the message I am going for.  I was going for the "hello world, look how cool and fashionable i am with colour tights and motorcycle boots"

Everyone enjoy my embarrassment, I am here for your entertainment!!!

PS.  Everyone watch Conan.  I love that tall skinny awkward dude.  If you need some enticement, his show is filmed in the studio where Goonies was filmed and he would like to try to reunite the cast!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

From fundraising to weight loss

I have been working on a blog post all morning and decided it was too depressing, talking about fundraising and people in need.  I don't want to bring people down....it's hump day, we need something to lighten our spirits.
I have tomorrow off! As do all of my family except my brothers-in-law, which sucks for them but what are you going to do?
Most people have taken Friday off as well because they can get a super long weekend.  Me, not so much, I have no more vacation left only sick days and it would look extremely suspicious if I called in sick after a holiday before the weekend.  So am coming in...but on the plus side, the office is gonna be deserted so I am going major casual and I have a meeting at 10am but after that I will be spending the day going through boxes looking for documents and I will probably leave early.  Because I deserve it, especially after the crazy ass long day I had last Friday.  Which ended with me having a cab driver deliver tickets to a limo driver who then deliver the tickets to the SVP of my department.  It was exciting and stressful.

I have been extremely stressed out lately...so stressed that i have been breaking out a lot...which I hate...because you think i would have grown out of that...but nope....i get stressed and I eat and break out.  I really need to get back on the exercise train.  Because I do not want to gain the weight back.  I need the exercise because I like to eat my feelings.  And i enjoy fitting into tiny dresses and skinny jeans, I have never before been a person that dresses in revealing clothing, it has always been baggy pants and baggy tops.  As I lose weight my confidence sky rockets, and confidence is important when you are the only single girl within your friends and family. 

Wow...majorly off topic.  I am very good at the wandering ramble.  Give me a topic and I will take it to places that it has never been before.

I hope everyone has a great hump day!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Today is....

Going to be interesting.  I had a weird carnival dream last night....I was at a place that was like a cross between a Dave and Busters arcade and the Exhibition.  And I was on roller skates carrying a duffel bag because I had to deliver it somewhere.  That's really all i remember there are brief flashes of me trying to roller skate (not very good...don't have the balance or coordination in my dream) and looking at all the candy I can buy....but not buying any.  It was a weird dream that didn't really make sense.  But it set has set the tone for my day. 
I get up and one thing I always do to max sleeping time in the morning is pick my clothes out the night before...then i have a strict no changes rule because i don't have time to be running around being indecisive about clothes in the morning.  But this morning...I changed every single wardrobe choice I made last night.  Then i couldn't find my hair brush...so I haven't brushed my hair yet today....I finger combed it so that should count for something. 
I have a stupid superstition that if i make a wardrobe change in the morning than it will be a bad day.  This usually works for me because then I have to weigh the pro's and con's of outfit change vs bad day..and usually I stick with the original outfit.  I really hate bad days.

But today...i changed everything and no problems so far...well there have been little annoyances but I knew about them yesterday...If someone agrees to go to an event there should be a no take backs rule.  I hate cancellations...they throw my whole mojo off.

Anyways....I got home from work and school yesterday and decided i should bake.  So I bakes these cookies that are kind of like scones...they are called tea cookies...then i frosted them pink...but i had way too much frosting so the cookies might be over frosted but that is never a bad thing right?  They are for Glee tonight. 

On a side note...i have realized I have very few preppy casual clothes.  So I am back to the afternoon tea dresses.  Although i have been wearing my new motorcycle boots with them....they are just so comfy...and i love the clash of cute girly dress and big clunky boots.  so much fun.  Man...I am never going to dress appropriately 100% of the time.  It just isn't me....i have too much rebel in me.

Monday, November 8, 2010

3 Domer Day!!!!

You see 1 dome on your adventure, it's gonna be a good day.  You see 2 domes on your adventure, GREAT DAY.  But 3 DOMES....out of this world day! 

You are probably all wondering what I am talking about and questioning my sanity again.  But here's what I can tell you, I went to shopping in the states on Saturday with a goal of finding appropriate boots to wear with my new skinny cargo army pants and to find some Christmas presents.  I left the states that night full of Olive Garden and in possession of 5 Christmas presents, 2 pairs of boots, a new pair of skinny jeans, and a sense of satisfaction.  It was indeed worthy of a 3 Domer Day.

I will say: MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

Examples of our lucky 3 Dome experience:
Nine West - all shoes buy one get one half off.  I bought my motorcycle boots and a pair of peep toe stiletto bootie.  And both shoes combined cost me $100
Skinny jeans - new world to me and found a pair of grey skinny jeans for only $25.  Woot
I found the best coordinating Christmas presents for Dad and my brothers-in-law.  I am so excited about these presents....if this wasn't a blog that they had access to...i would tell you about it right now.  But I can't...if you are curious about what this amazing present situation is....bbm or txt me.  Because seriously...you are gonna love it as much as me!

And finally - Olive Garden.  I love me some olive garden...yummy pasta with lots of free bread sticks and salad...so delicious.  But always a crazy long wait.  When we showed up on Saturday....1 hour and 45 minute wait.  We were gonna leave but then Will found a table in the bar area and we sat and ate right away.  It was slightly awkward that all the people that agreed to wait stood around and stared at us the people in the bar area.  But it was a great score of a table and probably Will's favourite moment of the whole trip.

Now for the icing on this fabulous trip.....Car-e-oki....the whole drive home we sang and rocked out to Sarah's wonderful sing-a-longs and anthems playlist.

It was a good day and I had so much fun...although I was shopping and that is my happy place!

Friday, November 5, 2010

The Adventures of TinTin

Steph this link is for you:
http://popwatch.ew.com/2010/11/01/adventures-of-tintin-first-look-at-the-spielberg-jackson-collaboration/

If you don't know the tin tin story, don't believe Stephanie's version.  It is completely exaggerated.  But since that is where my nickname came from...the one that for some unforeseen reason has stuck better than anything else....I thought I should post the link.

After all, i do sort of have a soft spot for him now. 

Steph bought me the box set and although it doesn't work in my DVD player...one day I will watch them and then finally be worthy of my nickname.

Making Lemonade

I know I have talked about this way too much lately but I just wanted to let you know that I have decided to take the critical comments about my wardrobe as an opportunity to branch outside of my regular style to find a new work style. 

Yesterday I worked a blazer and a turtle neck, sort of a college professor look...here's what i learned...blazers make me way too hot.  They look great but I am only gonna pull them out for special occasions.  Also...i really don't like turtle necks, they make me feel a little claustrophobic all that material around my neck...yuck. 

The look I am working today is Preppy casual...and you know what, I really like it.  I think on the second try i may have found my new business look.
Just in case you are wondering what preppy casual looks like I am wearing Skinny leg grey pants, a purple button up collared shirt with a black scoop neck sweater over top.  I am also wearing cute little purple plaid flats as well as a multi string fake pearl necklace.  Also I have pulled my hair up in a clip.

A good look all comes down to the details...that is why I am so good at administrative work.  Details are key!  For example a cupcake is only a cupcake when it is iced...until then it is just a sad muffin.  Same with an outfit...you can wear the pants and top but you won't achieve perfection unless you pair it with just the right shoes, accessories, and hair style.  But I won't go into this too much because no one wants another fashion rant from me.  But just remember you want your outfit to really rock just ice it with the right frosting.  OMG that was way too lame.....i really should delete that last sentence but i believe in honesty and honestly I am lame! 

Okay back to the topic at hand - my work appropriate wardrobe.

I still love all my dresses and tights that I wear but I think i will have to find ways to make them a little more businessy.  But I love a fashion challenge...and I do enjoy playing around and trying different looks.  So although her comment about my clothes hurt...it is time to take those lemons and make lemonade....and then drink that lemonade as a sign of my victory.  Then of course a victory dance will be required...maybe even a victory dance PARTY! 

Who wants to come to my victory dance party? 

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Average?

So....I am completely obsessed...about the comments PLP said yesterday.  And it is so stupid to be dwelling on them but i am a champion dweller!
Although what is different this time?  Normally I would just stew and worry about the comments and secretly get upset but never actually do anything.  This time I really want to just go sit down in the girls office who said i couldn't handle the job and confront her...ask her why she thinks i can't handle it and then prove her wrong.  But I am trying to not create more office politics and uncomfortable situations...So i guess nothing has really changed because i will suffer in silence.
Also...the clothes thing......I have never claimed to be a conservative dresser.  As you know from previous posts, I pride myself on my fashion and my ability to dress to express my feelings.  And yes she may have a valid point that i don't always dress appropriately but at the same time, i never dress scandalously.  I just get so tired of people constantly talking about my boobs.  A lot of times...I will joke about them first and stuff but that is because i am still really insecure about them. 
I have been losing weight for over a year...i would say 20 to 30 pounds and not an ounce has been lost from the bust line.  I was saving up for laser eye surgery so I could wear sunglasses any time i wanted but I am really considering using that money for a breast reduction surgery. 
Then maybe every shirt i put on won't look so boobular....maybe then people will stop judging me for the boobs.
A couple of weeks ago I compared two extreme body types, Tall and model skinny and short and curvy....we each wanted the other...but maybe it is better to all just be average.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Jelly fished

Have you guys ever seen Bridget Jones 2.  It is a movie that doesn't stand out in my mind but i just experienced something that was described perfectly in that movie.

So, there is a position available in my department....me being on contract, i am very interested!  The person that is leaving the position has offered to train me because I am covering the work while they hire the new person.  The person leaving the position, we will call her PLP, came in today to train me and while we were talking she said a bunch of things in the name of friendship and caring about me...and just wanting me to succeed that were positive negatives....like saying i just want to be your friend while stabbing you in the stomach.  In Bridget Jones she compared it to jelly fish stings.

Anyways...here is what PLP told me.  She wants me to get the job but i should be careful because a different co-worker has said that she doesn't think i can handle the position.  Also PLP told me that she loved my outfit today and i look so pretty but then told me that if i get this job i will have to dress much more conservative, i need to re-evaluate the image i am projecting.  Also she sort of implied that i may not be smart enough for the job.

All i can say is that in the last hour and a half my confidence which was at an ultimate high this morning is now in the negative.  I clearly have some self esteem issues that i have to work on.  Because, i can do this job, i am smart enough.  But apparently everyone has counted me out...like everyone is supportive to my face but is ready to push me under a bus if the opportunity arises.

All I want is a place i can work and feel comfortable in.  Sometimes I worry that I will never be able to just relax and focus on doing my job.  I am a great worker, focused and loyal and dedicated but apparently some people can't see me...the only see what they want to see.

The Only Exception

So, yesterday I was shopping....gasp! i know shock...Erin Shopping, that never happens.  But anyways, we were in Costa Blanca, a store i have never really shopped in before, but let me tell you, super cheap clothing although they are slightly form fitting but still a good deal! 
Anyways, a song comes on and it has been stuck in my head ever since.  It is not a song I would normally love because it is way too mushy and it's slow so you can't rock out to it.  There are very few slow songs that I love, Hallelujah - the version sung by K.D. Lang, kills me every time! Also Skin by Alexz Johnston, and I Wanna Hold Your Hand from the Across the Universe sound track.
But this song i heard yesterday...so stuck..and the worst part, only one line from the song stuck 'you are the only exception'
Now just imagine that line going through your head over and over and OVER again.  But now I think it may have brainwashed me because I want to hear the whole song...I want to put the song on my ipod.

So i googled 'only exception lyrics'  and there is the song...Only Exception by Paramore.  Now i find this hilarious because Paramore opened for No Doubt last year and i wasn't too impressed by them...not at all.  And now they have this song....that i can't get out of my head.

I have yet to decide if a song that gets stuck in my head is evil or awesome.  Thoughts?

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Army Print LOVE!

The story of my love of army print starts a very long time ago when I was in grade 10 and decided that i didn't really identify with any high school 'click'.  I mean I had friends but we weren't jocks or popular, we weren't nerds or sci fy people.  We were just a bunch of kids.  I tried out a few things but by grade 11, I decided that i was just gonna wear what i liked.  Apparently that meant i wore a lot of black and mesh and big plastic jewelry I made myself.  I also took to thrift store shopping.  I think a large part of my wardrobe came from value village and then I found the Army Surplus store...where i bought the best pair of army pants ever!  the forest cameo! Later I went on to buy a nice spring army jacket and a black bomber jacket as well.
Those army print pants...they were the most consistent piece of clothing i owned.  Granted, i wore them with everything....luckily most everything else I owned was black so I still matched.  But I seriously wore these pants until they started fraying and falling apart.  Then I cut them into shorts and wore them for even longer.  The only reason i stopped wearing them was because...well embarrassing to say, i gained weight and they no longer fit.  But now that i have lost all that weight...i went looking for them...and i can't find them. 
In the past I have bought more fashionable pair of army shorts..but they just weren't the same.

But with the Military look still hot in the fashion world...i am taking this opportunity to stock up on all things military! 
Now i know i often ramble about fashion and end up on some random tangent that has nothing to do with m original post topic but there is a point for all this army print talk. 
Today....I purchased a pair of those skinny cargo's i keep talking about....but here is the best part.....1) I got them from winners so they were a third of the price i would of had to pay in stores...only 29.99! 2) They are army print! 
That's right...I finally have another pair of army print pants.  My life feels whole again!  Next stop on this military fashion train....so girly motorcycle/combat boots...maybe with a heel. 
I have finally figured out how to wear military and have it still be feminine and not so angry!

I was quite worried that i wouldn't get them...see i was planning to buy a pair from the victoria secret catalogue but was in winners yesterday with Ebony and the power of E squared happened and there was a pair of army print skinny cargo's so i tried them on...We decided I could pull off the skinny jean even though I am hippy but I didn't have my wallet, I had forgotten it at home!  So i had to leave them and pray that they would still be there in the morning.  So i woke up early and got to work a half and hour early so i could stop and winners....and they were still there....JACKPOT!!!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Low on IRON?

So I have been super mega tired lately...but I can't sleep and this weekend I developed the most major migraine ever....which is strange for me because i don't normally get migraines. 
I got through most of my trip but I bailed out early...and I feel bad about that.  But there were large amount of alcohol consumed by everyone but me...and they volume level was quite loud..and I felt like I was bringing everyone down.  I try to never be a party pooper...I like to make everyone happy and see everyone have fun.
Sunday....I grabbed a bus back to Toronto.  I started to feel better being in Toronto.  It's weird I still felt horribly sick but being in Toronto helped.  Like i knew that i could be in my bed in a matter of minutes.
When I did get into bed, Logan and Remy cuddled up with me and we all had a much needed nap. 
I also feel really bad because I have been leaving Remy and Logan alone a lot lately....so that nap really made us all feel much better.  They are good cats...they just like to destroy things.

Anyways...What is happening this week.  I will investigate the Skinny Cargo and if they are right for me, I will be looking for a new job, I will attempt to sleep a lot more,  I will also be going over my finances....HBO may be going Bye Bye.