So i have been trying to get ebook from the library to work on my ipod but i have yet to be successful. I think i have finally pinpointed the problem but i am having trouble implementing the solution. See i have the app that is compatible for the ebooks from the library, i have downloaded the book. But the book won't open with itunes. But every time i open itunes it tells me that there is new software i should download and i agree to download it and it says it is going to take 3 hours....then i leave it alone to download and i come back after awhile and it has timed out. This has happened 3 times. And my frustration levels are very high. I just want to be able to take out electronic books and read them, is that too much to ask? Because itunes seems to think it is. GRRR. I am going to try one more time and if it doesn't work, i am going to have to call in technical reinforcements.
I also met the cutest puppy yesterday named Radar. He is a German Sheppard mix and he is blind. But that doesn't stop him, he is a very active puppy. Yesterday me and Heather were walking him in the ravine and he kept picking up sticks that were on the path and moving them over to the non-path area. It was like he was cleaning the path up. Then we introduced him to my cats, as expected Remy was much braver than Logan but both of them in the beginning were like 'what the hell is that'. Then Logan refused to get close to him, he kept finding new places that enabled him to hide from the dog but keep an eye on him at the same time. He would occasionally sneak up on him and observe him from above. Remy on the other hand was much more upfront about it. He followed the dog around, keeping his distance until he was distracted then he would venture closure to sniff Radar. At one point i believe he licked Radar's tail. But if Radar showed too much interest in Remy, Remy would run away. There is a friendship in there I think, we just have to work on it. Logan I don't think will accept the dog but i am sure Remy will.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Musings, Rants, and Career Plans
I work two and a half days this week.
During this short work week, i have lots of time to ponder things while I work because there is little interruption due to the ghost town that is work.
Here are some musings:
- I may be in love with Jeff Bridges and not in the way where I love an older celebrity and wish we were just platonic best friends like me and Colin Firth. I don't even know where the love came from...it was like I woke up one day and decided that Jeff Bridges, he is the one for me.
- I think Ally and Braydon would make a great brother sister band. They both love music and sing all the time. We could call their album Cars, Trains & Alphabet Songs.
- I got an A & an A- in my classes this term and when i use to be in school that would have made me happy but that A- pisses me off. I had a A+ before the final assignment and one of my group members was suppose to do something and they didn't so they screwed us all and that brought my mark WAY DOWN. I am still quite angry about it.
- i want a place to live with a huge kitchen and a place for me to craft without destructo kitty interruption but i don't think i am ever going to be able to afford something like that.
Which leads me to question my life. I have always been so certain about some things but i tend to compare my life to other people and feel inadequate for a second and then realize that if I had their life i would be miserable. I am not someone who wants to get married and if i have kids - i want to wait until technology can teleport that baby out of me so i don't have to go through labour. We are no where near that technology yet and i am fine waiting.
But what really frustrates me is that people tend to think that i am in the wrong for having these feelings. There was this one girl who actually told me that i am disappointing god by not honouring his plan for me. I was like 'god wants me to get married, have a baby, and live the white picket life? Tell him to mind his business!'
Sorry....random rant there but just venting and getting way way WAY off topic.
To make up for the rant I will tell you an exciting new business plan me and Leah came up with. So you know how I love military fashion and I always say whoever is the fashion designer for the military has the best job ever. Well me and Leah decided with her contacts (working RMC Banquets) and my military fashion obsession we could become the new fashion designers for the military. So i am gonna work up a look book and make a bunch of copies then give them to Leah who while serving finds the most influential military man in the room and gives him our look book all sneakily. Then he will be so wowed by our military designs that we will be offered the job on the spot. Although that may mean i will have to move to Kingston which will create a small problem for me being that they don't have an h&m....but with all the military contacts i will have maybe they can force an h&m to open in k-town.
Anyways, i am gonna do that or become a bread baker....i really like baking bread. but the problem with that is they have to get up so freaking early which just isn't cool....maybe i could be like a midnight baker where i bake and sell my bread and stuff in the evening. that way i don't have to get up early. I will have to think on that one. I need to plan it out better.
During this short work week, i have lots of time to ponder things while I work because there is little interruption due to the ghost town that is work.
Here are some musings:
- I may be in love with Jeff Bridges and not in the way where I love an older celebrity and wish we were just platonic best friends like me and Colin Firth. I don't even know where the love came from...it was like I woke up one day and decided that Jeff Bridges, he is the one for me.
- I think Ally and Braydon would make a great brother sister band. They both love music and sing all the time. We could call their album Cars, Trains & Alphabet Songs.
- I got an A & an A- in my classes this term and when i use to be in school that would have made me happy but that A- pisses me off. I had a A+ before the final assignment and one of my group members was suppose to do something and they didn't so they screwed us all and that brought my mark WAY DOWN. I am still quite angry about it.
- i want a place to live with a huge kitchen and a place for me to craft without destructo kitty interruption but i don't think i am ever going to be able to afford something like that.
Which leads me to question my life. I have always been so certain about some things but i tend to compare my life to other people and feel inadequate for a second and then realize that if I had their life i would be miserable. I am not someone who wants to get married and if i have kids - i want to wait until technology can teleport that baby out of me so i don't have to go through labour. We are no where near that technology yet and i am fine waiting.
But what really frustrates me is that people tend to think that i am in the wrong for having these feelings. There was this one girl who actually told me that i am disappointing god by not honouring his plan for me. I was like 'god wants me to get married, have a baby, and live the white picket life? Tell him to mind his business!'
Sorry....random rant there but just venting and getting way way WAY off topic.
To make up for the rant I will tell you an exciting new business plan me and Leah came up with. So you know how I love military fashion and I always say whoever is the fashion designer for the military has the best job ever. Well me and Leah decided with her contacts (working RMC Banquets) and my military fashion obsession we could become the new fashion designers for the military. So i am gonna work up a look book and make a bunch of copies then give them to Leah who while serving finds the most influential military man in the room and gives him our look book all sneakily. Then he will be so wowed by our military designs that we will be offered the job on the spot. Although that may mean i will have to move to Kingston which will create a small problem for me being that they don't have an h&m....but with all the military contacts i will have maybe they can force an h&m to open in k-town.
Anyways, i am gonna do that or become a bread baker....i really like baking bread. but the problem with that is they have to get up so freaking early which just isn't cool....maybe i could be like a midnight baker where i bake and sell my bread and stuff in the evening. that way i don't have to get up early. I will have to think on that one. I need to plan it out better.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
It's a party and all cousins are invited!!!
I use to spend Christmas visiting all my relatives but the older I get the less time I have. Growing up the adults always had a fondue party while the cousins got together and would have a cousins party. We are older now....but still don't consider us the adults. So Alex decided to hold a cousin's fondue. It was so much fun. I enjoyed seeing everyone and having a big gathering.
Although I will admit I hit a wall at a certain point and got frustrated about certain things....oh well.
I think we need to have a different game next year....i wasn't feeling the cranium.
But i really think that maybe we should meet up more often then once a year. Maybe every few months we could meet up and have a gathering...we could take turns hosting....well people that own houses can take turn hosting. My apartment may be a little small for everyone....but if people are in Toronto they are welcome to crash at my place.
I just think we should hang out more. I love my family and I miss hanging out with everyone. Think about it
Although I will admit I hit a wall at a certain point and got frustrated about certain things....oh well.
I think we need to have a different game next year....i wasn't feeling the cranium.
But i really think that maybe we should meet up more often then once a year. Maybe every few months we could meet up and have a gathering...we could take turns hosting....well people that own houses can take turn hosting. My apartment may be a little small for everyone....but if people are in Toronto they are welcome to crash at my place.
I just think we should hang out more. I love my family and I miss hanging out with everyone. Think about it
The best way to create christmas cheer is singing loud for all to hear!
So Christmas is over.
The holidays as far as I am concerned are over now, because i don't consider new years a valid holiday. If it is a valid holiday then my birthday should also be a valid holiday!
Anyways.........
It was a good Christmas this year. One of the cutest parts was Ally in church. She loves to sing and will sing and dance on command but she only knows one song - the alphabet song. So while we are all singing hymns in church Ally was singing her alphabet song loud and proud. It was great. She was so ON on Christmas eve. The kids were all so hyper but especially Ally.
Christmas day was also full of hyper kids and lots of presents. I loved all my presents and i am very blessed to have such a great family.
Presents of note: IPOD TOUCH, a home made scarf (Andrea has become very talented with wool), a cookie press (i will be making cookies tonight!!!), and a special hat from Nana which one day I will try to wear in public....i just need to get the right swagger down, i will practice.
The ipod touch has filled the lack of music in my life. I use to take my ipod everywhere, listen to it all the time and then i went a month and a half without it. Now that i have the touch i have portable music back in my life. I don't know if i can properly express why i missed it so much but I will try.
Yesterday I went to the grocery store to get some ingredients to make cookies but I didn't really want to go out, it was cold and crummy out plus i was watching an episode of 7th heaven where Simon realizes that he knows people who huff spray paint. But i had to go. As soon as i put my ipod on and played a happy song, i didn't mind leaving the house. Music has a way to just pick me up. I didn't want to go to work today but put my ipod on play some Glee and be taken to a happy place full of cheer.
The other great thing about the touch is all the apps i have gotten, well i haven't gotten many because i was a little overwhelmed but i have one that tells me what mood i am in by scanning my fingerprint...which is important. I like knowing what mood i am in. Then i have the smurf village, they are doing so great...we are currently recovering from a gargamel attack...but we will get through, i am growing crops for potions to help heal everyone. Then i have angry birds....most addictive game ever...i also like the idea of sling shooting birds to their death. It is very therapeutic.
The holidays as far as I am concerned are over now, because i don't consider new years a valid holiday. If it is a valid holiday then my birthday should also be a valid holiday!
Anyways.........
It was a good Christmas this year. One of the cutest parts was Ally in church. She loves to sing and will sing and dance on command but she only knows one song - the alphabet song. So while we are all singing hymns in church Ally was singing her alphabet song loud and proud. It was great. She was so ON on Christmas eve. The kids were all so hyper but especially Ally.
Christmas day was also full of hyper kids and lots of presents. I loved all my presents and i am very blessed to have such a great family.
Presents of note: IPOD TOUCH, a home made scarf (Andrea has become very talented with wool), a cookie press (i will be making cookies tonight!!!), and a special hat from Nana which one day I will try to wear in public....i just need to get the right swagger down, i will practice.
The ipod touch has filled the lack of music in my life. I use to take my ipod everywhere, listen to it all the time and then i went a month and a half without it. Now that i have the touch i have portable music back in my life. I don't know if i can properly express why i missed it so much but I will try.
Yesterday I went to the grocery store to get some ingredients to make cookies but I didn't really want to go out, it was cold and crummy out plus i was watching an episode of 7th heaven where Simon realizes that he knows people who huff spray paint. But i had to go. As soon as i put my ipod on and played a happy song, i didn't mind leaving the house. Music has a way to just pick me up. I didn't want to go to work today but put my ipod on play some Glee and be taken to a happy place full of cheer.
The other great thing about the touch is all the apps i have gotten, well i haven't gotten many because i was a little overwhelmed but i have one that tells me what mood i am in by scanning my fingerprint...which is important. I like knowing what mood i am in. Then i have the smurf village, they are doing so great...we are currently recovering from a gargamel attack...but we will get through, i am growing crops for potions to help heal everyone. Then i have angry birds....most addictive game ever...i also like the idea of sling shooting birds to their death. It is very therapeutic.
Yoga Socks
I have wanted yoga socks ever since my most favourite yoga teacher had them on at one of my yoga classes. They have a leg warmer part and then the foot is missing the heel part and the toe part. These two areas need to be bare because you really need to support yourself with your toes and heels in yoga, the arch doesn't matter as much as properly preparing your feet to support yourself in all poses.
Anyways...i am getting off topic. But I have felt that these yoga socks were the best accessory that i could ever have and i searched and searched but never found the right pair. So in desperation I took a pair of woolly socks and cut the toe and heel out and hoped they would do.
BUT
they didn't. it just wasn't the same. It didn't measure up to the expectations I had about the greatness of the socks.
Lulu delivered me the best present ever when I went shopping with Amy two days ago and there they were. I battled through the crowds to get to the back of the store and hanging on a wall, ON SALE, the yoga socks i have spent a year looking for. The socks that i have given up on. But now that i have them...my life is complete....okay...not complete but i will finally be appropriately accessorized for yoga.
I can't express enough how important the little details are in an outfit!!!
Anyways...i am getting off topic. But I have felt that these yoga socks were the best accessory that i could ever have and i searched and searched but never found the right pair. So in desperation I took a pair of woolly socks and cut the toe and heel out and hoped they would do.
BUT
they didn't. it just wasn't the same. It didn't measure up to the expectations I had about the greatness of the socks.
Lulu delivered me the best present ever when I went shopping with Amy two days ago and there they were. I battled through the crowds to get to the back of the store and hanging on a wall, ON SALE, the yoga socks i have spent a year looking for. The socks that i have given up on. But now that i have them...my life is complete....okay...not complete but i will finally be appropriately accessorized for yoga.
I can't express enough how important the little details are in an outfit!!!
Friday, December 24, 2010
My Favourite Thing....
About living alone is the freedom.
Today is Christmas eve and there will be a lot of family interaction in the next few days so I took last night to myself. I had the longest hottest shower ever! Then shaved my yeti legs.....i have been lazy about shaving since it has become cold. Then i put on my fuzzy robe, turned on the much music countdown of top number one hits of 2010 and had a dance party.
Since i have been living alone, i have a lot more dance parties.
Then i watched the Grinch and packed for my parents house. I am staying over one night and i have packed three possible outfits because i haven't decided what kind of dress up mood i will be in tomorrow. Tonight is the pirate dress for sure, and I can't wait!
I am also bringing my curling iron and my hair straightener.
I am apparently not packing very light....and to be truthful, i don't pack light for anything. Even my purse is a giant bag. But i like to be prepared for any sort of fashion emergency. What if i suddenly decide that i want to have super straight hair tomorrow because it goes better with the outfit i pick. What if instead of wearing the purple velvet dress i decide that my dark skinny jeans will be better. Also...i never decide on my accessories for the outfit until i am wearing the outfit. Because how will i know what kind of accessory mood i will be in?
For Alex's wedding i brought two different bunches of accessories because i didn't know if i wanted to dress funky or posh.
Anyways...i have rambled off onto my favourite topic, accessories. Not part of the plan. but i tend to write these posts exactly how i think. As you can tell, i think with lots of run on sentences, poor grammar, and lots of made up words.
Everyone have a super merry Christmas!!!! I hope you have a wonderful time with your families
Today is Christmas eve and there will be a lot of family interaction in the next few days so I took last night to myself. I had the longest hottest shower ever! Then shaved my yeti legs.....i have been lazy about shaving since it has become cold. Then i put on my fuzzy robe, turned on the much music countdown of top number one hits of 2010 and had a dance party.
Since i have been living alone, i have a lot more dance parties.
Then i watched the Grinch and packed for my parents house. I am staying over one night and i have packed three possible outfits because i haven't decided what kind of dress up mood i will be in tomorrow. Tonight is the pirate dress for sure, and I can't wait!
I am also bringing my curling iron and my hair straightener.
I am apparently not packing very light....and to be truthful, i don't pack light for anything. Even my purse is a giant bag. But i like to be prepared for any sort of fashion emergency. What if i suddenly decide that i want to have super straight hair tomorrow because it goes better with the outfit i pick. What if instead of wearing the purple velvet dress i decide that my dark skinny jeans will be better. Also...i never decide on my accessories for the outfit until i am wearing the outfit. Because how will i know what kind of accessory mood i will be in?
For Alex's wedding i brought two different bunches of accessories because i didn't know if i wanted to dress funky or posh.
Anyways...i have rambled off onto my favourite topic, accessories. Not part of the plan. but i tend to write these posts exactly how i think. As you can tell, i think with lots of run on sentences, poor grammar, and lots of made up words.
Everyone have a super merry Christmas!!!! I hope you have a wonderful time with your families
Thursday, December 23, 2010
The Week in Review
I was almost attacked yesterday by a swarm of pigeons. They flew at me yesterday morning as I walked to the subway. Now having an insane bird fear...this wasn't cool. There were so many of them...and they flew right over my head...just to freak me out. Birds are evil like that. But no one else around me freaked out so i tried to act natural but it took all my concentration to not run screaming into the subway for protection.
I have had that Florence and the Machine song that was sung on Glee in my head all week. Sometimes it takes over and i dance, at my desk, in the elevator, on the way to the bathroom. And sometimes i sing out loud but the only parts i know are 'the dog days are over now' and something about running from people. And although it is annoying to have a song stuck in your head that you don't know all the words too and only the smallest part runs through your head over and over again. But at least it is a song I enjoy that makes me want to dance in happiness and not the song that was stuck in my head last week. "evacuate the dance floor" i don't even like that song or know anything other than that one line, i don't even know how it got stuck in my head but it was there for like 3 days last week.....not fun.
I had a dance party last night with my cat Remy. He was misbehaving and I was watching some sort of special on much music and Katy Perry came on...and i picked him up and made him dance with me. Then we had a lovely little dance party until he scratched me to escape. I like to host dance parties at my apartment, especially when i am getting ready to go out. Sometimes I wish clubs weren't so yucky and filled with young idiots who just want to hook up. Whatever happened to dancing because you loved it and had fun. I have always loved to dance but clubs they are too crowded and i don't have enough space for my moves and everyone is concerned how they look. That is not a place for me.
I wish i did not have to work this week. It is dragging on so much. Just way too much. I want it to be Christmas!!!!
I tried on my Christmas outfits last night...and i think i have gained weight. BOOOO! I haven't been able to get into a steady exercise routine or eating pattern these last two months. First there was school and now Christmas with all the treats. But i am wearing my pirate dress Christmas eve, to church! The purple velvet dress may have to be saved for another occasion. Just because as much as i love it, I put it on last night, and I am not feeling it. And if you aren't feeling an outfit, you will never be able to make it work for you. Confidence is 80% of the reason an outfit works. Even feeling fat, I love my pirate dress because it has a sash and it is piratey and who doesn't love those two things. Maybe i will wear the pj's to Christmas day dinner.
I have had that Florence and the Machine song that was sung on Glee in my head all week. Sometimes it takes over and i dance, at my desk, in the elevator, on the way to the bathroom. And sometimes i sing out loud but the only parts i know are 'the dog days are over now' and something about running from people. And although it is annoying to have a song stuck in your head that you don't know all the words too and only the smallest part runs through your head over and over again. But at least it is a song I enjoy that makes me want to dance in happiness and not the song that was stuck in my head last week. "evacuate the dance floor" i don't even like that song or know anything other than that one line, i don't even know how it got stuck in my head but it was there for like 3 days last week.....not fun.
I had a dance party last night with my cat Remy. He was misbehaving and I was watching some sort of special on much music and Katy Perry came on...and i picked him up and made him dance with me. Then we had a lovely little dance party until he scratched me to escape. I like to host dance parties at my apartment, especially when i am getting ready to go out. Sometimes I wish clubs weren't so yucky and filled with young idiots who just want to hook up. Whatever happened to dancing because you loved it and had fun. I have always loved to dance but clubs they are too crowded and i don't have enough space for my moves and everyone is concerned how they look. That is not a place for me.
I wish i did not have to work this week. It is dragging on so much. Just way too much. I want it to be Christmas!!!!
I tried on my Christmas outfits last night...and i think i have gained weight. BOOOO! I haven't been able to get into a steady exercise routine or eating pattern these last two months. First there was school and now Christmas with all the treats. But i am wearing my pirate dress Christmas eve, to church! The purple velvet dress may have to be saved for another occasion. Just because as much as i love it, I put it on last night, and I am not feeling it. And if you aren't feeling an outfit, you will never be able to make it work for you. Confidence is 80% of the reason an outfit works. Even feeling fat, I love my pirate dress because it has a sash and it is piratey and who doesn't love those two things. Maybe i will wear the pj's to Christmas day dinner.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Crazy Dream
So last night I dreamed that I had some insane musical talent. I worked in this pub/bar where I performed shows when I wasn't bartending. Apparently I am an extremely gifted musician who writes her own music and has an amazing singing voice. (Are you laughing yet....it gets better)
So I am so good that I have a very large following but I refuse to sign a record deal because I don't want fame....I do it for the music. But I upload my music to the web as well as have a blog. Even in my dream I am a blogger. Love IT.....but still it gets better.
Adrien Grenier becomes my friend and wants to do a documentary about my talent and my refusal of all the record deals. I tell him no, I don't want fame, I want to be left alone. (watched teenage paparazzo last night)
Then I become email friends with this guy from England, named Harry.....I am assuming you know where that was going. Damn royal engagement talk.
That's all I remember...but I can't believe i was such a stuck up self absorbed 'artist' in my dream.
Anyways....SO CLOSE TO CHRISTMAS.....Are you ready? This is gonna be a great next little while, Christmas then cousin's party....can't wait. The only thing that will interrupt the fun is new years.
I don't know if i have mentioned this before...but i really hate new years. People build it up so much...'the last night of the year' it has to be spectacular.....why? I mean why can't the 29th be the most spectacular day of the year or June 17th or October 4th or Feb 3rd?
Why is Dec 31st such a big deal...the only thing that changes is the date on the calendar, and that happens every day. I just find that people build it up so much that it can never meet expectations. That's the thing about expectations, once you build them...it is pretty hard to meet them.
Okay rant over, but think about what i said. maybe i will plan a new year party on my birthday...after all it will be a new year for me. One year older!
So I am so good that I have a very large following but I refuse to sign a record deal because I don't want fame....I do it for the music. But I upload my music to the web as well as have a blog. Even in my dream I am a blogger. Love IT.....but still it gets better.
Adrien Grenier becomes my friend and wants to do a documentary about my talent and my refusal of all the record deals. I tell him no, I don't want fame, I want to be left alone. (watched teenage paparazzo last night)
Then I become email friends with this guy from England, named Harry.....I am assuming you know where that was going. Damn royal engagement talk.
That's all I remember...but I can't believe i was such a stuck up self absorbed 'artist' in my dream.
Anyways....SO CLOSE TO CHRISTMAS.....Are you ready? This is gonna be a great next little while, Christmas then cousin's party....can't wait. The only thing that will interrupt the fun is new years.
I don't know if i have mentioned this before...but i really hate new years. People build it up so much...'the last night of the year' it has to be spectacular.....why? I mean why can't the 29th be the most spectacular day of the year or June 17th or October 4th or Feb 3rd?
Why is Dec 31st such a big deal...the only thing that changes is the date on the calendar, and that happens every day. I just find that people build it up so much that it can never meet expectations. That's the thing about expectations, once you build them...it is pretty hard to meet them.
Okay rant over, but think about what i said. maybe i will plan a new year party on my birthday...after all it will be a new year for me. One year older!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
I've Found It
Okay, remember how I said my new obsession would come without warning and would be crazy odd. Well guess what, not even a week after my curl confession, i have something to tell you. I love Keeping up with the Kardashians. I can't stop watching it. I managed to mostly avoid the jersey shore but i don't want to avoid the Kardashians.
Why you ask? Because it is trash TV that offers no real benefit for existing. Well, the main people in the show are 3 sisters....and guess what, I come from a 3 sister family. And although we are nothing alike...there are moments when watching the show that i think, man that is so us. And it is nice to see that my sisters and I aren't that weird.
For example me and my sister had this huge fight....like epic fight. The biggest fight ever! And it was over the stupidest thing but we couldn't seem to get back from it. And last night, the Kardashian sisters fought over the stupidest thing ever and it took them 3 episodes to make up. So it is nice to see that we aren't the only sisters that have crazy fights.
So, my ipod broke about a month ago, I don't know exactly what happened....but the computer stopped recognizing it and i couldn't upload any new songs. I am not sure how it broke but i like to believe that the ipod and the computer had a fight and they are just not talking to each other and that is why the computer isn't recognizing the ipod. Most likely what really happened was I dropped it way too many times, i would drop that thing all the time, but again, not my fault, maybe ipods shouldn't be made so slippery. But i really miss music....I want the sound track to my life back. And i want to add new songs to my life, I want to pretend i live in a musical and it is really had to do that without a musical aid. I mean i am learning the guitar as fast as possible....well okay...the learning got boring so i decided, screw learning...i am just gonna make up notes. And you know what...it is going really well. I am great at making up notes and especially good at playing the blues!
Why you ask? Because it is trash TV that offers no real benefit for existing. Well, the main people in the show are 3 sisters....and guess what, I come from a 3 sister family. And although we are nothing alike...there are moments when watching the show that i think, man that is so us. And it is nice to see that my sisters and I aren't that weird.
For example me and my sister had this huge fight....like epic fight. The biggest fight ever! And it was over the stupidest thing but we couldn't seem to get back from it. And last night, the Kardashian sisters fought over the stupidest thing ever and it took them 3 episodes to make up. So it is nice to see that we aren't the only sisters that have crazy fights.
So, my ipod broke about a month ago, I don't know exactly what happened....but the computer stopped recognizing it and i couldn't upload any new songs. I am not sure how it broke but i like to believe that the ipod and the computer had a fight and they are just not talking to each other and that is why the computer isn't recognizing the ipod. Most likely what really happened was I dropped it way too many times, i would drop that thing all the time, but again, not my fault, maybe ipods shouldn't be made so slippery. But i really miss music....I want the sound track to my life back. And i want to add new songs to my life, I want to pretend i live in a musical and it is really had to do that without a musical aid. I mean i am learning the guitar as fast as possible....well okay...the learning got boring so i decided, screw learning...i am just gonna make up notes. And you know what...it is going really well. I am great at making up notes and especially good at playing the blues!
Monday, December 20, 2010
You should smile more
Picture this, I am walking down the street near my apartment after just hitting up shoppers to purchase some new tights (I buy tights quite often because my cats will claw my legs while i am wearing them, thus creating holes and making them unwearable). Anyways.....I am waiting at the light to cross the street and just as i am about to cross this guy who was crossing the other direction stops me and says 'Excuse me miss, you should smile more' then he kept on walking. He didn't seem crazy, he seemed super polite and nice. People come up to me all the time on the street, I seem to attract crazy people. But nice average polite people...that is strange.
More to the point, how does he know i don't smile enough, which is true....I don't. I have been frustrated and stressed a lot lately.....all year it seems. The lack of support and job security I have really worries and stresses me out. I try not to think about it, i tell myself 'everything will work out the way it is suppose to'. But then I secretly worry that maybe the way it is suppose to work out is me unemployed. But then i think, is this even a job i want or enjoy? Would i be happier if I didn't have this job? Then i get all stressed out.
BUT..............................this is not the time to be talking about my insecurities. There are 4 days until Christmas eve!!!
We should be talking about what Christmas fun I had this weekend.
To start.....Baking with Amy and Jess, then Love Actually - had the best time, even though we had a small baking worry when i stupidly forgot to grease the wax paper and had to cut it off the Yule Log...but, we made it through.
Me and Amy are also going to try and hit up Good Life every day this week since there will be lots of eating this holiday season.
Then Saturday, I hung out with my parents, Andrea, and the kids.....it was a great. I baked a Christmas morning treat (orange coffee cake), chocolate peppermint bark, and finished my jar gifts! Oh we also made our Christmas day desert, peppermint ice cream cake! Looks so good and I can't wait to eat it. Oh and we watched ELF! I love that movie....favourite moments: "Buddy the Elf, What's your favourite colour?" and "You're not Santa. You're a liar. You are sitting on a thrown of LIES!!!"
Sunday Mom and Dad came to our area and Steph and Mom wanted to run, in the snow. I do not have enough running apparel to be prepared for running in this kind of cold. I was wearing running tights with shorts over top, leg warmers, long sleeved top, jacket, and hat. Then during the actual run, I was so cold, I ran ahead of Steph and Mom and finished for the first time ever, before both of them...like 5 minutes faster!
Also, did you know they made a new Muppet Christmas movie this year. So excited about that!
Anyways, 4 days!!! Are you ready? I can't wait. I just have to make it through this stupid week of work!
More to the point, how does he know i don't smile enough, which is true....I don't. I have been frustrated and stressed a lot lately.....all year it seems. The lack of support and job security I have really worries and stresses me out. I try not to think about it, i tell myself 'everything will work out the way it is suppose to'. But then I secretly worry that maybe the way it is suppose to work out is me unemployed. But then i think, is this even a job i want or enjoy? Would i be happier if I didn't have this job? Then i get all stressed out.
BUT..............................this is not the time to be talking about my insecurities. There are 4 days until Christmas eve!!!
We should be talking about what Christmas fun I had this weekend.
To start.....Baking with Amy and Jess, then Love Actually - had the best time, even though we had a small baking worry when i stupidly forgot to grease the wax paper and had to cut it off the Yule Log...but, we made it through.
Me and Amy are also going to try and hit up Good Life every day this week since there will be lots of eating this holiday season.
Then Saturday, I hung out with my parents, Andrea, and the kids.....it was a great. I baked a Christmas morning treat (orange coffee cake), chocolate peppermint bark, and finished my jar gifts! Oh we also made our Christmas day desert, peppermint ice cream cake! Looks so good and I can't wait to eat it. Oh and we watched ELF! I love that movie....favourite moments: "Buddy the Elf, What's your favourite colour?" and "You're not Santa. You're a liar. You are sitting on a thrown of LIES!!!"
Sunday Mom and Dad came to our area and Steph and Mom wanted to run, in the snow. I do not have enough running apparel to be prepared for running in this kind of cold. I was wearing running tights with shorts over top, leg warmers, long sleeved top, jacket, and hat. Then during the actual run, I was so cold, I ran ahead of Steph and Mom and finished for the first time ever, before both of them...like 5 minutes faster!
Also, did you know they made a new Muppet Christmas movie this year. So excited about that!
Anyways, 4 days!!! Are you ready? I can't wait. I just have to make it through this stupid week of work!
Friday, December 17, 2010
Obsessed
So I don't know if you know this about me....you probably do because I don't hide my crazy very well but....I have become obsessed with curled hair. It seems that ever since I have grown out my hair, it is getting crazy long by the way, I am trying to come up with new ideas for doing my hair.
Back in the day, i would spend all my money and time at the salon getting my hair cut and dyed, which as you know is not cheap. So when I moved out over 2 years ago, I decided that was one expense I had to cut out. So my hair got much longer and a lot more natural. Which I find boring.
So at steph's wedding, the hair dresser curled my hair...and i thought it was crazy foofy and a little too girly but as the months go on, i become more obsessed with curled hair. I have to do it, i need to jazz up my hair and curling is the best option. But here's the problem, I curled it for Alex & Matt's wedding but it took like 2 hours to do it and i missed out on a lot of socializing because i was busy curling my hair. Which let's face it...i am the only one in the family that would obsess so much over a look. But when i decide to commit to something...it is all in or nothing. So now that i have a taste for the hair curl, i want to do it more often but due to the length of time it takes me...i can't do it during the week...there is just no time in the morning.
But last night, i decided to curl my hair the rag curl method. For those of you that haven't obsessively researched curling hair, you wet your hair then take sections and roll it up in a strip of material, then tie the material up and leave it over night. Then magically you will have lovely curled hair in the morning.
So this morning, i wake up excitedly (after my 3 alarms go off) to remove the rags and admire my curled hair. Disappointment!!!! the curls in the front are way to springy and there is absolutely no curl in the back. So now i am at work today with horribly uneven hair. And you know how i feel when a look doesn't come together as planned.
Most likely tonight i am going to go out and buy curlers and so i can try that to see if my hair holds and curls better. One way or another, i am gonna conquer this curl thing, and then i will happily move onto the new obsession. Who knows what will strike my fancy...but i am excited for the next erin fad!
Back in the day, i would spend all my money and time at the salon getting my hair cut and dyed, which as you know is not cheap. So when I moved out over 2 years ago, I decided that was one expense I had to cut out. So my hair got much longer and a lot more natural. Which I find boring.
So at steph's wedding, the hair dresser curled my hair...and i thought it was crazy foofy and a little too girly but as the months go on, i become more obsessed with curled hair. I have to do it, i need to jazz up my hair and curling is the best option. But here's the problem, I curled it for Alex & Matt's wedding but it took like 2 hours to do it and i missed out on a lot of socializing because i was busy curling my hair. Which let's face it...i am the only one in the family that would obsess so much over a look. But when i decide to commit to something...it is all in or nothing. So now that i have a taste for the hair curl, i want to do it more often but due to the length of time it takes me...i can't do it during the week...there is just no time in the morning.
But last night, i decided to curl my hair the rag curl method. For those of you that haven't obsessively researched curling hair, you wet your hair then take sections and roll it up in a strip of material, then tie the material up and leave it over night. Then magically you will have lovely curled hair in the morning.
So this morning, i wake up excitedly (after my 3 alarms go off) to remove the rags and admire my curled hair. Disappointment!!!! the curls in the front are way to springy and there is absolutely no curl in the back. So now i am at work today with horribly uneven hair. And you know how i feel when a look doesn't come together as planned.
Most likely tonight i am going to go out and buy curlers and so i can try that to see if my hair holds and curls better. One way or another, i am gonna conquer this curl thing, and then i will happily move onto the new obsession. Who knows what will strike my fancy...but i am excited for the next erin fad!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Peace
My favourite thing to do when it snows is to make myself a tea or hot chocolate, turn off all the lights and sit at the window and watch it snow. It may sound weird but sitting there absorbing the quiet and the snow just floating down covering everything....i feel at peace. It is a nice feeling...very zen. I like to do it just before i go to bed, it calms my over active mind.
Oh also, i must say i am very disappointed with my neighbourhood. I decided to go for a big walk after work last night to see all the wonderful Christmas lights....I live in an area that has huge houses and you with thing with all their money they would take the extra time to light up their house with Christmas joy....but no...i only say 4 houses in my half an hour walk. Also i have learned, the only acceptable Christmas lights are white Christmas lights, i guess people think they are more classes...but i say colour it up. Work that rainbow of colours. There was only one house that was truly cool, they had these two tress out front that changed from red to green to white....they were awesome. I almost went up to their house and congratulated them on their wonderful Christmas lights.
But at least i got to really work out my winter boots on my walk...when i got home my feet were warm and dry. BEST BOOTS EVER!!!!
Also, i got to watch Micky's Christmas Carol last night, it really got me in the spirit. I am getting more excited about Christmas every day!!!!!
I have decided for the fondue i am going to work the ski lodge casual look. Maybe i will get some jeggings, and a long sweater and i will bring my big boot slippers to wear. Yes...i think that will be best.
Today, i have to pick out my Christmas wrapping paper...it is a very important decision, because i like to wrap all my presents the same so that everyone will be able to easily identify mine. I am deciding between red and silver or gold and black. I am leaning more towards gold and silver...i think the gold and black is just a little too uppity for me. I also need to buy some leggings today....so to winners i go!!!
Oh also, i must say i am very disappointed with my neighbourhood. I decided to go for a big walk after work last night to see all the wonderful Christmas lights....I live in an area that has huge houses and you with thing with all their money they would take the extra time to light up their house with Christmas joy....but no...i only say 4 houses in my half an hour walk. Also i have learned, the only acceptable Christmas lights are white Christmas lights, i guess people think they are more classes...but i say colour it up. Work that rainbow of colours. There was only one house that was truly cool, they had these two tress out front that changed from red to green to white....they were awesome. I almost went up to their house and congratulated them on their wonderful Christmas lights.
But at least i got to really work out my winter boots on my walk...when i got home my feet were warm and dry. BEST BOOTS EVER!!!!
Also, i got to watch Micky's Christmas Carol last night, it really got me in the spirit. I am getting more excited about Christmas every day!!!!!
I have decided for the fondue i am going to work the ski lodge casual look. Maybe i will get some jeggings, and a long sweater and i will bring my big boot slippers to wear. Yes...i think that will be best.
Today, i have to pick out my Christmas wrapping paper...it is a very important decision, because i like to wrap all my presents the same so that everyone will be able to easily identify mine. I am deciding between red and silver or gold and black. I am leaning more towards gold and silver...i think the gold and black is just a little too uppity for me. I also need to buy some leggings today....so to winners i go!!!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Snow!
SNOW! I just need it to snow a little more. If you have read my blog for a long time then you know about my struggle with winter boots. Two years ago, I spent the beginning of winter in Uggs and getting my feet soaked, then they got a hole in them. After that, I bought rubber boots because I was tired of having wet feet, but my feet absolutely froze. So then last year...i went out and bought the most heavy duty winter boots every - Sorels. And then it was a winter of like no snow and I didn't really have a reason to wear them. So, i have decided that I am wearing them NO MATTER WHAT this year. And because it has snowed a bit...I have had a reason to wear them without looking crazy....but I want it to really snow to just make these boots work! I am wearing them right now. I wore them last weekend too, and i believe my brother-in-law put it best with his comment 'those are some intense boots'. And they are....but my feet will always be warm and dry!
Now, in other news.....I bought myself the Triumph toothbrush and it is wonderful. My favourite part is that after i am done my 2 minute brushing, My tooth guide flashes a happy face at me. That happy face lets me know that i have pleased my toothbrush and i did something right. if only it gave me gold stars after every brushing...then my life would be complete.
In fashion news, I like to dress up nice on Christmas eve and Christmas day, and I have some outfit ideas....my pirate dress....finally i will have an opportunity to wear it. I think i shall wear that on Christmas eve because Christmas day, i am second in command in charge of appetizers and deserts. So Christmas day, i shouldn't wear white (all the kitchen work)...so i think i shall wear my purple velvet dress on Christmas day....with some grey opaque tights. I will keep you posted on my fashion decisions. I will also have to figure out the perfect cousin party fondue outfit....but i have time to work that out. I am thinking skinny jeans and a plaid shirt.
Now, in other news.....I bought myself the Triumph toothbrush and it is wonderful. My favourite part is that after i am done my 2 minute brushing, My tooth guide flashes a happy face at me. That happy face lets me know that i have pleased my toothbrush and i did something right. if only it gave me gold stars after every brushing...then my life would be complete.
In fashion news, I like to dress up nice on Christmas eve and Christmas day, and I have some outfit ideas....my pirate dress....finally i will have an opportunity to wear it. I think i shall wear that on Christmas eve because Christmas day, i am second in command in charge of appetizers and deserts. So Christmas day, i shouldn't wear white (all the kitchen work)...so i think i shall wear my purple velvet dress on Christmas day....with some grey opaque tights. I will keep you posted on my fashion decisions. I will also have to figure out the perfect cousin party fondue outfit....but i have time to work that out. I am thinking skinny jeans and a plaid shirt.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Like I'm the only girl in the world
So this morning was teddy bear delivery day. If you don't know what that means...let me go back a few steps. We do an campaign at work where staff bring in and donate brand new teddy bears, and our department collects them, bags them, and sends them out to charities around the city for Christmas. Every year we get close to 4000 bears. Today we had to move all the bears from the storage room to the loading docks. I had to be a work for 7am this morning to get that process started. This year we had help from people in the loading docks...and we got to use the service elevator.
I have never been to the loading docks before...it was quite exciting and it enter the strange and unusual world. For example, the loading dock is full of mainly guys and big trucks...but the music that they were playing Rhianna and Nicki Minage. Now i have that Rhianna song stuck in my head. But all the Bears have been picked up by our delivering guy.
This weekend, i was very productive....i studied and helped dad pick out a Christmas tree...the biggest one i could find...it in fact is so large that we can't put a topper on it this year because the tree touches the ceiling. I also did some important Christmas baking and more studying.
Oh...i also watched Tron, the original and now i am raring to see the new one. Maybe i will go see it this weekend....or maybe not....it really depends how busy i am with final Christmas prep.
How about all of you, how was your weekends? Are you excited for Christmas....i can hardly wait...i am like a kid who can't asleep, i am so excited.....12 days!!!!!
I have never been to the loading docks before...it was quite exciting and it enter the strange and unusual world. For example, the loading dock is full of mainly guys and big trucks...but the music that they were playing Rhianna and Nicki Minage. Now i have that Rhianna song stuck in my head. But all the Bears have been picked up by our delivering guy.
This weekend, i was very productive....i studied and helped dad pick out a Christmas tree...the biggest one i could find...it in fact is so large that we can't put a topper on it this year because the tree touches the ceiling. I also did some important Christmas baking and more studying.
Oh...i also watched Tron, the original and now i am raring to see the new one. Maybe i will go see it this weekend....or maybe not....it really depends how busy i am with final Christmas prep.
How about all of you, how was your weekends? Are you excited for Christmas....i can hardly wait...i am like a kid who can't asleep, i am so excited.....12 days!!!!!
Friday, December 10, 2010
And I'm back online
So I had to leave work early yesterday so i could be in home in time for the rogers guy that was coming to check out what was wrong with my internet. It is all fixed and it's Friday....so i have great plans for celebrations.....i don't know if you can handle my plans but i am going to tell you anyways. I shall be going home, ordering swiss chalet and studying for my final exam on Monday. Watch out...exciting night.
Then i have a big weekend, picking out our Christmas tree with dad, decorating it, making a food plan with mom for Christmas day dinner, and organizing and starting my Christmas baking. Busy weekend but all stuff i love doing. I love spending time with mom and dad....yes that may make me a daddy's girl or a mommy's girl but you know what....don't care. I love the family and most of the time, i prefer to spend my time with mom and dad relaxing and having fun rather than going out and awkwardly socializing. I think that is why i love family gatherings, i am most comfortable and most myself around family.
Anyways.....I told steph about my genius jar gift idea and apparently she already had told me. She says I never listen...but i do listen...she just has so many money saving ideas that my brain gets overwhelmed with knowledge and shuts down.
Christmas count down.....14 days.....2 weeks. Can't Wait
Then i have a big weekend, picking out our Christmas tree with dad, decorating it, making a food plan with mom for Christmas day dinner, and organizing and starting my Christmas baking. Busy weekend but all stuff i love doing. I love spending time with mom and dad....yes that may make me a daddy's girl or a mommy's girl but you know what....don't care. I love the family and most of the time, i prefer to spend my time with mom and dad relaxing and having fun rather than going out and awkwardly socializing. I think that is why i love family gatherings, i am most comfortable and most myself around family.
Anyways.....I told steph about my genius jar gift idea and apparently she already had told me. She says I never listen...but i do listen...she just has so many money saving ideas that my brain gets overwhelmed with knowledge and shuts down.
Christmas count down.....14 days.....2 weeks. Can't Wait
Thursday, December 9, 2010
I can see the finish line!!!!!
I am so close!
Last night, I get to class, hand in my assignments and practice my speech over and over in my head. I am like freaking out for absolutely no reason because it is a 2minute presentation...but like I said...not my strong suit. Plus, I called Andrea and read her my speech and she timed it at only 1.02 and it should be 2 so i was crazy under. But i decided...embrace the shortness and just make it meaningful and believable.
So....sitting there, first guy goes, his speech is crazy long and has no focus at all. This makes me feel better...I can do this. Next guy goes, and he is amazing, he had all these examples and stories. I look at my speech and i am like dude, i approached this project all wrong. A few more people go and they vary between great, good, and unfortunately not so good.
She is looking around the room waiting for someone to volunteer...and i am like fine, i will go, but before i can raise my hand someone else volunteers. My pulse is like racing at this point.....pounding and pounding. I yell at myself in my head, why am i freaking out, it is two minutes go up there, remain calm and speak clearly. DO NOT RUSH.
So up i go next, first i trip over a chair to get up to the front...i get up to the front....say my speech....don't really remember it..adrenaline and all but it seemed to go well, everyone was smiling and my teacher was nodding. Then i was finished and i sat down...feeling relieved.
Next, I hope to have my home Internet fixed today with the tec visiting...and then I have my final exam on Monday for HR. Then i can finally focus on Christmas!!!!!!!!!
I have this great idea for Christmas presents, gifts in jars, you know where you put together mixes of stuff with instructions and it is like ready made drinks and stuff that just require water. I just absolutely love this idea and it should be a thoughtful and relatively inexpensive gift. I am gonna make some for family and co-workers. Now i just need to find jars and some nice material that i can dress up the jar lids with. It is exciting!!! I love crafting or creating things. Homemade is the best!
Last night, I get to class, hand in my assignments and practice my speech over and over in my head. I am like freaking out for absolutely no reason because it is a 2minute presentation...but like I said...not my strong suit. Plus, I called Andrea and read her my speech and she timed it at only 1.02 and it should be 2 so i was crazy under. But i decided...embrace the shortness and just make it meaningful and believable.
So....sitting there, first guy goes, his speech is crazy long and has no focus at all. This makes me feel better...I can do this. Next guy goes, and he is amazing, he had all these examples and stories. I look at my speech and i am like dude, i approached this project all wrong. A few more people go and they vary between great, good, and unfortunately not so good.
She is looking around the room waiting for someone to volunteer...and i am like fine, i will go, but before i can raise my hand someone else volunteers. My pulse is like racing at this point.....pounding and pounding. I yell at myself in my head, why am i freaking out, it is two minutes go up there, remain calm and speak clearly. DO NOT RUSH.
So up i go next, first i trip over a chair to get up to the front...i get up to the front....say my speech....don't really remember it..adrenaline and all but it seemed to go well, everyone was smiling and my teacher was nodding. Then i was finished and i sat down...feeling relieved.
Next, I hope to have my home Internet fixed today with the tec visiting...and then I have my final exam on Monday for HR. Then i can finally focus on Christmas!!!!!!!!!
I have this great idea for Christmas presents, gifts in jars, you know where you put together mixes of stuff with instructions and it is like ready made drinks and stuff that just require water. I just absolutely love this idea and it should be a thoughtful and relatively inexpensive gift. I am gonna make some for family and co-workers. Now i just need to find jars and some nice material that i can dress up the jar lids with. It is exciting!!! I love crafting or creating things. Homemade is the best!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Laundry Happiness
So for the past week and a half they have been finalizing the laundry room make over. Last night, I finally got a chance to use them. The new machines are nice....real nice, front loader washing machines but they said that they would be 40% larger but it seemed like i couldn't cram as much stuff in the machine as i normally do. But that is okay because there are so many more machines now. I did 4 loads of laundry at one time last night. Also, the card instead of using coin...MAGIC!!! Also everything is cheaper than before...which makes me more happy. I washed everything i really wanted to except my couch cover and best and most favourite part of laundry last night....i washed all my favourite sheets and cover.....so last night after weeks of using all the sheets i dis-like, i got to snuggle into my bed with my favourite sheet and a freshly washed cover! So happy.
Tonight is the night....the end of my major assignments and presentations. I am gonna do one final edit on the two i have written and then practice my presentation all day long while i work away in my cubicle. Thanks Ryan for the advice, i hopefully with practice will feel more comfortable. What use to happen when i would do presentations is practice lots but then let my nerves overtake me right before the presentation and forget everything! But I think that had a lot to do with my insecurities and thankfully I have moved past most of those insecurities. I am more comfortable with myself now and care less about people's judgements...although i still have flashes of insecurity. But i am hoping that the practice will make all those go away.
Wish me luck and think of me tonight at 6:30!
Tonight is the night....the end of my major assignments and presentations. I am gonna do one final edit on the two i have written and then practice my presentation all day long while i work away in my cubicle. Thanks Ryan for the advice, i hopefully with practice will feel more comfortable. What use to happen when i would do presentations is practice lots but then let my nerves overtake me right before the presentation and forget everything! But I think that had a lot to do with my insecurities and thankfully I have moved past most of those insecurities. I am more comfortable with myself now and care less about people's judgements...although i still have flashes of insecurity. But i am hoping that the practice will make all those go away.
Wish me luck and think of me tonight at 6:30!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
One down A MILLION to go
Okay, that was a little bit of an exaggeration but that's what it feels like. In truth, i am done 3 out of my four assignments for tomorrow, i just feel like they aren't good enough, and assignment number 4, it's a presentation...granted it is only a 2 minute presentation but dude...i hate presentations....so much.
As for last night's presentation...well let's see, two people backed out and didn't show up for class and then the third person stood up with us but didn't say anything....and finally...this other girl, who between the two of us really did most of the project me and her also carried the presentation. But i guess that is what group work is all about.
Anyways....i just need to write my presentation for tomorrow and then re-edit my assignments for a third and final time, just make some final adjustments.
I was talking to my dad last night about my dislike of presentations and he said that i should love them because i am a talker. Also he said that when i went to Ireland i kissed the blarney stone and my name means Ireland as well as i am Irish.....so i should have 'the gift of gab' and should be completely comfortable standing in front of people making a presentation. I guess i just haven't got over the fact that i am standing up in front of a bunch of people judging me for my words. And words have never been my strong suit. I guess what i need to do is embrace my quirky oddball nature and just go up there and be myself.
On a destructo kitty note, they have broken a glass a plate and a hand held mirror in the past 4 days. They seem to be upping their destructive levels. Remy also got into the bagels again! It seems the more stressed i get the more destructive they get....we are all gonna have some meditation time tonight with calming music and maybe some yoga.
As for last night's presentation...well let's see, two people backed out and didn't show up for class and then the third person stood up with us but didn't say anything....and finally...this other girl, who between the two of us really did most of the project me and her also carried the presentation. But i guess that is what group work is all about.
Anyways....i just need to write my presentation for tomorrow and then re-edit my assignments for a third and final time, just make some final adjustments.
I was talking to my dad last night about my dislike of presentations and he said that i should love them because i am a talker. Also he said that when i went to Ireland i kissed the blarney stone and my name means Ireland as well as i am Irish.....so i should have 'the gift of gab' and should be completely comfortable standing in front of people making a presentation. I guess i just haven't got over the fact that i am standing up in front of a bunch of people judging me for my words. And words have never been my strong suit. I guess what i need to do is embrace my quirky oddball nature and just go up there and be myself.
On a destructo kitty note, they have broken a glass a plate and a hand held mirror in the past 4 days. They seem to be upping their destructive levels. Remy also got into the bagels again! It seems the more stressed i get the more destructive they get....we are all gonna have some meditation time tonight with calming music and maybe some yoga.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Caution....Rant Ahead
Just a warning....i am going to have the biggest rant right now in relations to my hr group. If you would like to read something more positive...please read some older posts where i wasn't beat down and frustrated by group work.
Okay.....so i am in a group of 5 people....and seriously me and one other person have been carrying the fricking team...and I really didn't care about that too much because I want to make sure that what we hand in is good enough but we have a small presentation to do tonight and i up front said...i don't want to be the lead on the presentation...i hate getting up in front of the class and talking....my least favourite thing...which is crazy because i normally love talking and talking and talking but presenting is based on judging...i am being judged on my talking and that makes me forget even more of my proper english language talk and i turn into a rambling mess. Which can be charming in a regular talk...but sucks in presentation world.
So the girl that has been with me carrying the team has an exam today right before the class so she is gonna be late to class, the two guys have been hardly involved at all and the third girl was pretty good...but i was relying on the third girl to have my back in the presentation...and she told me last week she really didn't want to come because not everyone has to be present for the presentation....but i guilted her into agreeing to come because i needed the help. And today she txted me because it snowed too much and she can't make it.....basically everyone in my group is backing out and i want to punch them all. I was very up front....and now i am gonna have to go to class tonight and do the fucking presentation.
In the mean time...i have 4 things due on Wednesday, no Internet at home (stupid rogers) and stress out the wazoo. This is not gonna be a great week and i can already tell that. Everyone should just keep their distance. I have to write a presentation outline right now. But the worst part is one of my things due on Wednesday is a presentation so i was already experiencing presentation stress now i am just exploding with stress.
So maybe it is best if everyone keeps their distance from me and i don't talk to anyone for the week. Because right now...i am at that stage of stress that i am angry and close to crying at the same time. I am so close to the edge!
Okay.....so i am in a group of 5 people....and seriously me and one other person have been carrying the fricking team...and I really didn't care about that too much because I want to make sure that what we hand in is good enough but we have a small presentation to do tonight and i up front said...i don't want to be the lead on the presentation...i hate getting up in front of the class and talking....my least favourite thing...which is crazy because i normally love talking and talking and talking but presenting is based on judging...i am being judged on my talking and that makes me forget even more of my proper english language talk and i turn into a rambling mess. Which can be charming in a regular talk...but sucks in presentation world.
So the girl that has been with me carrying the team has an exam today right before the class so she is gonna be late to class, the two guys have been hardly involved at all and the third girl was pretty good...but i was relying on the third girl to have my back in the presentation...and she told me last week she really didn't want to come because not everyone has to be present for the presentation....but i guilted her into agreeing to come because i needed the help. And today she txted me because it snowed too much and she can't make it.....basically everyone in my group is backing out and i want to punch them all. I was very up front....and now i am gonna have to go to class tonight and do the fucking presentation.
In the mean time...i have 4 things due on Wednesday, no Internet at home (stupid rogers) and stress out the wazoo. This is not gonna be a great week and i can already tell that. Everyone should just keep their distance. I have to write a presentation outline right now. But the worst part is one of my things due on Wednesday is a presentation so i was already experiencing presentation stress now i am just exploding with stress.
So maybe it is best if everyone keeps their distance from me and i don't talk to anyone for the week. Because right now...i am at that stage of stress that i am angry and close to crying at the same time. I am so close to the edge!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Seven Hours
So.....There are seven hours left of my week at work and i am gonna spend most of it thinking about my hr project for school. I am very stressed out about this. Group work is great sometimes and crazy stressful other times. I guess the thing that really stresses me out is that when someone says they are going to do something and gives you a time frame they are going to do it in, then the time frame has majorly passed without a word from your group member. I just think that you should follow through on your promises. That goes for everything in life. You promise to do something, you do it.
Sorry for the rant....i am experiencing group project stress. I have to have something done today to send to my group but i couldn't do it until i got a part from another group member and she didn't send me her part until 11:30pm.....so i couldn't work on it yesterday evening as planned!
Okay, let's change the topic to more exciting news.....fashion. Today i am trying another new look....i don't really have a name for it but i am gonna roughly call it professionally casual. I am wearing skinny black jeans, a 3/4 length sleeved blue/green....well more green than blue shirt with a short sleeved black blazer over top of it. It sounds weird but it looks not bad...it is the right mix of casual and professional.
Now there is one outfit combination that i have always liked and wanted to wear but i have never been able to work it out. The shorts and tights outfit.....you know where you wear a nice pair of shorts with a pair of opaque tights. I try this outfit at home all the time, i have two pairs of shorts that could work for this outfit...but every time i try it on...i can't figure out the top or i just don't have the fashion balls to wear it. I put it on and then just go "NO...no no no".
I wish i could pull it off....oh fashion why do you have to beyond my grasp.
And finally....tomorrow, I am very excited for Harry Potter in Imax. Now Imax is my favourite type of movie...i will see any movie on imax, even if it is a movie that I absolutely hate. And why do you ask will i subject myself to movies i don't like for imax.....two words - LASER SHOW! The pre-movie laser show just makes my life. I have the Scotia Theatre Laser show memorized....That is how good it is. I invite you all to come to a imax show with me.
Sorry for the rant....i am experiencing group project stress. I have to have something done today to send to my group but i couldn't do it until i got a part from another group member and she didn't send me her part until 11:30pm.....so i couldn't work on it yesterday evening as planned!
Okay, let's change the topic to more exciting news.....fashion. Today i am trying another new look....i don't really have a name for it but i am gonna roughly call it professionally casual. I am wearing skinny black jeans, a 3/4 length sleeved blue/green....well more green than blue shirt with a short sleeved black blazer over top of it. It sounds weird but it looks not bad...it is the right mix of casual and professional.
Now there is one outfit combination that i have always liked and wanted to wear but i have never been able to work it out. The shorts and tights outfit.....you know where you wear a nice pair of shorts with a pair of opaque tights. I try this outfit at home all the time, i have two pairs of shorts that could work for this outfit...but every time i try it on...i can't figure out the top or i just don't have the fashion balls to wear it. I put it on and then just go "NO...no no no".
I wish i could pull it off....oh fashion why do you have to beyond my grasp.
And finally....tomorrow, I am very excited for Harry Potter in Imax. Now Imax is my favourite type of movie...i will see any movie on imax, even if it is a movie that I absolutely hate. And why do you ask will i subject myself to movies i don't like for imax.....two words - LASER SHOW! The pre-movie laser show just makes my life. I have the Scotia Theatre Laser show memorized....That is how good it is. I invite you all to come to a imax show with me.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Get Through This
So it is Thursday, one day away from Cheese Bagel Day and one day closer to the weekend. And all I can think about is....I am gonna die tonight at boot camp. I caught a wicked cold/flu/sore throat last week....in fact, it is like a sick bomb exploded in my department at work because everyone here has some sort of illness....we are all sniffling and coughing...people avoid our department like crazy. Anyway....last week I got winded just going up the stairs at my subway station so I knew i wouldn't be able to handle boot camp....now tonight...i am forcing myself to go but it is not going to be an easy class.
I just have to get through the next two weeks, 4 assignments due next Wednesday in my fundraising class, a group assignment & presentation plus a final exam in my hr class. Get through those items and then I have Christmas to look forward too.
Get through all that and I can decorate our Christmas tree, wrap presents, bake Christmas related goodies, and enjoy other Christmas fun.
On a side note....I miss my Ipod.
I just have to get through the next two weeks, 4 assignments due next Wednesday in my fundraising class, a group assignment & presentation plus a final exam in my hr class. Get through those items and then I have Christmas to look forward too.
Get through all that and I can decorate our Christmas tree, wrap presents, bake Christmas related goodies, and enjoy other Christmas fun.
On a side note....I miss my Ipod.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Warm Fuzzies for Puck
Glee last night went well....I don't know what the critics are gonna say but I give it mostly positive reviews. I do feel like this sectionals was not as strong as last years.....and I didn't enjoy all the in-fighting. But my favourites were front and centre last night, Puck - the deluded bad boy and Britney - the dumb blond. They were the two to have both my favourite quotes of the night.
Britney - "I am pretty sure the cricket that reads to me at night is stealing my jewelry"
Puck - "More like its Am-BAD-ASS-ador"
Unless you see the episode, these quotes won't make any sense to you but hopefully these quotes will have made you curious enough to watch the episode. But regardless if you watch the episode, know this....one day, when my mutant powers come in and i get the mind control I have always wanted....we will be living in a musical! So you better all be prepared for the excitement of music fusion and expressing yourself through song.
I secretly wish that I had some musical talent....I have been teaching myself the guitar but I am not very good at all, I find learning cords boring and I want to get right into playing songs...so a lot of my practicing comes down to me making up songs. I always thought I would be great in a band! I have the right mix of crazy and style.
I guess i will have to console myself with my crafting and sewing talents.....and now dream of doing the costumes for musicals instead of staring in them.
UPDATE: I just read an article written about Glee last night that has changed my view of the episode. I really admire this women who wrote the article, she is a writer on the new degrassi series and she is best friends with my favourite gossip blogger. She pointed out that although Glee has taken a very serious anti-bullying stance, they spent the episode bullying Rachel. And I still enjoyed the episode for Britney and Puck....but my eyes are now opened about the bullying issue and I am not as happy with the episode as I was.
Please read the article: http://www.laineygossip.com/Glee_recap_Written_by_Duana_01dec1o.aspx?CatID=0&CelID=0
Britney - "I am pretty sure the cricket that reads to me at night is stealing my jewelry"
Puck - "More like its Am-BAD-ASS-ador"
Unless you see the episode, these quotes won't make any sense to you but hopefully these quotes will have made you curious enough to watch the episode. But regardless if you watch the episode, know this....one day, when my mutant powers come in and i get the mind control I have always wanted....we will be living in a musical! So you better all be prepared for the excitement of music fusion and expressing yourself through song.
I secretly wish that I had some musical talent....I have been teaching myself the guitar but I am not very good at all, I find learning cords boring and I want to get right into playing songs...so a lot of my practicing comes down to me making up songs. I always thought I would be great in a band! I have the right mix of crazy and style.
I guess i will have to console myself with my crafting and sewing talents.....and now dream of doing the costumes for musicals instead of staring in them.
UPDATE: I just read an article written about Glee last night that has changed my view of the episode. I really admire this women who wrote the article, she is a writer on the new degrassi series and she is best friends with my favourite gossip blogger. She pointed out that although Glee has taken a very serious anti-bullying stance, they spent the episode bullying Rachel. And I still enjoyed the episode for Britney and Puck....but my eyes are now opened about the bullying issue and I am not as happy with the episode as I was.
Please read the article: http://www.laineygossip.com/Glee_recap_Written_by_Duana_01dec1o.aspx?CatID=0&CelID=0
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