It's my party!

So, i have a great new job, things are looking up for me, so why do i feel slightly melancholy today.  My birthday is on Saturday and i am not in much of a party mood. 

It is so strange, i thought everything would be solved with a new job, and yes for the most part i am loving it, it is challenging and i am learning lots of new and useful things.  I am not even worrying that it is a maternity leave that i am working.  Everything will be fine!

But i am still feeling a little out of sorts.  I guess it is because it is my birthday and it feels very anti-climatic after last years drunk extravaganza that i spent the next day throwing up from.
This year, i have no idea who to celebrate with.  I am doing a few small things, dinner with the family downtown, shopping with a friend at lunch today, dinner with another friend on Monday.  But in terms of a night out, most of my friends seem very introverted and anti social right now, me included.  Truthfully, i am doing something stupid....testing....to see how many people remember without the use of facebook.  It's stupid, i know, but i am curious.

Anyways, i have an exam on Tuesday and another one next Saturday so i will be studying this week.

Been here 2 days Girl

Yes...i have made an impression at work.  A lovely awkward impression that everyone loves.  We had our monthly staff meeting today and the newbies had to stand up and say something about themselves.  When it was my turn, i stood up and said:
"Hi, I'm Erin, I have been here 2 days" (room breaks out in laughter which i don't really understand what is funny about that sentence)
So...what rep do i have, the funny awkward girl.  I was just in the bathroom and a girl came in and was like it's 'i have been here two days girl' how have your two days been?

I guess that's a good impression so far. 

I am thinking....i may have found a place i fit.  Actually fit!

The End is where it all Starts

I watched a Torchwood marathon on Canada Day weekend and Captain Jack Harkness said that at the end on one season where some characters had died.
Now even with me being a drama queen, there is nothing as serious as death but that phrase 'The end is where it all starts' it has stuck with me....for days it was tossed around my brain, playing over and over again like a broken record.
Why?? 
Well, i was technically at the end of a chapter of my life. 

Guess what...it is true, today, i worked my first day at my new job.  I feel hope again.  And do you know what i went to sleep staring at last night, the moon outside my window.  The moon is my symbol of hope and i know it is always changing, moving in a 'lunar cycle' BUT life is always moving forward and changing, just like the moon. 

On a side note, my email got hacked so i changed my password to something crazy and complicated...then forgot it and now i have locked myself out of my email.  Go Me!