So....i must admit something, i am not happy with tiff this year. And that makes me sad. So every year i buy a 10 pack of tickets that choose your movies in advance of the festival. Basically you pick first and second choices and your order is processed before individual tickets are available to purchase. So one of my favourite things is to see world premieres.....i love sitting in a theatre with a bunch of strangers and seeing the first official screening of a movie...it makes me feel like i am a part of the specialness of that movie. This year, the festival has made all big movies that stars are attending, premium movies, and not available to the advanced ticket people. Also they have changed the price of these movies from $20 to $40. I love seeing the stars and everything but that's not what they took away from me....the took away my chance to be a part of the specialness of a movie. I just feel so sad. I don't know if i am explaining this right or i am just complaining too much about it but it is one of my most favourite things to do....go to tiff. And now it feels more like an obligation then a fun exciting time.
The other thing that has me disappointed. I wanted to see one movie at the festival - Drive, and yes i know it is probably the most anticipated movie coming and it will be hard to get tickets. There were only 2 showings and the first showing is a premiere showing that i can't order tickets to with my advanced package. The second showing was 9:15am on Sunday morning. I voluntarily picked that movie. Second showings aren't as popular and neither are Sunday mornings. They process our advanced orders according to a random draw and we were the second box to be processed which is almost unheard of. That close to the front...amazingly lucky....all these add up to me definitely getting a ticket to Drive. But nope...i didn't. I am shocked and disappointed.
Anyways...that's what's new with me. I am feeling down because of tiff but i am hoping that once it actually starts i will feel more excited.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
I almost Died Yesterday
So i had to renew my library card yesterday. Did you know they expire every year....i didn't know that. So i went to the library yesterday to renew my card and walking back to my apartment, i stopped to get a green tea lemonade, from starbucks. It was pretty decent. Then crossing the street, i had right of way, many people were crossing and this car turns right, doesn't stop and almost runs me over in the middle of the street, i had to jump back to avoid him and he drove right through and didn't even slow down, then kept going. Not at all concerned that he almost ran over some people.
People are insane!
In other news, i have thought a lot about my 'love life'. Thought a lot...that is an understatement...maybe obsessed about it is more realistic. Anyways, i have made my decision, i am going to let go of my crush, he obviously thinks of me only in friendly terms, so why complicate things. Just accept that. Maybe i will avoid him for a little while just to help me get over the crush. Space will help.
Distraction will also help, I will be busy with tiff soon, then the campaign will be going on and i will be busy at work. And maybe i will plan a few weekend adventures, mom and andrea wanted to go to the states for shopping. And soon before you know it, it will be december and i will be busy with christmas stuff.
And i think i will plan a trip, maybe across canada. Or maybe some place warm...who knows...but i think a trip is just what i need. Some space from my life....from my brain which doesn't seem to want to stop thinking about things i shouldn't think about.
People are insane!
In other news, i have thought a lot about my 'love life'. Thought a lot...that is an understatement...maybe obsessed about it is more realistic. Anyways, i have made my decision, i am going to let go of my crush, he obviously thinks of me only in friendly terms, so why complicate things. Just accept that. Maybe i will avoid him for a little while just to help me get over the crush. Space will help.
Distraction will also help, I will be busy with tiff soon, then the campaign will be going on and i will be busy at work. And maybe i will plan a few weekend adventures, mom and andrea wanted to go to the states for shopping. And soon before you know it, it will be december and i will be busy with christmas stuff.
And i think i will plan a trip, maybe across canada. Or maybe some place warm...who knows...but i think a trip is just what i need. Some space from my life....from my brain which doesn't seem to want to stop thinking about things i shouldn't think about.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Adele
So, i watched some of the VMA's last night and i got to see Adele perform. It made me wish for something that i have never really wished for before....being able to express my feelings in such a beautiful way. Music is an amazing thing, it can evoke any emotion. and then add lyrics which if done right can touch you...make you feel like someone took what you were feeling and created a song.
I use this blog to express my feelings....i also tend to just blurt out my feelings whenever i am feeling them. I can be a crazy over emotional drama queen. And although i love writing out my feelings in a humorous and grammatically incorrect format like this...what i would love to be able to do is write songs that let the world know how i am feeling and....maybe it is easier to use an example...Adele, i want to be able to express my feelings like Adele and have the world understand.
I was listening to her album on the way to drop off my TIFF picks and there is this one song, He Won't Go. And there was this one part...and it made me think of my life.
"I can't do it on my own
if this ain't love, than what is it?
I'm willing to take the risk"
Am I willing to take the risk? I mean let's look at my past history of boys...i run away any time anything gets serious. But more and more people are encouraging me to set up an online dating profile and start meeting guys. They say I need to get out there more.
But what if....in my life right now, i see someone who doesn't see me. or at least not in the way i want him too see me. Do i take the risk and try to change his perception of me or do i accept it and move on and set up that online profile and start dating. Both options seem like a risk to me. What is the right risk for me to take. I feel like it is the right time for me and i am ready for the risk....so do i put myself on risky path A, or risky path B.
Time for you, my faithful blog readers, to help me decide the next big step in my life.
Also, all of you should download and listen to Adele! If you have ever tangled with love and relationships, she will speak to you!
I use this blog to express my feelings....i also tend to just blurt out my feelings whenever i am feeling them. I can be a crazy over emotional drama queen. And although i love writing out my feelings in a humorous and grammatically incorrect format like this...what i would love to be able to do is write songs that let the world know how i am feeling and....maybe it is easier to use an example...Adele, i want to be able to express my feelings like Adele and have the world understand.
I was listening to her album on the way to drop off my TIFF picks and there is this one song, He Won't Go. And there was this one part...and it made me think of my life.
"I can't do it on my own
if this ain't love, than what is it?
I'm willing to take the risk"
Am I willing to take the risk? I mean let's look at my past history of boys...i run away any time anything gets serious. But more and more people are encouraging me to set up an online dating profile and start meeting guys. They say I need to get out there more.
But what if....in my life right now, i see someone who doesn't see me. or at least not in the way i want him too see me. Do i take the risk and try to change his perception of me or do i accept it and move on and set up that online profile and start dating. Both options seem like a risk to me. What is the right risk for me to take. I feel like it is the right time for me and i am ready for the risk....so do i put myself on risky path A, or risky path B.
Time for you, my faithful blog readers, to help me decide the next big step in my life.
Also, all of you should download and listen to Adele! If you have ever tangled with love and relationships, she will speak to you!
Bow Ties, High Heels, and the Blues
My weekend was pretty good, even the rule filled stay at grandma's house. Saturday was Grandma's big 85th birthday and my two favourite kids were in fine form. I don't know if i have mentioned this before but Brady, he loves weddings. He thinks they are great fun, a big party where he gets to dance and he loves to dance. So earlier in the week, he demanded to wear his bow tie to the 'wedding' on Saturday. He totally won the best dressed of the event because of the bow tie....and him saying 'that's my bowtie' and being shocked and surprised later in the evening to find out it was a clip on.
I, of course (because i am a horrible person and she makes it so easy) picked an outfit that grandma would not like but couldn't disapprove of because it was within dress code requirements. I don't know why i do it...but she just makes it so easy...plus i am a very contrary person sometimes, a fault i know but it is one that i have accepted.
Anyways, where was I before I rambled off topic. Oh yah the K-Town. So party went good, bradyon was so on it was amazing. I loved watching him and ally run around but at the same time, they exhausted me. Andrea is amazing with them!
Onto the high heels....I of course chose to wear these amazing high heels that i love and are very fashionable but dude...wearing them all night and standing at the bluesfest in them...my feet are still sore. Damn my motto of fashion over function. But i survive.
Bluesfest was the final and maybe my favourite part of the weekend because i got to see two of my favourite people, Alex and Ryan. Alex got us in, it is great to know people who have power! Dad and Wylie got to see and hang out with Bob. I don't know much about Blues so i can't tell you if the music was great blues or not but it sounded good to me.
There was a moment that wasn't the funnest but I am just passing it off as drunkenness. So we were leaving our first bluesfest bar and i had lagged behind a bit and this guy grabbed my arm and said 'you need to be with me'. He was very drunk and it was pretty creepy but luckily one of his friends apologized and dragged him away. I probably should have re-thought the skirt..Andrea did say it made my bum look shapely....and that does attract attention. Anyways, i kept that moment to myself because i didn't want to bring down the party. And the moment passed too quickly to be important.
Oh....also on a side note, I told Alex that it was on my bucket list to go to a drive in because i have never been before and i feel that it is something i must do and can't really take myself since i don't have a car. And she said she would take me but not make out with me. Which is fine...although one day i will have to go to a drive in with a boy and make out like crazy because i feel that that is also an important right of passage.
I, of course (because i am a horrible person and she makes it so easy) picked an outfit that grandma would not like but couldn't disapprove of because it was within dress code requirements. I don't know why i do it...but she just makes it so easy...plus i am a very contrary person sometimes, a fault i know but it is one that i have accepted.
Anyways, where was I before I rambled off topic. Oh yah the K-Town. So party went good, bradyon was so on it was amazing. I loved watching him and ally run around but at the same time, they exhausted me. Andrea is amazing with them!
Onto the high heels....I of course chose to wear these amazing high heels that i love and are very fashionable but dude...wearing them all night and standing at the bluesfest in them...my feet are still sore. Damn my motto of fashion over function. But i survive.
Bluesfest was the final and maybe my favourite part of the weekend because i got to see two of my favourite people, Alex and Ryan. Alex got us in, it is great to know people who have power! Dad and Wylie got to see and hang out with Bob. I don't know much about Blues so i can't tell you if the music was great blues or not but it sounded good to me.
There was a moment that wasn't the funnest but I am just passing it off as drunkenness. So we were leaving our first bluesfest bar and i had lagged behind a bit and this guy grabbed my arm and said 'you need to be with me'. He was very drunk and it was pretty creepy but luckily one of his friends apologized and dragged him away. I probably should have re-thought the skirt..Andrea did say it made my bum look shapely....and that does attract attention. Anyways, i kept that moment to myself because i didn't want to bring down the party. And the moment passed too quickly to be important.
Oh....also on a side note, I told Alex that it was on my bucket list to go to a drive in because i have never been before and i feel that it is something i must do and can't really take myself since i don't have a car. And she said she would take me but not make out with me. Which is fine...although one day i will have to go to a drive in with a boy and make out like crazy because i feel that that is also an important right of passage.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Something is Off
So, you know how yesterday i was all...yay i am feeling positive about work....today i am not. This made me stop and think.....what's the deal. I should be excited, i am doing a job that i have wanted and worked towards for the past two years, i am getting paid very well, and i think i am doing a good job. But i keep having this positive/negative mood swing about my job. Then i start to worry i am not doing a good enough job. I really need to relax and trust myself.
A few months ago, i talked to a therapist about dealing with my grief about Logan, he told me that i was dealing with it in a very healthy positive way and he told me some lovely things about me. Things that other people have also told me. It makes me wonder....why do i not see those things when i look in the mirror...Every time i look in the mirror.
I use to get glimpses of that girl. That one that everyone sees and loves. Now i get days of that girl. Where i am confident and proud of who i am. But with all these mood swings about my work...it is affecting my view of myself. Why am i not excited to go to work every day? Why don't i love and believe in myself every single moment of every day?
It seems like it is the opposite now...i see that girl most of the time and only get a glimpse of the other one, the one who doesn't trust herself. Maybe it is all a mental thing.
Last night at boot camp, we had to do jump ups on this pretty high box....there was this really tall girl there who could do this jump up no problem...she was all legs it would have been so easy for her. But she couldn't do it, not even once because she psyched herself out. It was all mental.
Where am i going with this? That i am mental. Maybe. Possible.
Truth...I have worked very hard to see myself in a positive light. Years of struggle and doubt and worry have given way to more confidence, belief, and positivity. My dad says believe it and it will come true. It's that simple, we create our own reality.
I am working on my reality. As i have tell people when they ask me why i don't have a boyfriend or get married and settle down.....
A few months ago, i talked to a therapist about dealing with my grief about Logan, he told me that i was dealing with it in a very healthy positive way and he told me some lovely things about me. Things that other people have also told me. It makes me wonder....why do i not see those things when i look in the mirror...Every time i look in the mirror.
I use to get glimpses of that girl. That one that everyone sees and loves. Now i get days of that girl. Where i am confident and proud of who i am. But with all these mood swings about my work...it is affecting my view of myself. Why am i not excited to go to work every day? Why don't i love and believe in myself every single moment of every day?
It seems like it is the opposite now...i see that girl most of the time and only get a glimpse of the other one, the one who doesn't trust herself. Maybe it is all a mental thing.
Last night at boot camp, we had to do jump ups on this pretty high box....there was this really tall girl there who could do this jump up no problem...she was all legs it would have been so easy for her. But she couldn't do it, not even once because she psyched herself out. It was all mental.
Where am i going with this? That i am mental. Maybe. Possible.
Truth...I have worked very hard to see myself in a positive light. Years of struggle and doubt and worry have given way to more confidence, belief, and positivity. My dad says believe it and it will come true. It's that simple, we create our own reality.
I am working on my reality. As i have tell people when they ask me why i don't have a boyfriend or get married and settle down.....
I Am A Work In Progress!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Feeling Positive
So, I am starting to get deadlines at work. And am very crazy about deadlines, i will meet them. But here a lot of my work is dependant on other people completing their part. So i have a deadline which is tomorrow and i won't make it because i have to wait for these letters to get signed. and i must be honest that was stressing me out majorly. I may be a slacker in my regular life but work life...i like to be known as smart, dependable and a great worker. So not meeting a deadline is like sacrilege to me. But right now......i have evaluated what is required for the deadline and i will have everything ready except the signed letters...which is out of my control, and i have already informed everyone of the delay. I feel like i am still representing myself as a good worker.
Okay work rant out of the way. Now onto the news of the day.....i want to wear something fun and frivolous to grandma's birthday party. If i am going to be in Kingston and have to stay at grandma's i want to have fashion fun. So it is time to start brainstorming. Of course this means, i am not satisfied with any of my current clothes and must find a new outfit. I saw this dress thing at urban outfitters yesterday but it may be just a little to not me. It was like a strapless dress/romper. It was an off white top with a band of pink at the waist then bright coloured skort (yes skort...i can't even believe i liked it at all but there is something about it). It is also on sale but i decided not to buy it because it is a skort. Time to keep looking. I guess the first thing i need to do is decide the theme of my outfit before i buy something. I will keep thinking about it.
Okay work rant out of the way. Now onto the news of the day.....i want to wear something fun and frivolous to grandma's birthday party. If i am going to be in Kingston and have to stay at grandma's i want to have fashion fun. So it is time to start brainstorming. Of course this means, i am not satisfied with any of my current clothes and must find a new outfit. I saw this dress thing at urban outfitters yesterday but it may be just a little to not me. It was like a strapless dress/romper. It was an off white top with a band of pink at the waist then bright coloured skort (yes skort...i can't even believe i liked it at all but there is something about it). It is also on sale but i decided not to buy it because it is a skort. Time to keep looking. I guess the first thing i need to do is decide the theme of my outfit before i buy something. I will keep thinking about it.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
TIFF!
So I picked up my catalogue yesterday and started my movie picking for this years TIFF. I am excited. It seems like there is a lot of great movies. I haven't got them narrowed down yet, that is what i am working on today and tomorrow.
In other news....I had this forbidding feeling today, like a pit in my stomach warning me that today wasn't going to be a great day. I wanted to change my outfit because i wasn't too happy with it but i stuck to my rules and stayed with the outfit i picked out last night. I guess i was being superstitious because i worried that if i changed my outfit on top of the already bad feeling...i would increase the bad luck. I know...i am certifiable. So I am now focusing on being positive. It is going to be a good day. It doesn't matter that the subway was all screwed up today and i was almost an hour late. Keep thinking positively.
I am going to get through my work and meet the deadline as best as i can. I am starting to worry about myself a little bit. I really need to stop being so hard on myself...i need to do the best i can. Work hard and be proud of my accomplishments instead of expecting more.
In other news....I had this forbidding feeling today, like a pit in my stomach warning me that today wasn't going to be a great day. I wanted to change my outfit because i wasn't too happy with it but i stuck to my rules and stayed with the outfit i picked out last night. I guess i was being superstitious because i worried that if i changed my outfit on top of the already bad feeling...i would increase the bad luck. I know...i am certifiable. So I am now focusing on being positive. It is going to be a good day. It doesn't matter that the subway was all screwed up today and i was almost an hour late. Keep thinking positively.
I am going to get through my work and meet the deadline as best as i can. I am starting to worry about myself a little bit. I really need to stop being so hard on myself...i need to do the best i can. Work hard and be proud of my accomplishments instead of expecting more.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Bike Ride
So me and Amy went for a bike ride last night, my first real bike ride since i was a kid. I approached it like i approach everything....outfit first. So i have a cruiser bike and i wanted an outfit that was casual and cute and perfect for a cruiser bike. I work my loose and flowy tuxedo shirt i just bought at the gap, a black cardigan, my skinny grey jeans that everyone loves and a pair of black flats. Outfit check....now hair. Here's the problem, helmets are not adorable and it takes away from the look i am going for....so i decided to do two low pigtails....that way the hair is not all over the place and stylish enough to go with the outfit. With the outfit working...off i go for my ride with Amy.
First impression.....dude it is a lot harder than i remember and expected. I was planning a fun simple ride and because my area is quite hilly there was a lot of work then a lot of gliding.
But of course my night would not be complete without.....a visit from a crazy person. So we are riding past the park and this guy said (and FYI i am NOT making this up) 'i am trying to let one rip' and in response because what do you say to that i said 'okay' and then as i was riding away he said 'i was trying to fart and just couldn't get one out at the right time' I kid you not...there was no way i could have mis-heard them.
Then later when we were finishing our circuit....he was there again and we drove past him and he made a shooting noise and said 'got you'.
So thanks to the random fart dude...you added Toronto flare to my first bike ride.
And as Amy put it best 'you sure do have crazy-dar' and it is true...i end up in more than my fair share of crazy talk. But that does give me lots of stories to write about for my blog. So there is that.
First impression.....dude it is a lot harder than i remember and expected. I was planning a fun simple ride and because my area is quite hilly there was a lot of work then a lot of gliding.
But of course my night would not be complete without.....a visit from a crazy person. So we are riding past the park and this guy said (and FYI i am NOT making this up) 'i am trying to let one rip' and in response because what do you say to that i said 'okay' and then as i was riding away he said 'i was trying to fart and just couldn't get one out at the right time' I kid you not...there was no way i could have mis-heard them.
Then later when we were finishing our circuit....he was there again and we drove past him and he made a shooting noise and said 'got you'.
So thanks to the random fart dude...you added Toronto flare to my first bike ride.
And as Amy put it best 'you sure do have crazy-dar' and it is true...i end up in more than my fair share of crazy talk. But that does give me lots of stories to write about for my blog. So there is that.
Monday, August 22, 2011
New Week
So, this should be a week I am all excited and happy because TIFF stuff starts up this week. I need to pick up my festival package and start my movie picking. I also have quite a lot of things happening this week; a goal of 2 bike rides, visiting with Amy, will, and heather, as well as getting back to the gym all regular like and doing a run on Wednesday. Then to finish the week off, i have an eye appointment on Friday and go to the K-Town on Saturday for Grandma's birthday.
Now, this may sound crazy but i am actually feeling guilty and worried about leaving Remy alone for a night. I use to leave them alone for a night at the time when Logan was still alive but now that Remy is alone...i feel bad about leaving him.
I will work that all out.
As for the weekend that just happened.....i had the best time. It was fun and relaxing and even though my feet hurt from all the walking in fashionable but not functional sandals. Friday night we grabbed a dinner with mom dad and aunt Cathie...then i enjoyed Bring It On. Best movie from my youth!
Saturday, me and Ryan had a great day! We enjoyed brunch at The Harlem Underground, then walked to Sugar beach and then found the best play ground every. It was an urban playground at the lakeshore and sherbourne. There was this giant metal disk that you could spin and it would make you dizzy. I could have spun on that for hours.
We eventually headed off to the race, where we cheered the racers off, drank some beer while dad actually told us a bunch of stories. He was so talkative it was awesome! Then Steph and Cathie finished the race in 1 hour and 23 minutes....superstars both of them!!! and Cathie got us a bunch of waterbottles. We enjoyed a lovely dinner at the Mill Street Brewpub....and it was a day well spent!
Then Sunday, another awesome brunch with Ryan, Amy, & Justin. Then we wandered the distillery district, it was full of engagement photo sessions and seqway tours. It got me thinking....i am not much of a relationship person, although i have decided i would like to see what falling in love is like, if i ever did fall in love would i ever do engagement pictures. I don't think so....I have never been one to follow the crowd and i think most engagement pictures seem silly....i say most because there are a few out there (maybe related to me) that had great engagement pictures. Anyways....i am heading off on a tangent...be prepared.
Falling in love.....what is that about. I have never let anyone close enough for me to actually do it. I mean sure there have been a few guys but i have always had one foot out of the relationship even when the relationship was going good. I know i screw up most of my relationships with my lack of trust but i had always hoped that i would meet a guy that would want to fight for me. Love my crazy, and be willing to fight through my lack of trust and running away instincts. It is asking a lot.
People have been encouraging me to try online dating.....and i have thought about it but here's the issue...you get to that about you page and what you are looking for and i blank. I have no idea what to write!
I let myself develop crushes on people that it would never work out with because that is easier then actually risking myself. My current crush....he may be the nicest person i have ever met but it won't ever work out because the feelings aren't reciprocated....or well i am assuming because i have never broached the subject and never will because it would make things just too awkward. So i will keep my crush to myself and maybe try to psych myself up to trying online dating. I did promise myself that i would take a risk this year and attempt to find love.
Anyways...that was a major tangent but apparently my feelings have decided to take over my blog post today.
Hope you all had an amazing weekend!
Now, this may sound crazy but i am actually feeling guilty and worried about leaving Remy alone for a night. I use to leave them alone for a night at the time when Logan was still alive but now that Remy is alone...i feel bad about leaving him.
I will work that all out.
As for the weekend that just happened.....i had the best time. It was fun and relaxing and even though my feet hurt from all the walking in fashionable but not functional sandals. Friday night we grabbed a dinner with mom dad and aunt Cathie...then i enjoyed Bring It On. Best movie from my youth!
Saturday, me and Ryan had a great day! We enjoyed brunch at The Harlem Underground, then walked to Sugar beach and then found the best play ground every. It was an urban playground at the lakeshore and sherbourne. There was this giant metal disk that you could spin and it would make you dizzy. I could have spun on that for hours.
We eventually headed off to the race, where we cheered the racers off, drank some beer while dad actually told us a bunch of stories. He was so talkative it was awesome! Then Steph and Cathie finished the race in 1 hour and 23 minutes....superstars both of them!!! and Cathie got us a bunch of waterbottles. We enjoyed a lovely dinner at the Mill Street Brewpub....and it was a day well spent!
Then Sunday, another awesome brunch with Ryan, Amy, & Justin. Then we wandered the distillery district, it was full of engagement photo sessions and seqway tours. It got me thinking....i am not much of a relationship person, although i have decided i would like to see what falling in love is like, if i ever did fall in love would i ever do engagement pictures. I don't think so....I have never been one to follow the crowd and i think most engagement pictures seem silly....i say most because there are a few out there (maybe related to me) that had great engagement pictures. Anyways....i am heading off on a tangent...be prepared.
Falling in love.....what is that about. I have never let anyone close enough for me to actually do it. I mean sure there have been a few guys but i have always had one foot out of the relationship even when the relationship was going good. I know i screw up most of my relationships with my lack of trust but i had always hoped that i would meet a guy that would want to fight for me. Love my crazy, and be willing to fight through my lack of trust and running away instincts. It is asking a lot.
People have been encouraging me to try online dating.....and i have thought about it but here's the issue...you get to that about you page and what you are looking for and i blank. I have no idea what to write!
I let myself develop crushes on people that it would never work out with because that is easier then actually risking myself. My current crush....he may be the nicest person i have ever met but it won't ever work out because the feelings aren't reciprocated....or well i am assuming because i have never broached the subject and never will because it would make things just too awkward. So i will keep my crush to myself and maybe try to psych myself up to trying online dating. I did promise myself that i would take a risk this year and attempt to find love.
Anyways...that was a major tangent but apparently my feelings have decided to take over my blog post today.
Hope you all had an amazing weekend!
Friday, August 19, 2011
I have sneezed 3 times in the last 5 minutes
Just wanted to let you know what is new with me while creating a thought provoking blog title.
So yesterday, it was a tough one, good and bad. I got yummy cheap pizza but spent most of the afternoon have trouble with work. Just confusion and a report i was running came back with all these weird errors that has never happened before that i had to figure out. So by the time work was over...the last thing i wanted to do was go to boot camp but i forced myself. And i made it through.
Then i have been watching Degrassi on much and i am enjoying the season but last nights episode, Jenna gave her baby up for adoption and Eli realized that he does need his medication and he can't get Claire back. What story line had me losing it and crying like some crazy person.........nope not the baby giving up which is strange that so would have been what i thought too. But no...i was more sad for Eli because he is having trouble understanding his problem and stopped taking his meds and was in a downward spiral. All i wanted to do was hug him and tell him that everything will be okay.
Oh and i also enjoyed the Park's and Rec episode that was on last night...the snake juice episode. It was Ron dancing in that tiny sparkly hat....gets me every time. I also enjoy john ralphio's rapping...he doesn't have to stop at the rhyme!
Today, the office is pretty empty so I will get a chance to get lots done! Then dinner with family and hang out fun tomorrow!!
So yesterday, it was a tough one, good and bad. I got yummy cheap pizza but spent most of the afternoon have trouble with work. Just confusion and a report i was running came back with all these weird errors that has never happened before that i had to figure out. So by the time work was over...the last thing i wanted to do was go to boot camp but i forced myself. And i made it through.
Then i have been watching Degrassi on much and i am enjoying the season but last nights episode, Jenna gave her baby up for adoption and Eli realized that he does need his medication and he can't get Claire back. What story line had me losing it and crying like some crazy person.........nope not the baby giving up which is strange that so would have been what i thought too. But no...i was more sad for Eli because he is having trouble understanding his problem and stopped taking his meds and was in a downward spiral. All i wanted to do was hug him and tell him that everything will be okay.
Oh and i also enjoyed the Park's and Rec episode that was on last night...the snake juice episode. It was Ron dancing in that tiny sparkly hat....gets me every time. I also enjoy john ralphio's rapping...he doesn't have to stop at the rhyme!
Today, the office is pretty empty so I will get a chance to get lots done! Then dinner with family and hang out fun tomorrow!!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Thursday Zombie
I am very tired today, I am not too sure why, i went to bed at regular time, slept mostly through the night and now i am sleepy at work.
I also forgot my water bottle at home today and i am a little sad about it. (fyi, i just said that out loud at work while i typed this) I now come in a bit early to work so i can type this up before i get to work. I missed my daily diary/blog session. I had been feeling a little down about stuff and writing it out always helps.
I must be starting to get comfortable at work because i was talking about wanting to learn the folding machine...that's right we have a machine here that folds letters for us. I my co-worker was joking that it was a skill i really needed to learn, and i joked back saying that you never know, it could come in handy in a future life situation and then i said 'what if the zombie apocalypse is coming and you need to get those how to survive the zombie apocalypse pamphlet out as fast as possible?
Yup....you know i am comfortable when i start talking about the coming zombie invasion.
Maybe it will be an okay day.
I also forgot my water bottle at home today and i am a little sad about it. (fyi, i just said that out loud at work while i typed this) I now come in a bit early to work so i can type this up before i get to work. I missed my daily diary/blog session. I had been feeling a little down about stuff and writing it out always helps.
I must be starting to get comfortable at work because i was talking about wanting to learn the folding machine...that's right we have a machine here that folds letters for us. I my co-worker was joking that it was a skill i really needed to learn, and i joked back saying that you never know, it could come in handy in a future life situation and then i said 'what if the zombie apocalypse is coming and you need to get those how to survive the zombie apocalypse pamphlet out as fast as possible?
Yup....you know i am comfortable when i start talking about the coming zombie invasion.
Maybe it will be an okay day.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Tin's Adventure in DreamLand
So, weird dream last night. I was being chased by this man and a tiger. The man controlled the tiger and the tiger was trying to get me. Which side note, really strange that a tiger would try to kill me because i always thought we were best friends...tigers and me.
Okay anyways...back to the story. So my mom, who was Chinese in this dream told me that the symbol i wore around my neck was my protection against all things evil and i should never take it off. (the symbol by the was is the owl necklace i bought at JC Penny in the states when i went shopping with Amy and Alex....i blogged about the purchase when i returned from shopping)
Then my necklace was stolen so Andrea painted the symbol on the left side of my forehead under my bangs and then i was in the process of going to get it tattooed to ensure i would always be protected from evil when i woke up.
What do you think that means, i am being chased by evil and an owl picture is what will save me. I love that necklace and it has actually come to mean something very important to me....but protect me from evil, i never thought about it that way.
Okay anyways...back to the story. So my mom, who was Chinese in this dream told me that the symbol i wore around my neck was my protection against all things evil and i should never take it off. (the symbol by the was is the owl necklace i bought at JC Penny in the states when i went shopping with Amy and Alex....i blogged about the purchase when i returned from shopping)
Then my necklace was stolen so Andrea painted the symbol on the left side of my forehead under my bangs and then i was in the process of going to get it tattooed to ensure i would always be protected from evil when i woke up.
What do you think that means, i am being chased by evil and an owl picture is what will save me. I love that necklace and it has actually come to mean something very important to me....but protect me from evil, i never thought about it that way.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Bike Adventure
So yesterday was the day to bring my bike home from Andrea's. Me and heather travelled to Andrea's house to have a visit and fix up our bikes. Once that was all done we rode our bikes to the go station and that part of the bike journey was relatively easy. The tough part was the subway. Getting it down into the subway was hard, two sets of stairs no elevator or escalator going down. Then the subway ride was again fairly easy....but the hardest part....the getting out of the subway at our station.
See there are 3 sets of escalators we needed to go up....and my bike is back heavy and it didn't really fit on the escalator, once me and my bike got on the escalator the bike would pull me backwards and i almost fell down every escalator i was taking my bike up. I really had to use my muscles to hold on, i swear i almost died.
But i didn't and now i have an exciting new bike that i am going to ride places for the rest of the summer! YAY!
Also me and Amy are going to go on bike rides and we are going to get steph's bike fixed up so she can join us.
See there are 3 sets of escalators we needed to go up....and my bike is back heavy and it didn't really fit on the escalator, once me and my bike got on the escalator the bike would pull me backwards and i almost fell down every escalator i was taking my bike up. I really had to use my muscles to hold on, i swear i almost died.
But i didn't and now i have an exciting new bike that i am going to ride places for the rest of the summer! YAY!
Also me and Amy are going to go on bike rides and we are going to get steph's bike fixed up so she can join us.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Family BBQ
So this weekend is the Second (hopefully annual) family bbq and as per our 1 year tradition.....it looks like it's going to rain. It would not be a family bbq without a little (or a lot) of rain.
I am pretty excited. I am going out that direction tomorrow to help with the prep work and then Saturday morning i am meeting up with my sister we are hitting up st. lawrence market and then catching the train out to the parent's house.
Sunday, i am going to pick up my bike and maybe hang out with my sister....yay!
Tonight i have boot camp, and i also have a homework assignment of:
As many sprinter sit ups as i can do in 5 minutes
Hold plank for 1 and a half minutes
Hold side plank on each side for 45 seconds
So i am going to do that twice a day every day. It is going to be tough because i hate side plank. But i will do it.
I had a dream last night that i had my bike and i was riding it around on bike adventures. I can't wait to get my bike...now i just need a bike helmet. The one i like is kind of expensive (of course) and it will take a while to get here from the states. So i am going to check out Canadian tire again. Maybe they have a helmet that would sort of be okay.
I am pretty excited. I am going out that direction tomorrow to help with the prep work and then Saturday morning i am meeting up with my sister we are hitting up st. lawrence market and then catching the train out to the parent's house.
Sunday, i am going to pick up my bike and maybe hang out with my sister....yay!
Tonight i have boot camp, and i also have a homework assignment of:
As many sprinter sit ups as i can do in 5 minutes
Hold plank for 1 and a half minutes
Hold side plank on each side for 45 seconds
So i am going to do that twice a day every day. It is going to be tough because i hate side plank. But i will do it.
I had a dream last night that i had my bike and i was riding it around on bike adventures. I can't wait to get my bike...now i just need a bike helmet. The one i like is kind of expensive (of course) and it will take a while to get here from the states. So i am going to check out Canadian tire again. Maybe they have a helmet that would sort of be okay.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Running Yesterday
So, i went running with friends yesterday, we ran 5km. But that's not what i want to tell you.
After the hot and sweaty run, i had to walk home up bathurst. Up that horrible hill and I was not looking my best, a 5km run and then walking that hill. I was a sweaty mess. And i am almost at St. Clair when a guy leans out the window of his tow truck to ask me how my run went and then told me I look Good and to keep it up. I guess i got myself a man. I knew one day....my prince charming would come along and sweep me off my feet. I was just hoping he would have a little more charming and a lot less creep to him.
But there are positives.....it seems like he is employed...and he is friendly. I didn't really get a good look at him because the sun was in my eyes...but i am sure he was attractive in his own way.
You know...that corner seems to be good luck for me.....just last year, i was crossing the street and another man stopped me and told me i should smile more. Now a stranger encouraging me to exercise. The universe is talking to me people!
After the hot and sweaty run, i had to walk home up bathurst. Up that horrible hill and I was not looking my best, a 5km run and then walking that hill. I was a sweaty mess. And i am almost at St. Clair when a guy leans out the window of his tow truck to ask me how my run went and then told me I look Good and to keep it up. I guess i got myself a man. I knew one day....my prince charming would come along and sweep me off my feet. I was just hoping he would have a little more charming and a lot less creep to him.
But there are positives.....it seems like he is employed...and he is friendly. I didn't really get a good look at him because the sun was in my eyes...but i am sure he was attractive in his own way.
You know...that corner seems to be good luck for me.....just last year, i was crossing the street and another man stopped me and told me i should smile more. Now a stranger encouraging me to exercise. The universe is talking to me people!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Remy Update
So, me and Remy are doing good. I spoil him, probably too much, with treats and his favourite toys, which are feathers on a stick. He carrys the toy around dragging the stick on the ground behind him. I throw it for him and he brings it back....it is a great game of fetch. In fact he is staring at me right now because he knows i am writing about him.
We are developing into a very tight team. I am still thinking sometime in the future maybe a year, maybe two years of getting another pet. I still want to get his paw tattooed, and i haven't been able to stop carrying his paw print around in my purse.
Here's a picture of Remy, i found him sleeping like that and i am not sure how he found it comfortable.
We are developing into a very tight team. I am still thinking sometime in the future maybe a year, maybe two years of getting another pet. I still want to get his paw tattooed, and i haven't been able to stop carrying his paw print around in my purse.
Here's a picture of Remy, i found him sleeping like that and i am not sure how he found it comfortable.
Best Birthday Tradition
So, for the past few years, i have gotten sunglasses for my birthday. This year....i got 9 pairs. I love it. i now i have so many pairs of sunglasses, i need a new display. My friend suggested a tie rack. I can get one or two and hang them up on my wall then put the sunglasses on there. I think it just might work and make everything better!
I now think that anyone that ever wants to get rid of sunglasses let me know, i would like to add them to my collection and make them into wall art. Can you imagine it....and entire wall of sunglasses. I have a new goal!
Here is a pic of all of them:
I now think that anyone that ever wants to get rid of sunglasses let me know, i would like to add them to my collection and make them into wall art. Can you imagine it....and entire wall of sunglasses. I have a new goal!
Here is a pic of all of them:
Monday, August 8, 2011
Bike Obsession
So, i don't know if i have said this yet but this summer, i have been seeing all these people riding bikes and i have decided i want one...of course i want the most unpractical one....and why. because it is the most stylish.
I want a single speed cruiser. So i have been checking them out and pricing them, trying to decide if i should by one.
Pro's - I would look super cool, i would get around quick, it would be fun
Con's - I have nowhere to store it, and i am not sure how good i would look in a helmet
So, i had decided that i wouldn't buy one until i worked out all my kinks.
THEN MIRACLE - Andrea had some bikes that were left by the previous owners of her house. And one of them.....it's a one speed cruiser. It is blue and i love it. Me and Andrea cleaned it up and guess what....i got a new bike. Now i am all about tricking it out. Getting some fenders, i have to fix up the grips because the ones on there are falling apart. It needs a bit more cleaning because there is rust on the wheels. But, i got a basket, and a bell which i am going to paint all fun (stars or a skull, i haven't decided yet) and i found a helmet that is pretty. It is like a skateboarding helmet that is all gold sparkley. I still want to get a wicker basket but that can wait. I am thinking i can hang the bike on my wall when i am not using it.
Here is the picture of the helmet i want and the basket i want:
I want a single speed cruiser. So i have been checking them out and pricing them, trying to decide if i should by one.
Pro's - I would look super cool, i would get around quick, it would be fun
Con's - I have nowhere to store it, and i am not sure how good i would look in a helmet
So, i had decided that i wouldn't buy one until i worked out all my kinks.
THEN MIRACLE - Andrea had some bikes that were left by the previous owners of her house. And one of them.....it's a one speed cruiser. It is blue and i love it. Me and Andrea cleaned it up and guess what....i got a new bike. Now i am all about tricking it out. Getting some fenders, i have to fix up the grips because the ones on there are falling apart. It needs a bit more cleaning because there is rust on the wheels. But, i got a basket, and a bell which i am going to paint all fun (stars or a skull, i haven't decided yet) and i found a helmet that is pretty. It is like a skateboarding helmet that is all gold sparkley. I still want to get a wicker basket but that can wait. I am thinking i can hang the bike on my wall when i am not using it.
Here is the picture of the helmet i want and the basket i want:
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