Okay people, it is my last day of work for this year and i am not feeling it at all. Why you ask.......well we went out last night to celebrate the end of the campaign, although it doesn't end until the last day of this year, this is our last time together before the new year.
I guess a lot of people appreciate me because seriously....i did not buy a single drink. I intended to not stay out to long, just go for a drink of two because i wanted to get home to grab dinner. But next thing i know it is like 10:30, i have drank 4 and a half pints and i am really tipsy. All i ate yesterday was a few timbits and a burger and fries, so i had absolutely no carbs to soak up the alcohol and i don't drink much any more so i have lost my high tolerance.
I embarrassingly had the hiccups all the way home on the subway. And if you know our family, you know we don't do quiet hiccups...they are loud! I was so embarrassed, i tried to hide the hiccups but hiding my face in my coat but than i was the weird, hiccupy girl on the subway. There was no saving the subway right...if you were on the subway last night with a weird, slightly drunk, hiccupy girl....sorry, that was me.
Now i have to make it until 1pm...then i can go home...unless we have so donations left to process....but all i really want is to just go home.
Friday, December 23, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Positivity
So i want to just write a quick post. I am very busy at work, we are being very positive but we have some distance to go still, and 3 and a half days left of work.
On a positive and fun note, we are having our fun floor lunch today. It should be fun and entertaining and exciting.
I also started cleaning my apartment last night. Now you guys all know, i am a messy sort of person. I love and thrive in chaos. So cleaning my apartment is never a fun time for me. But i look to find ways to make it more exciting and fun. Last night, i put in a very old but favourite movie of mine "the faculty". i am going to have to get it on DVD or something soon because i only have it on VHS and it was very grainy and not the best quality but i loved every minute of that movie.
And with that movie on...i did a good dent into my cleaning. The bedroom still needs a lot of work...a clothes bomb exploded in there. but i am going to take the time off to go through my clothes and donate all the clothes i don't wear any more in hopes of streamlining my wardrobe. Maybe get it down to a manageable amount that actually fits in my closets.
On a positive and fun note, we are having our fun floor lunch today. It should be fun and entertaining and exciting.
I also started cleaning my apartment last night. Now you guys all know, i am a messy sort of person. I love and thrive in chaos. So cleaning my apartment is never a fun time for me. But i look to find ways to make it more exciting and fun. Last night, i put in a very old but favourite movie of mine "the faculty". i am going to have to get it on DVD or something soon because i only have it on VHS and it was very grainy and not the best quality but i loved every minute of that movie.
And with that movie on...i did a good dent into my cleaning. The bedroom still needs a lot of work...a clothes bomb exploded in there. but i am going to take the time off to go through my clothes and donate all the clothes i don't wear any more in hopes of streamlining my wardrobe. Maybe get it down to a manageable amount that actually fits in my closets.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Baking Adventures
You are all aware of my love of baking. And my need to do a large amount of Christmas baking....well....this was the weekend. I usually bake much earlier than the weekend before Christmas but i have been quite busy for the last like 2 months of weekends. In fact...this weekend was suppose to be my relaxing weekend with one day of baking and one day of movies and crafting. But, baking on Saturday didn't progress as fast and as easy as expected. Also dad got into the spirit and insisted on baking with me and the item he baked took very VERY long in the oven. I loved that he wanted to help and the cake he made is wonderful...it just set me back and i ended up back at mom and dad's on Sunday.
So two days of baking, 3 pounds of butter, lots of egg and sugar and here is what i made:
Lemon-Lime crinkle cookies
Tangerine Butter cookies
Butterscotch Toffee squares
Chocolate peanut butter squares
Candy Cane sugar cookies
Chocolate Chip and Skor Bit cookies
So now that i have finished that, i can rest and take it easy the rest of the week? not so much...i want to clean up my apartment tonight, shopping with dad tomorrow night, meet up with heather on Wednesday, and boot camp on Thursday.
I believe as of Friday at 1pm, i am shutting off my brain and having a nice relaxing holiday. At least that is the plan!
So two days of baking, 3 pounds of butter, lots of egg and sugar and here is what i made:
Lemon-Lime crinkle cookies
Tangerine Butter cookies
Butterscotch Toffee squares
Chocolate peanut butter squares
Candy Cane sugar cookies
Chocolate Chip and Skor Bit cookies
So now that i have finished that, i can rest and take it easy the rest of the week? not so much...i want to clean up my apartment tonight, shopping with dad tomorrow night, meet up with heather on Wednesday, and boot camp on Thursday.
I believe as of Friday at 1pm, i am shutting off my brain and having a nice relaxing holiday. At least that is the plan!
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Hipster Leanings
So you know how i love my skinny jeans that are kind of jegging like. Well i have been thinking for a long time that coloured jeans might be fun, red in particular. But you know how i have these horrible hipster leanings and i am afraid one wrong purchase and i fall right into the hipster category.
BUT....i found these red jean.....jegging jeans at American Eagle....now i don't normally shop at that store because i am not in high school....okay, i have never really felt that store, me and AE...we have never really been friends, they make clothes for tall skinny girls and let's face it...i have a big apple butt, hips, and boobs. But i was with a friend and she wanted to stop in to buy a Christmas present...and what do i see, red skinny jeans. I am drawn towards them....
I must investigate these pants further. They are soft and stretchy but they still more jean then legging. They are perfect. But of course being that this is a tiny person store, they don't have anything over a size 6. So i forgot about them.
But, i couldn't really....and last night, i found myself on the AE website......reading reviews about the fit of the pants....they are all amazingly positive reviews...i add a pair to a my shopping bag. But then i think...do i want to buy something, pants especially, that i have never even tried on, and then do i buy on the larger size or the smaller size? I was still so torn, i didn't buy them.
So do i buy them because i really really want them or do i restrain myself and not buy them? Are red jeans a step to far into hipster? How far can i go without losing my identity. If i start loving things ironically and only wearing fashion to mock it....please SAVE ME!
BUT....i found these red jean.....jegging jeans at American Eagle....now i don't normally shop at that store because i am not in high school....okay, i have never really felt that store, me and AE...we have never really been friends, they make clothes for tall skinny girls and let's face it...i have a big apple butt, hips, and boobs. But i was with a friend and she wanted to stop in to buy a Christmas present...and what do i see, red skinny jeans. I am drawn towards them....
I must investigate these pants further. They are soft and stretchy but they still more jean then legging. They are perfect. But of course being that this is a tiny person store, they don't have anything over a size 6. So i forgot about them.
But, i couldn't really....and last night, i found myself on the AE website......reading reviews about the fit of the pants....they are all amazingly positive reviews...i add a pair to a my shopping bag. But then i think...do i want to buy something, pants especially, that i have never even tried on, and then do i buy on the larger size or the smaller size? I was still so torn, i didn't buy them.
So do i buy them because i really really want them or do i restrain myself and not buy them? Are red jeans a step to far into hipster? How far can i go without losing my identity. If i start loving things ironically and only wearing fashion to mock it....please SAVE ME!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
I had forgotten
When i left customer support for that job in donations at my old work, i was showered with amazingly nice compliments and feelings of love and appreciation. I had made friends and family in customer support, they appreciated me, they didn't know how they would get on without me but they wanted only the best for me and were happy i was moving on.
When i left donations for my current job, my co-workers threw me a little party, but it was clear that it wasn't coming from the department, only my co-workers. I felt like i could walk away and no one would even notice. I spent so long in that department being a nobody, and you know me....i like to shine. I don't even need to shine much....but positive reinforcement is important to me. It makes me feel like people are noticing i am doing my best and putting a real effort into the department. That job really broke me down and made me feel worthless.
Now at my current (amazing) job, we had a team lunch on Monday and it was delicious and nice and they surprised the support staff (aka me and my two co-workers) with a lovely present and wonderful words. Dad thinks this means i will get a permanent job here but i am not even thinking about that because you know what....it is just nice to feel appreciated again. To have someone notice your effort and say good job.
The present was a lovely bottle of wine and a gift card to the mall because they know how much i love shopping. Do they know me or what.
I think i might use the gift card to help me buy those suede shoes.
Anyways....you should take a moment today and tell people how much you appreciate them...it doesn't take much effort and it can really make someones day!
When i left donations for my current job, my co-workers threw me a little party, but it was clear that it wasn't coming from the department, only my co-workers. I felt like i could walk away and no one would even notice. I spent so long in that department being a nobody, and you know me....i like to shine. I don't even need to shine much....but positive reinforcement is important to me. It makes me feel like people are noticing i am doing my best and putting a real effort into the department. That job really broke me down and made me feel worthless.
Now at my current (amazing) job, we had a team lunch on Monday and it was delicious and nice and they surprised the support staff (aka me and my two co-workers) with a lovely present and wonderful words. Dad thinks this means i will get a permanent job here but i am not even thinking about that because you know what....it is just nice to feel appreciated again. To have someone notice your effort and say good job.
The present was a lovely bottle of wine and a gift card to the mall because they know how much i love shopping. Do they know me or what.
I think i might use the gift card to help me buy those suede shoes.
Anyways....you should take a moment today and tell people how much you appreciate them...it doesn't take much effort and it can really make someones day!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Christmas Spirit
Christmas is in less than two weeks and i haven't really been feeling the spirit. I have been busy and distracted. But tonight, i felt like i needed a Christmas cheer injection. I went and bought myself a real mini tree, it isn't the greatest...the selection was pretty picked over but it is cute and tiny and just what i needed to get Christmas started.
Work is really crazy right now, we have a goal we need to get to, and although all tracking is good, we are still a long way from our goal and only two weeks left. So lot's of stress at work. Lots to do. Today, i accidentally broke my filing cabinet, and had to get help to fix it.
What else is new.....well we have a work gift exchange next week and we need to bring a gift, limit is $10, so do i knit a scarf this weekend, or do i buy a holiday lotto pack?
Work is really crazy right now, we have a goal we need to get to, and although all tracking is good, we are still a long way from our goal and only two weeks left. So lot's of stress at work. Lots to do. Today, i accidentally broke my filing cabinet, and had to get help to fix it.
What else is new.....well we have a work gift exchange next week and we need to bring a gift, limit is $10, so do i knit a scarf this weekend, or do i buy a holiday lotto pack?
Sunday, December 11, 2011
The Party
So, it's Sunday night, i went to bed last night at 3:30am and got up at 8:45am for yoga class at 9:30am. Crazy right? Actually i feel quite invigorated today and not at all yucky.
How was the party.....it was amazing, it went really great! Now the task of being a hostest is quite time consuming, every time i sat down to catch up with someone, a person requested one of my signature drinks. Yes, that's right me and Amy and Justin all had signature drinks for everyone to try. Not that i am biased or anything but mine was delicious.....okay, i am totally biased.
What rocked about the party, everyone looked wonderful, Ryan did an amazing job with music (superstar), the food - Justin did amazing, and the people.
What disappointed me slightly....i didn't really get to catch up with the people i wanted too. I kept getting distracted...maybe i have ADD, every time i talked to someone, there was so much noise, i had trouble focusing on the person in front of me. It was a little overwhelming.....by the end of the night, i was a little mad at myself. Does what i am saying make sense...not really.
I mean, i had amazing time and i am so happy that everyone else had a great time....and i believe we are going to do it again next year! But sometimes i wish, we all just snuggled up in some pj's and watched a movie. I miss snuggling with people, hugs and snuggles, the closeness with another person, a large party is amazing and super fun to catch up with people but not so great with bonding and closeness.
Okay, be prepared, i am going off on a major side tangent. But my insecurities are acting up again...and i need to vent them so i can acknowledge them, concur them and then move on. Although, my process doesn't seem to be working so well because it is the same insecurity over and over again. From the outside last night, i was dressed amazing, making up and hair rocked and although i kept yanking down my dress/tunic because really it was way too short to call it a dress, it was a well planned and amazing outfit, i planned and loved every detail of it. But if that is the case, why did i not feel very pretty last night? I felt insecure and awkward and overwhelmed. Why do i continue to seek acceptance and approval from people? why do i keep waiting for some guy to wake up and notice me....and why when i am attracted to someone, i can't even maintain eye contact or i become some sort of weird fidgety awkward kid? I know why....i am a coward...i would prefer to wear a mask than let someone see my vulnerability. Seems weird, wanting to hide my vulnerability in person when i basically bare my soul in this blog all the time. But it is one thing to write it down anonymously it is another to look another person in the eyes worrying that they will somehow see through you, see your feelings.
It's such a catch-22, i am finally ready and searching for a person who will love me as i am, who will see me but all the people i am attracted too, i have trouble letting them actually see me. I can't control my fears and awkwardness.
Okay...sorry.....depressing and blah...that was not the point of this post...but it has been waying on my mind since the party....surrounded by friends....wishing i wasn't so afraid.
How was the party.....it was amazing, it went really great! Now the task of being a hostest is quite time consuming, every time i sat down to catch up with someone, a person requested one of my signature drinks. Yes, that's right me and Amy and Justin all had signature drinks for everyone to try. Not that i am biased or anything but mine was delicious.....okay, i am totally biased.
What rocked about the party, everyone looked wonderful, Ryan did an amazing job with music (superstar), the food - Justin did amazing, and the people.
What disappointed me slightly....i didn't really get to catch up with the people i wanted too. I kept getting distracted...maybe i have ADD, every time i talked to someone, there was so much noise, i had trouble focusing on the person in front of me. It was a little overwhelming.....by the end of the night, i was a little mad at myself. Does what i am saying make sense...not really.
I mean, i had amazing time and i am so happy that everyone else had a great time....and i believe we are going to do it again next year! But sometimes i wish, we all just snuggled up in some pj's and watched a movie. I miss snuggling with people, hugs and snuggles, the closeness with another person, a large party is amazing and super fun to catch up with people but not so great with bonding and closeness.
Okay, be prepared, i am going off on a major side tangent. But my insecurities are acting up again...and i need to vent them so i can acknowledge them, concur them and then move on. Although, my process doesn't seem to be working so well because it is the same insecurity over and over again. From the outside last night, i was dressed amazing, making up and hair rocked and although i kept yanking down my dress/tunic because really it was way too short to call it a dress, it was a well planned and amazing outfit, i planned and loved every detail of it. But if that is the case, why did i not feel very pretty last night? I felt insecure and awkward and overwhelmed. Why do i continue to seek acceptance and approval from people? why do i keep waiting for some guy to wake up and notice me....and why when i am attracted to someone, i can't even maintain eye contact or i become some sort of weird fidgety awkward kid? I know why....i am a coward...i would prefer to wear a mask than let someone see my vulnerability. Seems weird, wanting to hide my vulnerability in person when i basically bare my soul in this blog all the time. But it is one thing to write it down anonymously it is another to look another person in the eyes worrying that they will somehow see through you, see your feelings.
It's such a catch-22, i am finally ready and searching for a person who will love me as i am, who will see me but all the people i am attracted too, i have trouble letting them actually see me. I can't control my fears and awkwardness.
Okay...sorry.....depressing and blah...that was not the point of this post...but it has been waying on my mind since the party....surrounded by friends....wishing i wasn't so afraid.
Friday, December 9, 2011
Black Pumps
I am so glad it is Friday....But i have lots to accomplish today. Also, i need to re-evaluate my need for black pumps. I have never owned a straight pair of black pumps, i have 3 pairs of ankle boots, two pairs of motorcycle/combat boots, lots of flats and one pair of tall boots....but no pair of black pumps. I have been told that ever girl needs a plain pair of black pumps. But i have survived this long without a pair. is it really necessary for me to own a pair. And of course the pair i want isn't the most sensible pair of black pumps. They are super tall and suede.
As you can see....they are just a little too impractical to be my plain pair of black pumps. But they will make me like so much taller and .... and ..... i just want them.
As you can see....they are just a little too impractical to be my plain pair of black pumps. But they will make me like so much taller and .... and ..... i just want them.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
12 Days
Sorry to scare all of you but, there are 12 days left of work for me until a mini vacation. When you don't get vacation, you sort of become obsessed with time off. I think we can officially say that i am obsessed. Things are reeving up here because really we have 12 days left of campaign. 12 days left to raise funds.
Steph has suggested that i get these larabars for breakfast...since i have so much trouble eating breakfast. Well, it's day two. I am not a great fan...steph said that they were delicious but i find them a little too heavy on the date.
But the effort to get fit....it is a work in process. I wanted to be all fit and skinny for our Christmas party but then....i caved at ate some potato chips last night while watching glee. So i will be regular Me on Saturday and not super hot and skinny me. But either way we will still have super fun.
I have been doing some appetizer research and cocktail research...Martha Steward is a great website for that.
Steph has suggested that i get these larabars for breakfast...since i have so much trouble eating breakfast. Well, it's day two. I am not a great fan...steph said that they were delicious but i find them a little too heavy on the date.
But the effort to get fit....it is a work in process. I wanted to be all fit and skinny for our Christmas party but then....i caved at ate some potato chips last night while watching glee. So i will be regular Me on Saturday and not super hot and skinny me. But either way we will still have super fun.
I have been doing some appetizer research and cocktail research...Martha Steward is a great website for that.
Monday, December 5, 2011
SEQUINS
So i purchased a sequined dress for Saturday night.....but it is very VERY short. i will defiantly need to wear tights, or everyone will get a great view of my underwear....and i don't think that would be appropriate.
I almost bought this giant star necklace today....it was at Zara and was like $30. But then i would have to plan my whole outfit around that necklace....which i have done before but it would have been too much flash.
So....where do we stand....i have a dress, now i need to do shoes, tights, hair, accessory decisions. Then i guess i should do some food and beverage planning as well as so decoration planning.
I love that i have made the outfit the most important decision of the whole party. The sequins throw the whole decision process off. I was going to wear just a really cute short green dress but then i decided to go full sequin which is new for me...so i am now faced with some serious decisions....the dress will be the statement piece, so i will have to down play my jewelry, maybe i will just wear my pocket watch or just get a really plain necklace...earrings??? i just don't know. Then nails...i was going to wear red candy cane nail stickers but now it won't go with the outfit...so black nails. Finally - curly or straight....i am thinking curly but i think straight might be better....the theme of the outfit.....wild party girl, or sleek bad ass?
Vote NOW!!!! (thanks in advanced Alex!)
I almost bought this giant star necklace today....it was at Zara and was like $30. But then i would have to plan my whole outfit around that necklace....which i have done before but it would have been too much flash.
So....where do we stand....i have a dress, now i need to do shoes, tights, hair, accessory decisions. Then i guess i should do some food and beverage planning as well as so decoration planning.
I love that i have made the outfit the most important decision of the whole party. The sequins throw the whole decision process off. I was going to wear just a really cute short green dress but then i decided to go full sequin which is new for me...so i am now faced with some serious decisions....the dress will be the statement piece, so i will have to down play my jewelry, maybe i will just wear my pocket watch or just get a really plain necklace...earrings??? i just don't know. Then nails...i was going to wear red candy cane nail stickers but now it won't go with the outfit...so black nails. Finally - curly or straight....i am thinking curly but i think straight might be better....the theme of the outfit.....wild party girl, or sleek bad ass?
Vote NOW!!!! (thanks in advanced Alex!)
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Weekend Warrior
So, last week was crazy with work. And i needed a weekend that would be awesome, relaxing on one hand and super fun on the other.
What did i do, well i had all these plans, go to the Muppet's movie, then meet up with the family, head to oakville, watch my amazingly talented cousin shine in a play and get in lots of wonderful family time...then hit up yoga on Sunday and off to my parents to hang out with my niece and nephew.
Great plan...right?
Well, nothing went the way i planned at all. It was still a great weekend, don't get me wrong, i love LOVE seeing the people i love, there is nothing like spending time with your family to feel like you truly belong. It was only small things that went off track. Another burst pipe from the construction on my street...then no Muppet's, then a very hot theatre, and a grumpy sister.
But it was still one of the best weekends i have had in awhile.
Although Ryan may have had the right idea about going directly to oakville. The eatons centre on a weekend before Christmas....completely insane.
What is up for this week? I am going to go look at sequined dresses, find some recipes for our cocktail parties and do lots of prep for our party. Finally i am going to do a bit of tidying so i can go pick up a REAL Christmas tree for my apartment. It will be my very first Christmas tree on my own!
What did i do, well i had all these plans, go to the Muppet's movie, then meet up with the family, head to oakville, watch my amazingly talented cousin shine in a play and get in lots of wonderful family time...then hit up yoga on Sunday and off to my parents to hang out with my niece and nephew.
Great plan...right?
Well, nothing went the way i planned at all. It was still a great weekend, don't get me wrong, i love LOVE seeing the people i love, there is nothing like spending time with your family to feel like you truly belong. It was only small things that went off track. Another burst pipe from the construction on my street...then no Muppet's, then a very hot theatre, and a grumpy sister.
But it was still one of the best weekends i have had in awhile.
Although Ryan may have had the right idea about going directly to oakville. The eatons centre on a weekend before Christmas....completely insane.
What is up for this week? I am going to go look at sequined dresses, find some recipes for our cocktail parties and do lots of prep for our party. Finally i am going to do a bit of tidying so i can go pick up a REAL Christmas tree for my apartment. It will be my very first Christmas tree on my own!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Going Crazy
So it has been a very busy week. What i really want is a day to sleep...sleep all day and all night and be very lazy. I think it is because i had that day on Sunday and now i want more. I forgot how fun really lazy days can be.
Also...i bought these white tights and i am wearing them with my dress right now and let me just say i really REALLY don't like the combination. I want to take the tights off but my legs are not shaved very greatly and it is a little cold for bare legs. I really don't know what to do with it.
I think i will go for lunch. Then maybe buy tights in a panic at the mall. Then change and regret these white tights.
This weekend is the play, Mike's play...i can't wait. It is going to be fun. And me and Amy are working on our menu for next weekend as well as making a few signature cocktails. I am so excited for next weekend, There have been a few worries about the low number of attendees. But really if the people i love are there who cares about anyone else!
Also...i bought these white tights and i am wearing them with my dress right now and let me just say i really REALLY don't like the combination. I want to take the tights off but my legs are not shaved very greatly and it is a little cold for bare legs. I really don't know what to do with it.
I think i will go for lunch. Then maybe buy tights in a panic at the mall. Then change and regret these white tights.
This weekend is the play, Mike's play...i can't wait. It is going to be fun. And me and Amy are working on our menu for next weekend as well as making a few signature cocktails. I am so excited for next weekend, There have been a few worries about the low number of attendees. But really if the people i love are there who cares about anyone else!
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