Super powers and birthday parties

So, i didn't get a chance to blog yesterday because we were at a work offsite.  But if i did, it would have been dedicated to my sister Steph, who's birthday was yesterday!
So today, let me tell you about my sister.....she is opinionated, and passionate about topics that interest her, and she is super smart.....in fact i always thought she would go into the corporate world and take over....become the most powerful woman in Toronto....but that will happen still, she will take over the government.  She also was the first one there for me when Logan passed and she didn't leave my side.  She drives me crazy and we fight more than we should....but she is my sister and i love her! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH!!!

We are taking her out for dinner tonight and then going to see 21 Jump Street!

Okay now onto my superpowers....i have some sort of technical jinx because i keep breaking these things at work and the tech team has no idea how i do it.  I don't do anything different than other people but i already had the ether-something break and they had to have someone come in and install a new line...i broke the photocopier so bad that a tech had to come in and take it apart and unjam the paper.  I lost all my personal folders on my computer...it was like someone deleted them...and then there was the virus.  And finally......i was doing reception coverage on Wednesday....and i crashed the phone system so bad i had to restart the entire system.  Luckily it started working again but dude that was a stressful ten minutes.
So my new super power is the Techno-Jinx!!!

Wednesday

Today will be my first day of reception coverage.  I am not particularly looking forward to it but i am sure i will be able to handle it.....i have my training manual and attended my training session.  It is going to take me away from my desk for a long time...and i have lots of stuff to do...especially since it is nice out today...the only nice day of the week.
Speaking of weather....i have been dying for a thunder storm....i nice big crashing storm! Last night, there was a baby storm, some lightning, some thunder, a bit of rain but not the giant crashing storm i was looking for.  I want it to happen!!!!

In other news....New Girl made me laugh last night....well more accurately, Nick from New Girl made me laugh.....he is a funny drunk!

I have also decided first thing i will spend my return money on is new blinds.  Then i will start thrift store shopping for a new wardrobe....i want to get one that i can really make my own....with paint and the Erin touch.  After that....who knows...maybe a vacation, maybe a tattoo, maybe a lot of things.

Running Levels

I use to run quite frequently last year...i had built up quite a cardio level.  As much as i hated running it was good for my cardio levels.  Well....i went running last night and i feel like i have asthma...like i have lost my cardio levels.  How am i going to run a half marathon if i struggle with 8 km. 

So here is my goal....get back on track.  It is time to start running regularly....i ran last night and i will be running tonight.  And when it gets warmer...i will begin bike riding again because i think that will help with the cardio.

This half marathon is starting to scare me but it has also provided me with enormous focus.  This week's goal is to run 3 times this week.  Two short runs and one longer run.  Then on top of that i have yoga and boot camp.  This will provide me a nice easy way back into the regular fitness world.  I am also wondering if i should just let steph train me...you know pay her to be my trainer...although that has never gone to successfully before because we fight like angry cats....both disagreeing about what is happening or should happen.  I must admit, i give up very easily.....which frustrates steph.

It is her birthday on Thursday! We are going to take her out for dinner Friday night.  I haven't figured out what i should get her for her birthday but it will be exciting...i know it.

Relax!

Just do it!

I spent Friday in bed until 3pm.  It was a miracle of relaxation!  But then....i went to the grocery store basically in the first bunch of clothes i could find and i ran into this guy that i did habitat for humanity with....it was very awkward....and then he pointed out that i was wearing the same shirt i wore at habitat and asked me if i had any other shirts.  It was quite awkward.  It didn't help that me and this guy are both insanely awkward.  It was like a train wreck of awkwardness.

I also spent Saturday doing nothing.  I have never enjoyed two days more!  It was nice and relaxing and i am recharged and ready to get back into things.....things that have otherwise been avoided....like job searching....training for my half marathon....getting back into shape so all my summer clothes fit....losing my budda belly.

Then Sunday i went to hang out with Andrea and the monkeys....they are so funny.  Ally is such a girlie girl...she was dressed as Cinderella on Sunday...she also insisted on doing my hair.  I see a lot of my side of the family in her, she sings all the time and makes up most of her songs.

Anyways....i hope you all enjoyed your weekend.  I have three goals right now, running regularly for my half marathon, riding my bike without traffic fear, and finding a permanent job.

Day Off

WOOT!  I have decided to take tomorrow off, i got it all approved and everything and i am so ready to just sleep and relax.  Maybe i will go for a bike ride...although that seems like a lot of work considering this weekend will be my relaxing weekend.
Now all i need to do is make it through today.  Do you know how hard it is to work today, knowing that in like 6 hours you get to go home and be free for a full 3 days. 

I shall be getting my tax refund soon....and it is more than i expected.  I know i am going to do the responsible thing and invest half of it.  but what to do with the other half?  Save up for a vacation? Buy some new stuff for my house? Get my Logan paw print tattoo? Many options.  If i didn't have a bike, i would buy a bike no questions.  But now i have a bike, i don't need that.  So back to the many options.

I could always save the money for a big shopping trip to the states.  I have always wanted to go to new york.  There are just too many options

Shaking off the Negatives

So....i have been working on shaking off the negatives that have plagued me since the weekend.  Yesterday, i went for a walk in the sun at lunch and then after work hit up a body pump class with Amy.  Between those two things i think my negatives are falling away.  Then this morning....i woke up and was running late and ended up getting to work late today....but going in late, a random young boy flirted with me and was asking me all these questions about yoga.  It was a nice boost to my confidence. 

I am also wearing my favourite spring/summer dress because i am feeling the spring.  I got it from Joe, but i think it was designed to be like a night gown or a beach cover...it is a long white dress with orange palm trees all over it.  People are loving it today! 

I have itchy feet today....i want to be on vacation...not at work...a nice break from work...I think i am going to see if i can take Friday off.
Then Ryan, you need to come back from Germany so me and Amy can plan our fun adventure to Ottawa.  But i also need my tax refund so i can afford to plan a fun vacation.  Or maybe finally get my logan memorial tattoo.

At what point?

So yesterday was a day...and it seems like today is moving into 'day' territory.  At what point do you say 'time out' i need a day off?  Because i have not taken a day off since September....unless you count the time off between Christmas and new years...but i am not counting that because everyone at work got that time off.  I really think i need a personal day.....a day that is just mine....a day that i can spend it in my pj's.....a day i can sleep as long as i want......a day that i have no obligations to anyone.

I need a new life focus.  I have been job focused for so long...same with guy focus.....and let's face it people...i talk a big game about relaxing and just letting things happen...but in reality, i am a high strung, tightly wound, worrier.  I need a new focus.  A focus that will keep me distracted, distracted from the fact that i am facing down the end of my contract with no new job in sight.  I have to start applying to jobs again.  And all the jobs i like the look of out there are contracts.  I am so flipping tired of contracts...i am tired of getting attached to a place and then treated like i am not part of the organization.

I can't seem to shake the negative. 

A high Five

A high five this weekend shattered my little make believe world.  So, work crush has been gone from work for quite awhile now.....and i forgot about him, obviously it was a fleeting crush but....Friday night, work outing and there was talk of him maybe coming.  But i didn't really believe it.  Then well enjoying two for one beers at Finn's guess who shows up.  I am unaffected....but as the night goes on and the more beers i consume...i stick to my belief...he has a girlfriend, he just sees me as a co-worker.  Then...the meddling happened...my co-worker is like i have to tell you something, i will tell you later...but it's great news..and sort of looks at work crush and then back at me.  So after another 20 minutes, i have built up enough in my mind to think...maybe he does like me.....but it is late and i have to get up early on Saturday so i go to leave.  Earlier my co-worker left and she got a big hug from work crush...i go to leave and i get a high five.  A HIGH FIVE....never in my life has a high five felt more like a punch in the face.  So...to set the record straight, i am clearly easily lead astray and delusional.  Clearly in need of a reality check...oh but don't worry...the high five clearly did that for me.  Reality check, you're a loser, reality check, you are one of the guys, reality check, he doesn't see you in that way.

Just a little side note guys....i am pmsing hard core right now....i know complete over share, i am sorry.  But dude, i cannot control my emotions today, so if seem a little harsh on myself, i am just over tired, and over emotional....and i need chocolate.  I was going to make this post a whole joke about high fives and how they often used to celebrate big moments in your like...i mean the wedding high five...the engagement high five....etc....but.....i just couldn't get my brain to make the jokes today.  Sorry.

Anyways...besides the soul crushing high five...i also went and painted houses for Habitat for Humanity.  As well as played princess for Ally's birthday. 

That was fun...i got to crimp hair...i never get to crimp hair any more....i think i am going to crimp my entire head to see how poofy my hair can get.  That seems like a good use of my time.

The Stephanie Virus

I think i caught some sort of Stephanie virus because she sent that email around asking people if they wanted to train and run for a marathon together and my first thought was 'maybe'....WHAT?!  Really that seems kind of crazy.  I swore i would never run a big race like that....plus still working on some sort of right foot injury.  Then a co-worker was talking about a big tax return her daughter was getting and my first though was she should pay down her osap, because it is the best use of that money.  Not even a though about splurging on some frivolous thing. 
Yup...it is defiantly a steph virus.  Then i told her about those two incidents and she told me she was proud of me. 
With these incidents plus the wedding thoughts...also the dream i had last night about having a baby...i really think i there is something wrong with me.  Did i grow up without my approval? did i some how become a responsible adult because i can tell you right now...if i start a regular schedule for my laundry or keep my apartment clean, or stop enjoying slushies....then NO DEAL!!!!

Today is going to be a great day!

That is my mantra for today.  So far, this week has not gone smoothly.  There have been some great ups and some annoying unexpected things, coming completely from left field.  But i powered through and kept going....now we are on Wednesday.  I have so much i still need to do, i have to find a costume to wear to Ally's birthday, i have to fix up my resume and cover letter and apply to this job by Friday, i really should make a doctor's appointment about my right foot....it is sort of hurting more each day.  Those are the things i can think of right now.  It is very early and i am at work like an hour before normal time because....a deadline got moved up, a co-worker was sick, and other general stuff that has to get done today but may not because we have like an hour and a half long meeting.
If you can't tell yet....i am slightly grumpy.  I am sorry for the grump levels, it has been a week that has not gone as planned.

GROSS

Okay.....seriously...i have a story for you.....and it is one of my biggest pet peeves.  I went to get my hair cut on Saturday...my hair dresser is in Pickering, so i take the go bus from yorkdale.  While waiting for the bus there was a woman sitting there waiting too cutting her nails just in the station.  It is one of my biggest gross-outs.  I mean i love nails, i love painting them and keeping them pretty but cutting them in public without taking care to clean up the clippings just gives me the creeps.  I was so skeeved out!
Then when i finally get away from her, i am sitting on the bus relaxing...and dude i hear the nail clipper sound again and again......gross.  She cut her nails for like half an hour.  And....i couldn't find her on the bus....then i realized she was sitting directly behind me.  EWWWWWW! As soon as i got off the bus, i had to like check for random nail clippings.  And then i got my hair done.  I always want to go for something bold but my hair dresser loves the length on me and thinks my hair is super pretty....so then she decided that i should have super pretty girl hair instead of dramatic erin hair.  So......now....i have girl hair to go with my new girlie girl persona.

It was the nicest day yesterday, it was absolutely beautiful and i got to enjoy the sun in a park in kensington.  It was a very weird mix of people, families, hipsters, drum circle people, homeless....it was like a weird cross section of the entire city in one small park.  But it was a great time.  Relaxing and fun and beautiful out.  But the sunshine distracted me from my true goal of finding a princess costume for Ally's birthday party.  I am going to have to get on that now.  Because i need it before next Sunday.

I will try to post some new pictures of my hair cut and other interesting pictures i have.  But for now...you are stuck with just my words!

Perfect Vision

I have been cleared.  My laser eyes are healthy and it has almost been a year....it was done last April....and they have remained consistently 20/20.  So i have been given an official eye diagnosis of perfect vision.  Secretly i believe i got the diagnosis of having the awesomest laser eyes ever!!!  I kind of want to make myself a t-shirt that says 'my laser eyes are perfect' or some other catchier phrase.  Unfortunately I am pretty tired today...and feeling a little bitchy.  Which is weird because i am never bitchy at work...i am usually the cheery happy one at work.  That is why i am so grumpy outside of work...because i use up all my happy energy at work.

I am getting my hair cut tomorrow...i am pretty excited...i am thinking of going a really dark brown and having some fun bright red highlights...or maybe going a lighter colour and having dark brown low lights.  Who knows what will happen.  I usually allow my hair dresser to make all my hair decisions.  She does know best! 

Laser Eyes

Today is a check up for my laser eyes.  It has been 6 months since the last appointment and i think i am doing great.  I think i will get gold stars for being awesome. 

So i banged into a doorknob the other day and it hurt like a son of a bitch for a few minutes...and today i noticed i got a bruise from it.  I fell down on a metal escalator almost cracking my tail bone and had zero bruising to show for it.  But a quick bump of a doorknob and bam! huge bruise.  What's with that? 

Did i mention that i painted my nails beige?  i didn't mind it at first and now i think it looks so blah...it is very current with the latest nail trends....neutral nails are all the rage but it just looks so close to my regular skin tone that they nails blend into my hands and you know me...i like to pop, not to blend.

Nail Excitment

So i have found this new you tube channel that shows you how to do fancy nails.  It is amazing.  All i need is some new tools and watch out world my nails are going to get even fancier than they are normally.  So the main tool i need is the dotter tool, it is this metal tool that lets you place dots on your nails.  I need this tool...but don't worry my friend, the one that gets discount nail stuff is going to get me the tools.  Then fancy nails here i come.

Do-over Days

Do you ever wish that you could sort of do-over your day?  Well not exactly do over but go back a few hours and make a different decision.  Some mornings I wake up and all i can think is...I do not want to go to work today....it would be awesome to stay in bed all day and just relax.  Unfortunately, i never allow myself to stay in bed...i always get up and head to work.  But then if the subway is packed or super delayed...or i fall..or the first hour of my day is bad....it just convinces me that i should have just stayed in bed.  That way, i avoid all the negative and crappy aspect of my day.  But again...i just suffer through it. or try to find the positive aspect of the day.
I would really love a vacation.  I think i am going to start saving up for an actual vacation, where i spend all my time on a beach, reading books and relaxing.  I haven't had a real vacation in a long long time.  Like 3 years...sure i have had a week off here and there to stay at home.  But i want to go somewhere!  There is this boat trip in Croatia i would love to do but i don't think it will be too relaxing.  Although i should do it soon, i may be getting too old for backpacking.  Anyone want to vacation to a warm location with me?

I'm Naked

This weekend was hectic.  We had a girlie sister/family day, starting with the SPA and then shopping. 

The spa was quite interesting.....i am such a spa newbie because i brought a one piece swim suit, everyone else had two pieces because when doing treatments, it is normal to remove your top but keep your bottoms.  It is kind of hard to remove the top of a one piece.  So i did all my treatments NAKED...which was weird.  The massage focused on my back because of my fall.  But i kept thinking "I'm naked" so it was a very surreal experience.  This guy (yup guy masseuse) had lovely and warm hands....but I'm naked.  Then the facial....same thing, because i was wearing a wet swimsuit they asked me to remove it...so i did my facial naked too!!  It was a very naked day for me.

Other note worthy mentions of the day: Flooding shut down the subway from bloor to osgoode which made me have to change my transit plans and it took me a good long time to get home!
Jump up for Jesus was at the MTCC (metro Toronto convention centre) and i mentioned it today saying that it was a spiritual physical activity thing and apparently it is not physical activity at all it is all spiritual and praying and stuff.....no running or jumping at all.  Personally i believe the title to be mis-leading.

Sunday i baked cookies and played with the kids....i really love those monkeys!  Allyson calls her tights 'long socks'....LOVE IT!

OMG....my friend just emailed me a link to Smokes Poutinere and i want to go there now...right now!!!

Also i had a zombie dream last night....and we were running from zombies and guess who had this huge building very techy, that was a great fort to protect us from the zombies.....Ryan.  So now, Ryan, i know you are in Germany but i expect you to get on this....turn some building into a safe house in case of zombie attack.

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Alright people, it's friday, and i have never been looking forward to a weekend more!  Also is it weird that after my major fall yesterday, i was kind of looking foward to having some major war wounds to show off but i have no crazy coloured bruises.  Not that i was like yes new bruises to show off....but i kind of feel jipped because it was a major fall, and i should at least have something to show for it.  But instead i have a low throbbing in my lower back which no one can see or really understand.

Something else happened to me this week but i wasn't going to say anything because it was too weird and strange and embarrassing for me to admit to.  But because i have an agreement to be 100% honest with myself and all of you....here goes:  I was watching tv on monday and it was a fashion show and Vera Wang was showing off her new affordable wedding dresses and this thought popped into my head "i would like to get married" WHAT?????? really isn't that crazy...i have always had a strict no wedding policy and now all of a sudden i seem okay with it.  I want to believe that it is because i was watching a show about dresses and it is a new clothing area untapped by me.  I hope this is not a sign of me maturing and growing up...i hope this is not a sign of me desperately trolling for a man to marry me.  I won't let it be.  Sorry if i am offending anyone with my marriage rant.....it has really never been something i considered because i have crazy trust issues and have never really met any person that makes me want to try it.  Isn't it funny that one light pink with flowers poofy wedding dress makes me reconsider my entire view point.  Well we all knew i was crazy for fashion!

I am in PAIN

I fell down the escalator on my way to work today.  I slipped and slammed down a bunch of steps and the only way to stop myself was grab the rails and hold on...it stopped the falling momentum but i banged my arms in the stopping process.  My butt hurt so much and now sitting at my desk...the pain has started to move up into my lower back.  You know how easy it is to hurt my lower back.....so now i am in pain and it is uncomfortable to sit. 

No one checked on me and no one came to my aid.  The goodness of people astounds me!  Although to be fair...i stood up immediately after i stopped falling and acted like i wasn't hurt at all....i didn't want any attention about it....but to have not one single person check on me....wow!