Not A friday for Flashbacks

So today...it was my last summer Friday. It was a big day....that is why i am not doing a flashback, too much to tell.

I went to the physio for the first time today....i have Achilles tendentious....not too surprising but i am happy to say, i really enjoyed the appointment.  I got new stretches to do and new exercises to help activate more muscles and loosen up.  He says next week i will be getting acupuncture...i am not too cool with that but he says it will help.

So after my successful physio appointment, i went to the walk in.  Mom basically told me, if i don't go to the walk in on my own today, she will drag me there tomorrow....well she didn't say that in so many words...it was more the number of !!!! in her bbm message to me.  I believe that they number she used was directly proportional to how serious she was.  So off i went thinking i would get some drops and my swimmers ear ear infection would be cured.  Well guess nothing can be that simple in my life.  I have a hole in my ear drum.  Normally this would be proceeded by an ear infection and lots of pain...lots of pressure in my ear then POP pain goes away and voila burst ear drum.  But here is the puzzling part....i haven't really had any pain, i haven't been diving lately...i haven't been on a plane.  The hole is currently unexplained...so now i have to go to as Kelly calls them an 'ent' an ears nose and throat specialist.  A hole normally heals on it's own...but if it doesn't heal....i will need surgery.  Okay...i am going to be completely honest...even the idea of surgery freaks me out...the idea that i will need surgery to restore my full hearing...freaks me out.  But who knows...that is worst case scenario.

So after that 'wonderful' trip to the walk in....i needed a Slurpee.  A Slurpee always calms me down and makes everything right....it is probably all that sugar but...it really helped.  Then i went to shoppers and checked my blood pressure for fun...did you know...even with an extra hole in my ear as well as Achilles tendentious i still have optimal blood pressure.  I bet it was all that sugar...calmed me right down.

My friend Kelly and I had lunch and off to the mall we went....i finished my day with some consumerism to perk me up.  I bought some new earrings, pictures will be provided below....i also saw the sweater i must own but it is in a store that caters mainly to teens...so they didn't have my size.....sad face!  I am going to find that sweater online....in fact i will search for it right now and provide a picture of it for you.

Oscar the Grouch

So i was given a plant when i started my new job in May....and i told everyone, i am not a great plant parent.  I have a black thumb, things die without explanation.  But they got me one anyways....and it was actually doing really well.  I think it liked a very dry environment.  And while i was on vacation....people were taking care of it...and it got over watered.  So it died. 


I have terrible news....i think i may be getting sick.  I am tired...exhausted really...i can't stop sneezing...and my ear is really starting to bother me.  I really don't want to go into a walk in but i may not be able to.  I think i am going to need my ear checked out by a professional.  My friend Kelly goes to walk ins and she says she will come with me...but that makes me feel like a baby.  But at the same time oddly comforted.  Damn doctors being so scary.



This is what i feel like today.  Sad Puppy!!!

I think i need a hug and a cup of tea!

I can't hear you....

From my right ear.  It is all clogged up.  Seriously, it is like my body knows that i have benefits again because, i am falling apart. 

I am going to try a make your own ear cleaning system.  I wikihow'ed it.  I know a great many stories about how things went so wrong start with 'i wikihow'ed it'.
But there were pictures, and it didn't look scary or hard...i only need some peroxide and water and an eye dropper.  Those are all common, non-scary items.  And i don't want to go to a stupid walk in if i don't have to.  I am sure you may have noticed this by now....but i really don't like going to the doctor.  I don't want to sit in a waiting room filled with sick people....i don't want to wait around to find out that it is nothing and i spent all that time waiting for zero reasons.  The last time i went to the doctor, i was told i had a viral throat infection and there was nothing he could do.  And the only reason i went was because the time before that when i was positive that i just had a viral throat infection....it was in fact mono.  Yes that is right while in university i had mono like all the other kids in university.  I mean it isn't university until you have a case of mono.  Anyways....i don't like doctors.  They always want to take my blood. 
When steph had me convinced i was low thyroid like dad and Alex....i was all excited to join the team...and i got my blood tested and was ready to learn all about my new thyroid problems...the tests came back with low vitamin b12.  It was very disappointing.  The thyroid problem would have explained all these issues, my constant tiredness, my weight plateau (regardless of strict diet and exercise vs not), and all these other things that steph identified.  So now i take B12 every day...and i am still exhausted.

Anyways....doctor rant over.  I will let you know how my ear cleaning goes tonight. 

I finished The Night Circus last night.....i loved it, it was full of magic and tragedy and love.  It was wonderful.  Not a perfect ending but an ending with hope...if that makes sense?  I have it and if anyone wants to borrow it, let me know.  But it is not the electronic version...it is a good old fashioned book. 

This week back has been hard on me because i can't just read all day like i normally enjoy.  Seriously, i miss the reading.  I love the reading.  It doesn't need to be a great work of fiction...it can just as easily be a cheesey romance...but any book has the ability to just take me away.  That is what i love best about vacation...sun, books, and quiet.  Sure it is great to go on a huge adventure and travel and see the world but most of the time, i am just as happy to sit and read my book. 

Rainbow Bright and the Colour Kids

It is that time again people.  It is time Halloween costume decision making time.  You have to start early people or you will be scrambling at the end of October with no costume at all.

My friend Kelly is sponsoring me for my race, if i make her Halloween costume, so we sat down last night to brain storm ideas...with the main idea of 80's cartoon, we started talking...i was pushing for Jem and the Holograms but she has already been jem.  The final decision was Rainbow Bright and the Colour Kids.

So now, we are working towards turning our office into rainbow land.  We have almost all the characters in place and now we are working on the sprites and other people involved. 

But i had to take a break from asking people because a lot of people said no...which made me sad.  I know...i know, not everyone enjoys dressing up and especially at work.  But after what i saw at internal campaign....Rainbow bright and the colour kids is nothing.  It is just suppose to be a fun day to break the stress and tension of campaign. 

Oh well, we will have fun regardless.

I don't always understand why others don't enjoy just laughing at themselves.  Sometimes you have to loosen up and not be so serious.....wow joker flash.  Okay let me rephrase....so you don't think i am so crazy super villian who will cut your face to make you smile.  
Sometimes, laughing at yourself and having childish fun is the best way to de-stress and lighten up.  They also provide opportunities for the best memories.

I mean...a lot of my personal favourite memories are of me making a fool of myself and then laughing about it.  It isn't funny until i embarrass myself horribly.

So that is my lesson of the day people....relax, and have fun...and start planning your Halloween costume now.   

Back to work I go

After an awesomely lazy week off.....i am back to work, 77 emails, 20 outstanding tasks, and amazingly no voice mails. 

It is going to be a crazy day....scratch that...crazy week.  I have so much stuff that needs to be done. 



So it is like 3 hours later...just in case you were wondering.  I started typing this earlier then got two sentences done and got distracted.  So what have i done so far today...lots...i finished responding to half of my emails, i did a bunch of photocopying, oh...and i lost my work pass at metro when i went there to get lunch.  So now i have to pay $7 for a new card.  Great day so far.

Oh and i had to move my phyiso therapy appointment from tomorrow night to Friday morning.  Why...because i have to work late tomorrow.  I am sure they would have been understanding about the appointment but we have this huge presentation on Wednesday and i need to do a bunch of stuff for it.  But the physio place was very nice about it.  and i think this will be better because Friday i am off...so i can take it easy and i don't have to rush there.

So...it is now 2 hours later....and guess what....my pass was found, under the self check out station at metro.  Woot.


Okay...seriously....it is now the next day.  Man this blog post was just not meant to be.  I am going to post as is so you can read my clearly fractured thought process on this blog. 

Flash Back Friday - Thursday April 17th, 2008

What is your ideal super power? 

All my new comments are in red!  Enjoy the flash back to a time when i was younger and weirder.  

Okay....i love this post because i am obsessed with super powers.  I seriously do use the superpower question as a friendship test.

This is always the question i ask when trying to get to know someone. Because if they have a well thought out superpower and reason of why it is the best superpower, then i know that we will get along well.
I must say, some of the best answers to this question i have EVER received i have got in the last few days. Lindsay and Ryan. They both have well thought out reasons about why they would choose their power. I am very impressed with both of them and can tell we are kindred spirits.  Lindsay moved to Australia and i must say....i miss her...we would always have the craziest conversations...like the time we were convinced the cafeteria ladies hated us because they always skimped on the bacon.  Bacon skimping should be a crime....seriously, everything is better with bacon.
Plus we would make one kick butt superhero team!
Although me and Lindsay were talking today and decided we were evil, so i guess we would have to be super villains. But that would be fun too.  Okay...this makes me laugh hilarious...because i don't even remember why we decided we were evil.  Seriously...does that sound like me...i am always on the good guy side. 
So Ryan, would you like to join our super villains team?  Ryan...you never answered the question...so you missed your opportunity to be on the most ineffective super villain team.
Although i must warn you that me and Lindsay can be quite lazy and disorganized (we were also very easily distracted...and accomplished very little we said we would)...so i don't know how much evil we would achieve on a grand scale..but we do make time every day to cause a little bit of evil. Every little bit helps. ha ha ha ha....you know we say that at work a lot...there are no small donations, every little bit helps.  4 years later and i am saying the same thing for vastly different reasons.

Vacation Update

So...what have i been up to? Well....Saturday i ran the Midsummer night 15km....i ran it in 1:48.  I am happy with the time because my goal was to keep it under 2 hours. 
I spend Sunday relaxing and recovering.  I must say....side note...my suntan is coming along nicely.  I normally burn but i have been working on being outside as much as possible this summer...so i have some colour finally...the last week before summer and i am finally tanned. 
Anyways....Monday i went out to Ajax and me, Andrea and the kids went to this beach park in Pickering.  it was nice and fun....we played in the sand and wadded in the water.  Then off to Michael's for craft supplies.  Tuesday was my just for me day....i relaxed, and crafted and enjoyed some me time.
Wednesday....was pool day at mom and dad's.  Andrea and Wylie and the kids were there. 
Today, me and Amy hung out...another relaxing day...we made home made lemonade....and read books in her back yard. 

So....no checks on my bucket list...but i remain hopeful.  I guess i can sort of check off the beach day because i did hang out on beach park on Monday...but it was not what i pictured for a beach day...a beach day for me is lying on a beach towel, sunning myself and reading and napping and occasionally cooling off in the water.  I have faith that one day i will get my beach day....and one day i will go to the drive in.

Favourite things i have done so far?  Well i wore my now signature sock bun on Monday...and ally really loved my bun.  So when Andrea took her for her back to school hair cut on Tuesday she asked for a bun.  She is now also in love with buns.

And today...while hanging with Amy, we went for a walk...and i was going to buy a pair of aviator sunglasses.  The one thing missing from my sunglass collection.  The allusive pair.  I just can't find one that suits my face.  But as i was making my final decision....i see this yellow sweater.....yellow seems to be my colour choice of the season.  On further inspection....i notice grey elbow patches....and finally...the front...a huge owl.  I have no choice...it hits the trifecta of awesomeness!  I need this sweater...i must own this sweater.....so of course i bought it.

Flash back Friday

Hey,  So steph came up with this idea for my friday posts, Flashback Friday....since i have been blogging for 4 years she thinks i should post an older post again to refresh the funny.  I meant to post it on friday but then got crazy busy because it was my last day before vacation and i had a huge To Do Today list.  So then i fixed it up on the weekend to pre post later....and i just checked and i set the date wrong....oh technology, why aren't you my friend.
So....below is one of my favourite posts ever!  It was written June 3rd, 2010.  It still makes me laugh so hard.

 Most awkward elevator ride!!

This morning.....I got to witness a guy's most embarrassing moment of probably his day.  It was horribly awkward and I enjoyed every minute of it.
Location: My apartment building elevator
Time: 8:05am
Details: I enter the empty elevator and head down, it opens on the 8th floor and this girl gets on, 7th floor a guy gets on.  He turns to the girl
guy: 'We are two incredibly attractive people'
girl: 'What?'
guy: 'We are to incredibly attractive people and i bet we have a lot of other things in common too'
girl (ice cold tone): 'I don't think so'
guy (awkwardly trying to recover): 'No sense of humour this early in the morning, maybe next time.'
Elevator opens on the first floor and the girl practically runs out of the elevator straight into her waiting cab.
Me during this whole time, in my head thinking....don't laugh, don't draw attention to yourself...just enjoy the moment.
But you got to give the guy props for his confidence.  although he got shut down completely....it was a bold move to go with the attractive line.  I didn't see his face so i can't judge his attractiveness...his clothes weren't great...they were very baggy.

Anyways...it was a great way to start my day.

Count down is on!

two days....just two little days before a week off.  And i cannot wait.  I am getting slightly stressed out about everything.  I guess because everything is new i tend to freak a bit about not knowing things.  I am so hard on myself compared to what other people think.  So if i had a project due at work and i did 99% correct and missed one thing.  Everyone would be very happy with the finished project, and all i would see is the 1%.  Anyways....you know when you get to a point at work, even if you love your job, where you are ready to pull your hair out if one more thing gets added to your plate.  I may have reached that level.  I need a quiet place to hid and finish all my work before my vacation.  That is not going to happen, so i am going to put my ipod on, keep my head down and hope no one notices me.

In other news about me.....i have been doing the sock bun a lot lately, because i have mastered it.  People are starting to take notice and give me great compliments.  It also helps that my hair is getting so long now...it is down past my shoulders...i think it has reached the mid-boob point.  Everyone at work keeps coming by and asking me about my hair...so i am going to start sending links out.  (at this point of the story, if i was telling steph, she would tell me to do a sock bun tutorial)....So steph...this is for you...SOCK BUN TUTORIAL......Coming soon.  I don't have a camera and i will need someone to help me take pictures of the steps.  Guess what we are doing next week Amy???? Sock bun pictures.

I went out with drinks one night this week with two of my co-workers and i was telling them about my horrible love life experience...and they told me i need to just be very open and honest about my feeling and i have to stop being so afraid of getting hurt.  I am not afraid per say....it is just that when i do "risk it for the biscuit" (fired up quote)....i fail...and make horrible choices.  Who would have ever thought i would have re-repeated with stupid boy.  Omg...i saw him the other day...and i always said that if i did ever see him again...i would punch him in the nuts because one good turn deserves another.  But i didn't...i just let him walk by...i think he tried to get my attention but i just kept walking.  I am mature enough to not punch him...but i ain't mature enough to talk to him.  But that's a good sign....i am over him and over that 'relationship' or whatever it was.

So...what's in my future...a lot of work stress for the next say 4 months...plus a half marathon....a guy??? No one has risen to the occasion but maybe someone will surprise me.  It is the first time i am open to the idea without any baggage hanging around.  Maybe someone will surprise me.  Maybe i should add find a guy to my summer bucket list.  Although the bucket list isn't going well, summer is almost over and still no drive in or beach day.  Next week may be a big week for me.

My Grandma, the Hip Hop Expert

So, Grandma is in town visiting and me and steph went to visit with her on Sunday.  We watched the closing ceremonies with her.  She was very impressed with all my celebrity knowledge.  I was too....it is like realizing all your hard work of learning useless facts are finally working out.

But....my favourite part of my grandma visit is her telling me that she went to see Step Up 4 with her friend Shelley.  I was quite shocked because grandma isn't one of those cool grandma's that likes all that new music and likes to be hip...in fact during the Olympics when Tao Cruz and Jesse j were on she was like 'get off the stage, why is this going so long, they need to stop singing'.
But she told me....that they went because they enjoy dancing and thought it was just like that Antonio Banderos movie....you know the one where he takes underprivileged kids and turns them into ball room dancers, she really enjoys all those ballroom dancing movies.  My favourite comment was that when the first dance scene started, she was convinced they were in the wrong movie. 
But don't worry, Step Up danced it's little heart out and Grandma actually enjoyed herself, specially the art gallery dance scene....she said it was 'worth the price of admition'. 
The other funny thing is that for the rest of the day any time she saw dancing at the closing ceremonies...she asked if it was hip hop dancing.  I was like, i don't know....i never categorize my dancing unless it is obviously ballroom.  But she argued with me when they were doing the disco number and i said they were dancing disco and she was like i don't know...that looks like hip hop.  So now that my grandma has seen one hip hop dance movie, she is an expert. 

Yonge and Eligable

Sorry i didn't write much last week, it was sort of a crazy week where i didn't have a moment to myself......well i did but i went to see Step Up Revolution instead of blogging......don't hate, you would have made the same choice.  If not, then i don't know if we can be friends anymore.

Steph thinks we can really make something of my blog and wants to buy me the this is tin domain.  I am not sure if i am ready for that kind of commitment.  She pointed out that i have been blogging for 4 years and it seems to be sticking.  But once you buy a domain...it becomes all kinds of serious...it is like moving in with a guy.  I am still currently dating my blog, i don't think we are ready for co-habitation.

This weekend, i did all sorts of fun things, i learned that Yonge and Eglinton is where all the single attractive men hang out (apparently everyone knew this already.....hello, only single girl of my friends....don't you think this is information i should know people!!!).  They call it yonge and eligable.  I went out dancing in place so crowded that there wasn't much opportunity to dance...but the music was awesome!  I got a free drink from this jersey shore reject...i would normally be flattered but he was hitting on female...so i don't know if i really believe all those beautifuls he was throwing around.  But it is always flattering to here a strange call you beautiful...even if he is on the prowl. Anyways, let's talk about this thing called 'Saturday nightlife'.....I love to dance, i am sure you all know that by now, one of my favourite things is to just listen to fun music and dance around my apartment.  Now going out dancing can be something completely different.....lots of people go to hook up or pick up...but a very few people just go to dance the night away.  and then the places that play the best music usually have like a packed dance floor and how can i break out my AWESOME dance moves if i can't even move on the dance floor? 
There were these two couples Saturday night that were going at it like crazy....taking up major space on the dance floor, knocking into people without caring or noticing and generally being self involved.  Okay, here is my grumpy old lady opinion about that. 
1.  why even go out if all you are going to do is dry hump each other while swallowing each other's faces?  is it the music because they make these things called ipods now, you can put any music you want on it and play it back for your own entertainment.  It can't be the location or the people because you didn't interact with anyone but the face you were attached to. 
2.  if you are going out because you enjoy making others watch your face sucking session....stick to the side or go sit on some park bench....but dude, the middle of the dance floor isn't making anyone happy.

Anyways....that was my weekend.  Oh wait...i spend Sunday with grandma and i got super lost going to a goodlife class.  I will tell you all about those two adventures tomorrow. 

Life is Short

So,  a co-worker died last week, she was in her 40's and she was an amazing person, full of life and laughter. 
It has left me in a little bit of a depressed state.  I knew she wasn't feeling well but not that she was that sick.  it was 3 weeks between when she went off on short term sick leave to the announcement of her passing.

Cancer.

It takes people quickly and it takes them slowly.  Sometimes you can fight it back and sometimes it overwhelms you.  It does not discriminate and it is never fair. 

Cancer has always seemed like a far off topic to me.  My papa died of cancer but i was young when it happened and it is surrounded by hazy memories.  He was sick and we lost him. Sometimes i think i subconsciously choose to not remember.  But there is one thing that makes me feel better, before he died he got a chance to live a life, an amazing life.  Some people don't have that chance. 

It seems so self involved to say this but losing my co-worker and friend made me of course consider how it affected me.  Life is short and it is time to live it.  I am lazy and i am complacent....i let life pass me by, i get involved when it suits me but more often then not, i don't get involved.
I am passive in my own life.  I talk a great game but don't follow through.  I am running a half marathon in October and half assing the training.  I have always wanted to sell my own crafts but i stopped making them because i am lazy and i am afraid to fail.  I could probably even make this blog more profitable but i am content with my like 30 faithful readers.  I never strive because i don't want to fail.  And now all i can think about is how some people don't even get the chance to try to fail....and how some people fight to the very end just for a few more months.  How the Olympians move with purpose and determination. 

Why don't i have that purpose or determination?  why am i content to write about all my grand plans but am fine when i don't follow through. 

It is time to move forward with purpose. 

Purpose....i am going to run that half marathon...i mean, i was always going to finish it..that wasn't an issue but now...i am going to create a time goal and i am going to start running with purpose.  I am going to control my diet...i am going to manage every physical aspect of my life with the focus of killing this marathon.  I am going to blow past my fundraising goal because it is time i make a difference. 

When it is my time to leave this world...i will not leave things undone.

August Already

This weekend will be the family BBQ party which should be lots of fun but i can't believe how fast everything is rushing by.  Soon it will be September...then Christmas.  Crazy.

It is going to be a weird fall for me, my second fundraising campaign, my first half marathon, and no TIFF.  I didn't buy tickets.  I am actually incredibly disappointed in TIFF as a festival.  I have been going since i was 18....so for like 14 years.  And this will be my first year not seeing any movies.  I think we just need a small break.

So now that i am a year older....i think it is time to be a grown up....haha haha, who am i kidding, i will always act my maturity level and not my actual age.  For example, this week, i couldn't wait to watch LOL with Mylie Cyrus.  It was horrible awesome.  Loved it. 

So....tonight me and Andrea are adventuring to celebrate her last work day downtown and my belated birthday.  It should be fun.  I am going to by some HBC gear and Andrea is going to buy some Olympic gear.

In fundraising news, our auction was an epic fail.  Alex....i am going to give you a nail tutorial when we finally have our visit...probably around Christmas.  So don't worry...you will still get the nail tutorial you just don't have to bid on it.  We are doing okay on fundraising but we could be doing better.  I am going to start selling my cookies to the people at work.  I got them addicted and now it is time to cash in, in the name of charity!  We will also be doing a loose change drive.  I have to re-commit to the race today.  Which basically means, that no matter what i am agreeing to raise the $1600 and i can't back out.  Big day.  Is it weird that i am more scared of the race than of the fundraising? 

Anyways.....big plans this weekend, well sort of....after the BBQ i plan to take it easy on sunday and monday.  Just relax and recharge.  I hope everyone else is going to have a super fun long weekend!