I am so close to vacation......i have to survive 10 days, including today! 10 days....but during those 10 days, i have to accomplish a lot at work, figure out a million christmas presents, and then make them. I really need to cut people from my giving list at work but i can't not give them presents, it is the nice thing to do and i always do the nice thing.
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Monday, November 17, 2014
Christmas Kick Off
It was the Santa Claus parade this weekend....and that is the start of Christmas in our family. We are a HUGE Christmas family and i think Christmas will be even bigger this year because we have a lot to celebrate with Dad being cancer free now.
How do we kick off Christmas, well it all starts on Saturday with me and dad. We get bundled up and go up on the roof and put up the Christmas lights. With dad being retired this year, he put some of them up on Friday because he was trying a new method of hanging them. So Saturday, Dad didn't want too many people on the roof since we just got it fixed so i stood on the lawn and watched him put them up on the roof, then i got bored so i raked the leaves. It was a good afternoon. Then we went to bulk barn for our first of many Christmas baking trips to bulk barn. (We spend a lot of time planning our Christmas baking) and then dad baked his Christmas cake.
Finally we ended the evening by ordering in Swiss Chalet, and sitting in front of the fire, eating dinner while watching Hunger Games. It was a great day.
Then Sunday was "the Show". We all headed to mom and dad's for the Santa parade and we were all required to wear our Christmas sweaters. It is loud and chaotic and overwhelming. But i love the chaos sometimes. Sophie, my youngest niece, ran around demanding everyone chase her. Braydon and me talked Doctor Who, and Ally was of course in one of her beautiful party dresses. She only wears party dresses.
So....Christmas is coming up fast....so many things i need to do, figure out who is getting presents, and if i have time to make things for everyone. I love making my gifts but i don't always have the time to get everyone something homemade. Hopefully this year i will.
How do we kick off Christmas, well it all starts on Saturday with me and dad. We get bundled up and go up on the roof and put up the Christmas lights. With dad being retired this year, he put some of them up on Friday because he was trying a new method of hanging them. So Saturday, Dad didn't want too many people on the roof since we just got it fixed so i stood on the lawn and watched him put them up on the roof, then i got bored so i raked the leaves. It was a good afternoon. Then we went to bulk barn for our first of many Christmas baking trips to bulk barn. (We spend a lot of time planning our Christmas baking) and then dad baked his Christmas cake.
Finally we ended the evening by ordering in Swiss Chalet, and sitting in front of the fire, eating dinner while watching Hunger Games. It was a great day.
Then Sunday was "the Show". We all headed to mom and dad's for the Santa parade and we were all required to wear our Christmas sweaters. It is loud and chaotic and overwhelming. But i love the chaos sometimes. Sophie, my youngest niece, ran around demanding everyone chase her. Braydon and me talked Doctor Who, and Ally was of course in one of her beautiful party dresses. She only wears party dresses.
So....Christmas is coming up fast....so many things i need to do, figure out who is getting presents, and if i have time to make things for everyone. I love making my gifts but i don't always have the time to get everyone something homemade. Hopefully this year i will.
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Shopping and Fashion
Mom and I went to Buffalo this weekend to have a fun mother/daughter shopping weekend. Now i am a great shopper but i haven't done a shopping weekend with mom in a long time. So i was kind of excited. I also realized that mom and dad didn't get me a birthday present for the last two years. But that is okay....this trip was the present.
Although we are really out of practice. We hit up JC Penny on friday night as soon as we arrived (they are open until 10pm). Then the next morning we got up and worked our way through the mall. A lot of the stores we have in Canada as well so i wasn't so excited but then i realized that the deals we get in the states are great when you can find them but the real reason i love shopping in the states is the selection. They have so much more selection than they have in Canada.
So....today i am wearing a whole new outfit and i must say...i feel very fashion forward today. Low heeled ankle boots, leather pants, plaid blouse, and sleeveless sweater. I must say my favourite purchase from the weekend are my low heeled boots. and my saddest moment of the weekend was finding new riding boots to replace the pair i bought like 3 years ago and have worn to death. They are completely falling apart. So i found a pair and they are beautiful. but they don't have my size so now i have to decide if i want to order them online. How important are they to me? Do they complete me?
Here is a pic of my best purchase:
Here is a pic of the boots i am debating buying:
Although we are really out of practice. We hit up JC Penny on friday night as soon as we arrived (they are open until 10pm). Then the next morning we got up and worked our way through the mall. A lot of the stores we have in Canada as well so i wasn't so excited but then i realized that the deals we get in the states are great when you can find them but the real reason i love shopping in the states is the selection. They have so much more selection than they have in Canada.
So....today i am wearing a whole new outfit and i must say...i feel very fashion forward today. Low heeled ankle boots, leather pants, plaid blouse, and sleeveless sweater. I must say my favourite purchase from the weekend are my low heeled boots. and my saddest moment of the weekend was finding new riding boots to replace the pair i bought like 3 years ago and have worn to death. They are completely falling apart. So i found a pair and they are beautiful. but they don't have my size so now i have to decide if i want to order them online. How important are they to me? Do they complete me?
Here is a pic of my best purchase:
Here is a pic of the boots i am debating buying:
Monday, November 10, 2014
The Battle Royal
I have spent the last few months in crazytown. I always forget how busy this time of the year is until it is actually happening. There are late nights and early mornings and a lot of balls in the air.
So...what's been happening with me since i last told you of my mental crazy? Well, i have seemed to find a good balance between my fears, anger, and 'don't careness'. I have been overwhelmed with negative emotions because that is how i process big life changes.
So...the battle royal happened internally and i think for once, the optimistic positive person may came out on top? Do you know what i miss, worrying about tv shows and obsessing over new movies. I am tired of worrying about heavy things like life and death. Seriously....i have had to face some issues that i have happily ignored my entire life. Like mortality. Personally i had chosen to believe that everyone lives forever in a happy safe bubble. Apparently that is not true, there is illness and sickness out there, there is darkness and evil out there. And things happen that we cannot control.
So....when is it time to get back to the happy go lucky me? Hopefully soon. According to my counselor, i am experiencing a lot of swinging emotions right now because when things were bad....i didn't let myself feel anything. During the months i should have worried, i pushed all the feelings away and now that everything is okay...i have allowed myself to feel.
Hopefully there will be more blog posts in the future...hopefully they will be happier....and hopefully i will stop being so hard on myself.
So...what's been happening with me since i last told you of my mental crazy? Well, i have seemed to find a good balance between my fears, anger, and 'don't careness'. I have been overwhelmed with negative emotions because that is how i process big life changes.
So...the battle royal happened internally and i think for once, the optimistic positive person may came out on top? Do you know what i miss, worrying about tv shows and obsessing over new movies. I am tired of worrying about heavy things like life and death. Seriously....i have had to face some issues that i have happily ignored my entire life. Like mortality. Personally i had chosen to believe that everyone lives forever in a happy safe bubble. Apparently that is not true, there is illness and sickness out there, there is darkness and evil out there. And things happen that we cannot control.
So....when is it time to get back to the happy go lucky me? Hopefully soon. According to my counselor, i am experiencing a lot of swinging emotions right now because when things were bad....i didn't let myself feel anything. During the months i should have worried, i pushed all the feelings away and now that everything is okay...i have allowed myself to feel.
Hopefully there will be more blog posts in the future...hopefully they will be happier....and hopefully i will stop being so hard on myself.
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
Fear or Crazy
I have like a million drafts of a post i am writing but apparently....i can't write it.
I am in a super weird place right now. I have everything i should want, the job i have been working towards forever, my family is healthy, it is almost christmas.....things should be looking up.
But have you heard that saying be careful what you wish for? Nothing is turning out the way i expected. Work is stressful and crazy. I am constantly stressed out, like every day. Worrying about everything, Seriously, i feel like a crazy person.
Good thing i am seeing a counselor.
This may sound weird but I was reminded this summer that we have this life for a finite amount of time. So use it wisely. Then I start asking myself, am i using my time wisely? am i doing what i want to and should? Is this all just a reaction to my feelings that i have long ignored and often just pushed down as a "it's no be deal" response?
Simple answer.....i don't know? I guess that is a question to ask my counselor.
Because right now, all my worst traits are coming forward. I think i am doing a terrible job at my job (although there has been evidence to the contrary my brain refuses to believe that i am doing a good job). I am becoming overly melancholy about the things around me. And i really want to give into my hermit crab tendencies.
This is not what i should be doing....i try repeating a saying in my head to pep me up. "i am doing great, i am making a difference" But my brain starts racing and i start thinking about all the questions popping around my head. "did i choose this path because i am afraid to fail on the path i really want to take" "am i scared to fail at this job so i am setting myself up to have one foot out the door"
Basically after re-reading this....i am letting fear control me. I am afraid of disappointing myself, disappointing others, of getting hurt...there are a lot of fears banging around in my head. Maybe i should figure out how to be brave.
I am in a super weird place right now. I have everything i should want, the job i have been working towards forever, my family is healthy, it is almost christmas.....things should be looking up.
But have you heard that saying be careful what you wish for? Nothing is turning out the way i expected. Work is stressful and crazy. I am constantly stressed out, like every day. Worrying about everything, Seriously, i feel like a crazy person.
Good thing i am seeing a counselor.
This may sound weird but I was reminded this summer that we have this life for a finite amount of time. So use it wisely. Then I start asking myself, am i using my time wisely? am i doing what i want to and should? Is this all just a reaction to my feelings that i have long ignored and often just pushed down as a "it's no be deal" response?
Simple answer.....i don't know? I guess that is a question to ask my counselor.
Because right now, all my worst traits are coming forward. I think i am doing a terrible job at my job (although there has been evidence to the contrary my brain refuses to believe that i am doing a good job). I am becoming overly melancholy about the things around me. And i really want to give into my hermit crab tendencies.
This is not what i should be doing....i try repeating a saying in my head to pep me up. "i am doing great, i am making a difference" But my brain starts racing and i start thinking about all the questions popping around my head. "did i choose this path because i am afraid to fail on the path i really want to take" "am i scared to fail at this job so i am setting myself up to have one foot out the door"
Basically after re-reading this....i am letting fear control me. I am afraid of disappointing myself, disappointing others, of getting hurt...there are a lot of fears banging around in my head. Maybe i should figure out how to be brave.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
The Lipstick Adventure
Me and shoppers drug mart may be in a fight. Okay, i know it is weird to fight with a drug store, especially one i have been so faithfully loyal to.
I am so loyal they send me the shoppers drug mart magazine, in it they advertise and review products that they sell in their stores. I was doing my regular review of the new Glow magazine last week (yes i regularly read glow magazine) and saw an ad for the best looking lipstick ever. Now i don't normally freak out over lipstick because i am usually too lazy to wear it because it requires constant monitoring especially since i lick and touch my lips so much. Usually if i wear it, by the time i get to where i am headed, it will be all off. Or it will be such a bold colour that i will get outside my apartment door, do a lips check and panic....."too much too much" and wipe it off immediately.
I got into this huge lipstick kick a few years ago and couldn't stop buying super bright pink lipstick, i loved it, it was bold and fun. But i don't wear it much because it is too bright to wear to work and the people and places i socialize in don't require fancy make up. So i smartened up, bought a plainer lipstick that is more useful and versatile.
But while i am flipping through this month's Glow, i see an ad for the Boujois Pairs Velvet matte lipstick. It looks awesome:
I am so loyal they send me the shoppers drug mart magazine, in it they advertise and review products that they sell in their stores. I was doing my regular review of the new Glow magazine last week (yes i regularly read glow magazine) and saw an ad for the best looking lipstick ever. Now i don't normally freak out over lipstick because i am usually too lazy to wear it because it requires constant monitoring especially since i lick and touch my lips so much. Usually if i wear it, by the time i get to where i am headed, it will be all off. Or it will be such a bold colour that i will get outside my apartment door, do a lips check and panic....."too much too much" and wipe it off immediately.
I got into this huge lipstick kick a few years ago and couldn't stop buying super bright pink lipstick, i loved it, it was bold and fun. But i don't wear it much because it is too bright to wear to work and the people and places i socialize in don't require fancy make up. So i smartened up, bought a plainer lipstick that is more useful and versatile.
But while i am flipping through this month's Glow, i see an ad for the Boujois Pairs Velvet matte lipstick. It looks awesome:
See....doesn't it look amazing.
I immediately start researching because i want to know more. Reviews are great but it is only available at shoppers in canada. So no problem, shoppers has never let me down before....do you see where i am headed with this. Well i have been to 4 separate shoppers and not a single one has this lipstick. I don't want to order it online because i need to test it out. It is hard to tell what the actual colour is like online.
So what do i do....keep haunting shoppers until i find it. Get mad and boycott shoppers because they keep saying they have it but when i get there, they don't. I don't want to boycott shoppers, i am so close to the next level of optimum points. I like to do a celebratory dance each time i reach a new points level. i don't want to give up that dance....it feels like i have accomplished something....spending large amounts of dollars at shoppers for meaningless points that i am never going to cash in because i keep telling myself to wait for the next level. it is like the Scientology of shoppers.
Anyways....i thought i would make the blog post today something new and different. Isn't nice to not hear me whine about my feelings and craziness....instead you get to hear me complain. Man aren't you lucky.
I swear, I am starting to see through to the other end of this feelings explosion...which is a good thing because the Lake House, you know that movie with Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock where they write letters through time....that movie made me cry sunday night. I am on an emotions roller coaster and i need to get off. I don't know what is better, ignoring my feelings for two months or now experiencing every feeling times 20?
Tomorrow i plan to write about Gotham and Marvel's Agents of Shield. Now that new tv is back, a whole new world of things to talk about has opened. Although i gave myself one goal over the summer and that was to catch up on Arrow before the new season. I am sad to say i have completely failed....I also need to see the third season of Korra, and the Last Avatar but it was on netflix and now i can't find it. Also i need to talk to jordan because he is going to help me get american netflix.....i saw it at his house and i was overwhelmed by the choices. I don't know if i am ready for american netflix, i already have a hard enough time choosing with my current netflix.
Oh and finally in other exciting news....i had been considering switching to iphone because i miss itunes so bad...and i get super jealous at all the awesome cases iphones have. But...this weekend, i discovered i can make on the go playlists with my current music player on my samsung. WOOOT
So all weekend, i made up different play lists. I like to mix up pop with rock with 80's with musicals. I have been told my playlists are very weird...maybe i will list one for you sometime.
Monday, September 15, 2014
Promises
So i have decided to try to always be honest with myself.
I have a small to large problem.....i have turned into an oversharer. In acknowledging my fears and embracing my feelings it has left me a little cracked. On friday someone asked me how i was doing and i launched into a 10 minute speech about feelings. While the person politely listened and i could see it in their face they wanted to back away slowly but i just couldn't stop myself from talking. Seriously, the whole time in my head i was like..."SHUT UP....STOP TALKING...DON"T SAY THAT" but i just kept going. I need to learn how to balance the accepting of my feelings with the appropriate time to share them.
I am glad that i am working things out but i am starting to feel unhinged. And all those bad feelings i feel, i have tunneled into feeling them about work. Work for me right now is an oppressive place that i can't be myself. I walk through that door and all my worries about failing and not doing my best take over. It is like when i put on my blazer at work, it is made of lead. I just don't understand why after working for a full year to get this job, i now feel like it is the embodiment of punishment. I love talking to my accounts, and i love the actual work but i have received little to no training and i am making everything up as i go. I am following my instincts which has so far been great but i have this overwhelming fear every time i make a decision that it is wrong...that i am wrong. Why can't i let this go? Why can't i just embrace that parts i love and just keep pushing forward....i want to let go of the worries....i want to just BILL MURRAY this situation. Stop caring what anyone thinks, myself included. But i can't seem to let go. Why can't i let go? I am an adult and i still feel like i am in high school and terrified of getting pushed around and made fun of by the school bully if i make a mistake. But i have to stop making one single person the bad guy.
In other news, i kick started my social life on saturday (it was kind of a failure where i stand in a corner and don't interact with anyone and wished i was at home watching doctor who).
Saturday night, i went to a bachelorette and can i just say....not that i clubbed much when i was in my 20's but being there saturday was not fun. I felt so old....so many people were barely wearing any clothes....one girl just didn't put a top on and was only wearing a bra....WHEN DID THAT BECOME ACCEPTABLE?? And there were just so many bachelorette parties there. It is just not my scene....and i just felt so out of place. I love dancing! I do, i think it is awesome fun and everyone should do it....but this was not the place for dancing. They never played a full song and all songs had some weird latin underbeat so you were never really sure if you knew the song.
So on top of my failure at being social on saturday....friday night, i did laundry. not only did i do laundry on a friday night but i did it wearing a cat tshirt with a cat hoodie over top of the tshirt. I doubled catted my outfit....announcing to the world that i have given up! Spinsterhood here i come.
I have a small to large problem.....i have turned into an oversharer. In acknowledging my fears and embracing my feelings it has left me a little cracked. On friday someone asked me how i was doing and i launched into a 10 minute speech about feelings. While the person politely listened and i could see it in their face they wanted to back away slowly but i just couldn't stop myself from talking. Seriously, the whole time in my head i was like..."SHUT UP....STOP TALKING...DON"T SAY THAT" but i just kept going. I need to learn how to balance the accepting of my feelings with the appropriate time to share them.
I am glad that i am working things out but i am starting to feel unhinged. And all those bad feelings i feel, i have tunneled into feeling them about work. Work for me right now is an oppressive place that i can't be myself. I walk through that door and all my worries about failing and not doing my best take over. It is like when i put on my blazer at work, it is made of lead. I just don't understand why after working for a full year to get this job, i now feel like it is the embodiment of punishment. I love talking to my accounts, and i love the actual work but i have received little to no training and i am making everything up as i go. I am following my instincts which has so far been great but i have this overwhelming fear every time i make a decision that it is wrong...that i am wrong. Why can't i let this go? Why can't i just embrace that parts i love and just keep pushing forward....i want to let go of the worries....i want to just BILL MURRAY this situation. Stop caring what anyone thinks, myself included. But i can't seem to let go. Why can't i let go? I am an adult and i still feel like i am in high school and terrified of getting pushed around and made fun of by the school bully if i make a mistake. But i have to stop making one single person the bad guy.
In other news, i kick started my social life on saturday (it was kind of a failure where i stand in a corner and don't interact with anyone and wished i was at home watching doctor who).
Saturday night, i went to a bachelorette and can i just say....not that i clubbed much when i was in my 20's but being there saturday was not fun. I felt so old....so many people were barely wearing any clothes....one girl just didn't put a top on and was only wearing a bra....WHEN DID THAT BECOME ACCEPTABLE?? And there were just so many bachelorette parties there. It is just not my scene....and i just felt so out of place. I love dancing! I do, i think it is awesome fun and everyone should do it....but this was not the place for dancing. They never played a full song and all songs had some weird latin underbeat so you were never really sure if you knew the song.
So on top of my failure at being social on saturday....friday night, i did laundry. not only did i do laundry on a friday night but i did it wearing a cat tshirt with a cat hoodie over top of the tshirt. I doubled catted my outfit....announcing to the world that i have given up! Spinsterhood here i come.
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Smashy Smashy
Destruction is the most cathartic way to blow off your frustrations. Seriously....it has been a rough couple of weeks, learning this new job and so much other stuff.....i am at so stressed out.
Luckily i have a great friend who is knocking down his house to build a better one. He let me come over on saturday and swing a sledgehammer and knock down walls. I did so many fun things this weekend and nothing compared to the feeling of swinging and smashing a sledge hammer into a wall and seeing that wall crumble down.
What else did i do this weekend?
I went and saw Wicked, i really enjoy the show. Then brunch on sunday and you know how i feel about brunch.....i wish every meal was brunch. Man, even thinking about it now makes me want to eat brunch....like right now.
Today was a big day at work, we launched the campaign and i went out there and networked successfully so i am feeling good about that.
I also went to see a councilor today. I have been having a hard time the last few months and i really needed someone to talk to. I needed to hear from an unbiased person that everything i am feeling is completely normal. I am completely normal. It is okay to feel sad sometimes and it is okay to worry but she helped me to identify the issues behind the worries.
And saying the worries out loud really really helped me be less scared of them.
I am worried that i will fail at my new job
I am worried that my new job isn't a good fit
I am worried that i may hate my job
But if i fail or it isn't a good fit or i hate it....it isn't the end of the world, i am not tied to my job and i looked at my history, i have always done a good job, i have always been great at my job. and i am doing good at my current job. I have to give it a chance and stop worrying what if and start focusing on the now. And if in March i don't love my job or feel it isn't a good fit, i can always find another job. My happiness comes from me, no matter what job i have.
Anyways. I realized that i have been hiding from my feelings because i thought they made me weak. but my biggest strength has always been embracing my feeling and using that to understand the people around me. I am going to try to remind myself that it is okay to feel what i am feeling.
Luckily i have a great friend who is knocking down his house to build a better one. He let me come over on saturday and swing a sledgehammer and knock down walls. I did so many fun things this weekend and nothing compared to the feeling of swinging and smashing a sledge hammer into a wall and seeing that wall crumble down.
What else did i do this weekend?
I went and saw Wicked, i really enjoy the show. Then brunch on sunday and you know how i feel about brunch.....i wish every meal was brunch. Man, even thinking about it now makes me want to eat brunch....like right now.
Today was a big day at work, we launched the campaign and i went out there and networked successfully so i am feeling good about that.
I also went to see a councilor today. I have been having a hard time the last few months and i really needed someone to talk to. I needed to hear from an unbiased person that everything i am feeling is completely normal. I am completely normal. It is okay to feel sad sometimes and it is okay to worry but she helped me to identify the issues behind the worries.
And saying the worries out loud really really helped me be less scared of them.
I am worried that i will fail at my new job
I am worried that my new job isn't a good fit
I am worried that i may hate my job
But if i fail or it isn't a good fit or i hate it....it isn't the end of the world, i am not tied to my job and i looked at my history, i have always done a good job, i have always been great at my job. and i am doing good at my current job. I have to give it a chance and stop worrying what if and start focusing on the now. And if in March i don't love my job or feel it isn't a good fit, i can always find another job. My happiness comes from me, no matter what job i have.
Anyways. I realized that i have been hiding from my feelings because i thought they made me weak. but my biggest strength has always been embracing my feeling and using that to understand the people around me. I am going to try to remind myself that it is okay to feel what i am feeling.
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
They are HERE
Me and Kelly decided to go see The F Word last night because....well i am now in love with Daniel Radcliffe because he is a giant goofball that makes fun of himself so well. Anyways...i have been dying to see this movie so me and Kelly decide to go last night.
HUGE MISTAKE.
So first of all, it wasn't playing in VIP and it didn't have assigned seats. Do you know what that means? It means pure chaos. So, i know that Yonge/Dundas attracts all the tourists which i work hard to ignore because not many of them are actually going to the movies but what me and kelly forgot was the university students have arrived which made the movie theatre pure chaos, frosh everywhere, all being annoying.
It was terrible.
I don't know if i mentioned this but i draw stubborn lines in the sand. they don't really make sense and i am normally incredibly flexible about things but i hit a line and i will become the most stubborn person ever.
One of my lines is.....late comers to the movies that then wander around asking people to shift over so they can sit with their friend when there are a lot of seats down at the front. Why should i move from my excellently picked seat just because you came late and don't want to sit in the bitch seat. Do you know what...then plan ahead better...or suck it up and sit in the bitch seats. I am not moving so you can ruin my movie experience. Now the real problem - i avoid all confrontations....i am not good at confrontations. The only time i have been able to stick to my guns on this issue is when i had a broken ankle and i was using a seat for my crutches because there was no where to put them and they asked me to move them so they could sit..and i was like no. then they classily suggested i put them in the isle, and i was like that is a tripping hazard...so no. I was really proud of myself that time. But then again...the broken ankle period of my life was a very bitchy time for me. Seriously....bitch to the extreme. I had a lot of rage.
Where was I? oh yah, so we didn't have to move, we invented a third person that was running late and that is why we were saving the third seat. And then after the movie we swore to never go to a regular movie again. We are not meant to interact with the young ones.
HUGE MISTAKE.
So first of all, it wasn't playing in VIP and it didn't have assigned seats. Do you know what that means? It means pure chaos. So, i know that Yonge/Dundas attracts all the tourists which i work hard to ignore because not many of them are actually going to the movies but what me and kelly forgot was the university students have arrived which made the movie theatre pure chaos, frosh everywhere, all being annoying.
It was terrible.
I don't know if i mentioned this but i draw stubborn lines in the sand. they don't really make sense and i am normally incredibly flexible about things but i hit a line and i will become the most stubborn person ever.
One of my lines is.....late comers to the movies that then wander around asking people to shift over so they can sit with their friend when there are a lot of seats down at the front. Why should i move from my excellently picked seat just because you came late and don't want to sit in the bitch seat. Do you know what...then plan ahead better...or suck it up and sit in the bitch seats. I am not moving so you can ruin my movie experience. Now the real problem - i avoid all confrontations....i am not good at confrontations. The only time i have been able to stick to my guns on this issue is when i had a broken ankle and i was using a seat for my crutches because there was no where to put them and they asked me to move them so they could sit..and i was like no. then they classily suggested i put them in the isle, and i was like that is a tripping hazard...so no. I was really proud of myself that time. But then again...the broken ankle period of my life was a very bitchy time for me. Seriously....bitch to the extreme. I had a lot of rage.
Where was I? oh yah, so we didn't have to move, we invented a third person that was running late and that is why we were saving the third seat. And then after the movie we swore to never go to a regular movie again. We are not meant to interact with the young ones.
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Best Ever
So, i am going to take time out of my regularly scheduled whining to talk about the best thing ever.
Guardians of the Galaxy!!!
I have been waiting for this movie for what seems like A MILLION YEARS. seriously a million years!
So when it came out, right around my birthday might i add (that is a sign) i was so so excited. I was actually worried that it wouldn't measure up to my crazy high expectations. but it totally did....i loved it all, from the opening scene to the big finish.
I was attached to all the characters, of course i my favourite (star lord....or rocket) but they all interacted so well together....they we a good team. And i liked that the team wasn't this positive woot woot team but a we are stuck together because we all want something from the other. I like how they only did it reluctantly!
I don't want to spoil it but if they could custom build a movie for me, this might be it.
In other news, i am in love with Taylor Swift's new song, i have listened to it like 40 times on repeat. i am hosting my own dance party at my desk. luckily people already expect me to be weird so they are just ignoring me.
Guardians of the Galaxy!!!
I have been waiting for this movie for what seems like A MILLION YEARS. seriously a million years!
So when it came out, right around my birthday might i add (that is a sign) i was so so excited. I was actually worried that it wouldn't measure up to my crazy high expectations. but it totally did....i loved it all, from the opening scene to the big finish.
I was attached to all the characters, of course i my favourite (star lord....or rocket) but they all interacted so well together....they we a good team. And i liked that the team wasn't this positive woot woot team but a we are stuck together because we all want something from the other. I like how they only did it reluctantly!
I don't want to spoil it but if they could custom build a movie for me, this might be it.
In other news, i am in love with Taylor Swift's new song, i have listened to it like 40 times on repeat. i am hosting my own dance party at my desk. luckily people already expect me to be weird so they are just ignoring me.
Friday, August 15, 2014
Steps
I am forcing myself out of my shell more. This new job, i have to go out and meet a lot of people. I am always traveling around. The meetings have been great and i am feeling really positive about them. I am still not positive about a lot of stuff. And today i have to do a presentation, which is not my strong suit. I love talking in a one on one setting or with a few people and just connecting and sharing my passion for making the city better and now i get to go to all these agencies and see the work they do.
These are all good things....good for me, to remind me why i am doing what i am doing. Deep down, i have always wanted my own store...always but until i figure out the details and take that leap of faith. I am where i am needed, making a difference. It helps to ground me.
In other news. I am so glad it is friday!
These are all good things....good for me, to remind me why i am doing what i am doing. Deep down, i have always wanted my own store...always but until i figure out the details and take that leap of faith. I am where i am needed, making a difference. It helps to ground me.
In other news. I am so glad it is friday!
Monday, August 11, 2014
Fake it?
So.....i have lost some of my enthusiasm and i know that i have been working really hard on "faking it until i make it" and being positive and happy all of the time. "don't let the negative in"
But....this question hit me last week, what if it never clicks....what if i keep "faking it" and i never get to the "making it" part?
Dad seems to be doing good, i am on track with my new job....i set up an online dating profile (not that i actually use it...but i mean setting it up is a start) But something seems like it is missing. some unknown piece that will make all the parts fit together. Or again maybe i am just making all that up because i want an excuse to be a grouchy gus. Maybe things aren't getting better because secretly i love the drama?
God....it is tiring in my brain. Questions, and doubts, and fears. That is what my brain is filled with...oh and expectations of where i should be versus where i am. I am even tired with myself...i write the same stuff over and over again in this blog but never actually change anything.
So here is my promise to myself. Instead of complaining and changing nothing.....i am going to take proactive steps. I think i will take advantage of the counseling services offered through my EAP program at work. That way i have someone to talk to. They even offer life coaches. Maybe i will get a life coach.
But....this question hit me last week, what if it never clicks....what if i keep "faking it" and i never get to the "making it" part?
Dad seems to be doing good, i am on track with my new job....i set up an online dating profile (not that i actually use it...but i mean setting it up is a start) But something seems like it is missing. some unknown piece that will make all the parts fit together. Or again maybe i am just making all that up because i want an excuse to be a grouchy gus. Maybe things aren't getting better because secretly i love the drama?
God....it is tiring in my brain. Questions, and doubts, and fears. That is what my brain is filled with...oh and expectations of where i should be versus where i am. I am even tired with myself...i write the same stuff over and over again in this blog but never actually change anything.
So here is my promise to myself. Instead of complaining and changing nothing.....i am going to take proactive steps. I think i will take advantage of the counseling services offered through my EAP program at work. That way i have someone to talk to. They even offer life coaches. Maybe i will get a life coach.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Life Update
Tomorrow is my birthday. It is, i guess, a new year/fresh start for me. This last year was REALLY HARD, between the broken ankle, the pneumonia, the leftover breathing problems from the pneumonia, the major changes at work. Then Dad got diagnosed with Prostate Cancer. Completely out of left field and terrifying. I still can't really think about it without CRYING like a baby.
BUT.....good news, it was caught very early and outlook seems good. He was given two options - surgery and radiation. He chose surgery and his surgery was yesterday. He is now safely out of surgery but still in the hospital. There will be a long recovery and he is still in a lot of pain. I want to hug him lots!
But as you can see it hasn't been a smooth ride this year. And with dad's surgery and recovery being everyone's top priority. I am content to let my birthday quietly pass.
I like my new job but i am not sure it is everything i am looking for. And i want to buy a condo but due to my confirmed spinsterness....condo seems ify. Although with my new job i should be able to afford it. But i need to wait until i am permanent at my new job before i make any big purchases.
I am trying really hard to restart the positivity train. Isn't funny that i can be positive and supportive to everyone around me but i am so much harder on myself. I expect so much more. I am not running as well as i expect, even though, running itself is awesome since a broken ankle should make me question why i would even run in the first place. I have this great new job which i am doing great at considering that i have had little training and i am kind of out of my element. But any time someone recognizes me, i explain it away and try to recognize someone else. Why am i so bad at taking positive feed back and recognition?
So, with my birthday tomorrow, it is my new years. And i promise myself to be nicer to me. And if i start getting negative again, i will look into talking to a professional who should help me with techniques at overcoming the dark clouds that loom over my head.
BUT.....good news, it was caught very early and outlook seems good. He was given two options - surgery and radiation. He chose surgery and his surgery was yesterday. He is now safely out of surgery but still in the hospital. There will be a long recovery and he is still in a lot of pain. I want to hug him lots!
But as you can see it hasn't been a smooth ride this year. And with dad's surgery and recovery being everyone's top priority. I am content to let my birthday quietly pass.
I like my new job but i am not sure it is everything i am looking for. And i want to buy a condo but due to my confirmed spinsterness....condo seems ify. Although with my new job i should be able to afford it. But i need to wait until i am permanent at my new job before i make any big purchases.
I am trying really hard to restart the positivity train. Isn't funny that i can be positive and supportive to everyone around me but i am so much harder on myself. I expect so much more. I am not running as well as i expect, even though, running itself is awesome since a broken ankle should make me question why i would even run in the first place. I have this great new job which i am doing great at considering that i have had little training and i am kind of out of my element. But any time someone recognizes me, i explain it away and try to recognize someone else. Why am i so bad at taking positive feed back and recognition?
So, with my birthday tomorrow, it is my new years. And i promise myself to be nicer to me. And if i start getting negative again, i will look into talking to a professional who should help me with techniques at overcoming the dark clouds that loom over my head.
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Mind Space
It is really weird......a little while ago i decided that i would be nicer to myself and stay positive. that was my goal. And i was doing great but this last month.....i have slide back into negative city.
I am feeling negative about everything.
I think things would be better if i could just face things with a happy outlook but for some reason i am always expecting the worst.
This is such a vicious cycle i am in. I say i am going to be positive, i work at it and i am positive for like a brief minute....then something happens and i slide right back into negative town. I need to figure out how to rally.
I don't even feel like writing this blog which is my feelings outlet.
Time to re-evaluate.
I am feeling negative about everything.
I think things would be better if i could just face things with a happy outlook but for some reason i am always expecting the worst.
This is such a vicious cycle i am in. I say i am going to be positive, i work at it and i am positive for like a brief minute....then something happens and i slide right back into negative town. I need to figure out how to rally.
I don't even feel like writing this blog which is my feelings outlet.
Time to re-evaluate.
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Running
So, i had a great goal when i was coming back from my broken ankle. Start training and run the waterfront half marathon. I just wanted to prove to myself i could get back to where i was before the ankle, before the depression, before the eating my feelings, before the health problems.
It has not been as easy as i thought. I am nowhere near where i want to be in terms of cardio and fitness. And the more i work at it, the more sore my ankles get. The throb every night. I stretch them out and i ignore the pain hoping that if i kept working at it, it would go away. So far...not so much.
Also, me and Jenn and Tak signed up for this running room half marathon training program. I thought it was going to be great....but it just re-enforces my helplessness feeling.
I am so much slower than i use to be and i don't think i am going to get back to that old speed.
This running room group could be great for people that are like at their peak and are working towards time goals. Also....they are all like crazy gazelles. Everyone in the group is super fast. I know Jenn and Tak would run with me if i asked but they are working towards their own time goals, i can't hold them back. But running behind them just reminds me how far behind i am from what i use to be.
Instead of finding this group helpful and motivating, i am feeling more negative about it and more hopeless. Seeing everyone at their best just reminds me how far from my best i am and makes me worry that i will never get there. Then i ask myself is this even what i want anymore?
I won't stop because i miss jenn and tak like crazy. I use to see them at least twice a week and we would do brunch and it was amazing. Now with the run group i see them regularly again. I don't want to lose that friendship. I must admit though, i still feel so separated from them. Re-joining boot camp could be a way to rebond. But here is the thing. I have never enjoyed boot camp because i hate that competitive mindset of the participants. I want everyone to try their best in a supportive manner and that is never the vibe i got from Marv.
Maybe this is all just me being crazy. I just got the promotion i wanted and it feels ungrateful to be unhappy about that and i have been unhappy for so long with things that i don't know how to stop and running has become my unhappy outlet.
God i am a mental case. I really need to work on that not being crazy thing because it is starting to take over all aspects of my life.
It has not been as easy as i thought. I am nowhere near where i want to be in terms of cardio and fitness. And the more i work at it, the more sore my ankles get. The throb every night. I stretch them out and i ignore the pain hoping that if i kept working at it, it would go away. So far...not so much.
Also, me and Jenn and Tak signed up for this running room half marathon training program. I thought it was going to be great....but it just re-enforces my helplessness feeling.
I am so much slower than i use to be and i don't think i am going to get back to that old speed.
This running room group could be great for people that are like at their peak and are working towards time goals. Also....they are all like crazy gazelles. Everyone in the group is super fast. I know Jenn and Tak would run with me if i asked but they are working towards their own time goals, i can't hold them back. But running behind them just reminds me how far behind i am from what i use to be.
Instead of finding this group helpful and motivating, i am feeling more negative about it and more hopeless. Seeing everyone at their best just reminds me how far from my best i am and makes me worry that i will never get there. Then i ask myself is this even what i want anymore?
I won't stop because i miss jenn and tak like crazy. I use to see them at least twice a week and we would do brunch and it was amazing. Now with the run group i see them regularly again. I don't want to lose that friendship. I must admit though, i still feel so separated from them. Re-joining boot camp could be a way to rebond. But here is the thing. I have never enjoyed boot camp because i hate that competitive mindset of the participants. I want everyone to try their best in a supportive manner and that is never the vibe i got from Marv.
Maybe this is all just me being crazy. I just got the promotion i wanted and it feels ungrateful to be unhappy about that and i have been unhappy for so long with things that i don't know how to stop and running has become my unhappy outlet.
God i am a mental case. I really need to work on that not being crazy thing because it is starting to take over all aspects of my life.
the moment
Standing in the kitchen at my parents house making guacamole....that's when it hit me.
It was a bbq for my mom's birthday. We are a loud boisterous and very close family. Sometimes it drives me crazy when they are all up in my business and sometimes I am jealous that they all seem to be doing good while I flounder around trying to find my path. But while making guacamole....listening to them all outside swimming and laughing and talking and I realized something......I am so lucky. That is my family and I love them.
I feel confused sometimes because i work so hard to achieve something or even just to prove to myself....something. I don't know what.
You know that life path everyone seems to be on - job, relationship, marriage, home ownership, kids. How did everyone know to follow that plan and why does it seem so off to me. I love my independence. I think i like my life but i have to ask myself....if i love my life so much, why am i not happier? I think it is because i have never really been able to make a decision without weighing the pros and cons of both sides until i have flip flopped so much on a decision, i have no idea what i originally wanted to do. What i need to do is just embrace the path i am on now because constantly worried i am missing out on other things doesn't work for me.
I signed up for an online dating site and everyone on there....just not for me. I always thought i would just know when i met the right person but i am so worried about getting hurt, i won't let any one in....ever! I was hoping i could change that by doing the online dating thing but no one is messaging me and i am not messaging anyone. So that is a bust.
Laura thinks i should meet with a life coach to help me figure all this stuff out. But that just seems weird to me.
My real problem is that i am afraid.....like all the time. Afraid of screwing up, afraid of getting hurt, afraid of being judged, afraid of everything. How do i get over that? Do things that scare me? Push the envelope?
Who knows?
It was a bbq for my mom's birthday. We are a loud boisterous and very close family. Sometimes it drives me crazy when they are all up in my business and sometimes I am jealous that they all seem to be doing good while I flounder around trying to find my path. But while making guacamole....listening to them all outside swimming and laughing and talking and I realized something......I am so lucky. That is my family and I love them.
I feel confused sometimes because i work so hard to achieve something or even just to prove to myself....something. I don't know what.
You know that life path everyone seems to be on - job, relationship, marriage, home ownership, kids. How did everyone know to follow that plan and why does it seem so off to me. I love my independence. I think i like my life but i have to ask myself....if i love my life so much, why am i not happier? I think it is because i have never really been able to make a decision without weighing the pros and cons of both sides until i have flip flopped so much on a decision, i have no idea what i originally wanted to do. What i need to do is just embrace the path i am on now because constantly worried i am missing out on other things doesn't work for me.
I signed up for an online dating site and everyone on there....just not for me. I always thought i would just know when i met the right person but i am so worried about getting hurt, i won't let any one in....ever! I was hoping i could change that by doing the online dating thing but no one is messaging me and i am not messaging anyone. So that is a bust.
Laura thinks i should meet with a life coach to help me figure all this stuff out. But that just seems weird to me.
My real problem is that i am afraid.....like all the time. Afraid of screwing up, afraid of getting hurt, afraid of being judged, afraid of everything. How do i get over that? Do things that scare me? Push the envelope?
Who knows?
Monday, June 9, 2014
First Week
So.....i completed my first week and i survived.
I actually felt like i could do this. That i can do this new job.
It is what i have been working towards for a year. And now that i have it. I am feeling overwhelmed...not with the job. I feel like i can handle the job. I feel overwhelmed with life in general.
It has been a year since i broke my ankle and got pneumonia. I was told my 33rd year was going to be the best year of my life because i am still young and carefree but old enough to be established in a career and can afford the things i love. It was not so much. My birthday is in two months. I turn 34. I feel like i am finally getting things on track. But i can't seem to shake the negatives.
Maybe it is just June. It is a terrible month (or it has been last year and this year is not winning any awards.)
Maybe it is the fact that i am turning 34 and still feel like i am 24. I know that i am not the most traditional person. But i have to ask myself some tough questions. Do i want to get married and have kids? is that want i want? Should i be working towards that?
I do know i want a dog and a house with a little bit of land so i can have a garden. I love living downtown but i always saw myself eventually moving to Ajax (near andrea) in a tiny cottage like house and having a craft room and a dog and a garden where all my plants routinely die.
But i am not ready for that, financially or maturity level wise. I like living in the city, i like my super short commute to work. I like being able to just go out with friends whenever i want. Maybe the suburb life isn't for me? Maybe kids aren't for me? I just don't know.
I just expected with this job, a new fresh invigorated outlook on life would take place. That i would have some answers or i would be able to answer some of my own questions.
I can't.
I am still burying my head in the sand and pretending that i am 24 and carefree.
I actually felt like i could do this. That i can do this new job.
It is what i have been working towards for a year. And now that i have it. I am feeling overwhelmed...not with the job. I feel like i can handle the job. I feel overwhelmed with life in general.
It has been a year since i broke my ankle and got pneumonia. I was told my 33rd year was going to be the best year of my life because i am still young and carefree but old enough to be established in a career and can afford the things i love. It was not so much. My birthday is in two months. I turn 34. I feel like i am finally getting things on track. But i can't seem to shake the negatives.
Maybe it is just June. It is a terrible month (or it has been last year and this year is not winning any awards.)
Maybe it is the fact that i am turning 34 and still feel like i am 24. I know that i am not the most traditional person. But i have to ask myself some tough questions. Do i want to get married and have kids? is that want i want? Should i be working towards that?
I do know i want a dog and a house with a little bit of land so i can have a garden. I love living downtown but i always saw myself eventually moving to Ajax (near andrea) in a tiny cottage like house and having a craft room and a dog and a garden where all my plants routinely die.
But i am not ready for that, financially or maturity level wise. I like living in the city, i like my super short commute to work. I like being able to just go out with friends whenever i want. Maybe the suburb life isn't for me? Maybe kids aren't for me? I just don't know.
I just expected with this job, a new fresh invigorated outlook on life would take place. That i would have some answers or i would be able to answer some of my own questions.
I can't.
I am still burying my head in the sand and pretending that i am 24 and carefree.
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
One Small Step for Normal People
One Large step for ME!
Yesterday was the first day of my new job. Although, my manager is on vacation until tomorrow, i have also been told i need to continue to help support my old team until they find a replacement. So i guess nothing is really new today except a fancy new job title and eventually a new desk....with less privacy than my old desk.
Oh Well.
In other news.....i am not feeling so peppy today.
There are things i need to talk about but i am not ready to mention them here.
I need some time to process.
Yesterday was the first day of my new job. Although, my manager is on vacation until tomorrow, i have also been told i need to continue to help support my old team until they find a replacement. So i guess nothing is really new today except a fancy new job title and eventually a new desk....with less privacy than my old desk.
Oh Well.
In other news.....i am not feeling so peppy today.
There are things i need to talk about but i am not ready to mention them here.
I need some time to process.
Monday, May 26, 2014
#BLESSED
My co-worker Carly loved to hashtag everything. I have never really understood the need to hashtag everything BUT....this weekend. Was wonderful.
We went for fancy tea as you know, me and some of my co-workers. I planned it thinking it would just be a fun time and an excuse to wear facinators and get all fancy. But apparently it was to celebrate my promotion as well. And they treated me to tea. Isn't that the nicest thing.
With this promotion, so many people at work are coming forward and letting me know that they believe in me. It is overwhelming!
I feel like i should be thanking everyone in the world. I want to make everyone thank you for believing in me presents. But what says thanks best? Too bad i can't get everyone dog hugs. Dog hugs are the best! Maybe i can borrow amy's dog Austin and bring him in to work for everyone to hug him. Austin is the best hugger. I love Austin so MUCH!
We went for fancy tea as you know, me and some of my co-workers. I planned it thinking it would just be a fun time and an excuse to wear facinators and get all fancy. But apparently it was to celebrate my promotion as well. And they treated me to tea. Isn't that the nicest thing.
With this promotion, so many people at work are coming forward and letting me know that they believe in me. It is overwhelming!
I feel like i should be thanking everyone in the world. I want to make everyone thank you for believing in me presents. But what says thanks best? Too bad i can't get everyone dog hugs. Dog hugs are the best! Maybe i can borrow amy's dog Austin and bring him in to work for everyone to hug him. Austin is the best hugger. I love Austin so MUCH!
Friday, May 23, 2014
Tiny Top Hats
So, i have been bragging to my co-workers about my fun adventures for afternoon tea with my run club. It is literally the best time ever.
So, my co-workers have demanded an afternoon tea adventure. We are going on saturday, Fancy Dress required and maybe even facinators if you have one. So me and kelly have been talking about how great tiny top hats are and that they should be worn more and why aren't they worn more. My co-worker Marion brought in today..........................................................A......Mini Top Hat. And it is glorious.
I may have to wear it tomorrow at tea.
The best part of tomorrow, is that after tea, we are all trekking over to our new favourite place in the world - the VIP cinemas at Yonge/Dundas. We will be seeing X-Men. In our formal wear!
I am very excited.
So, my co-workers have demanded an afternoon tea adventure. We are going on saturday, Fancy Dress required and maybe even facinators if you have one. So me and kelly have been talking about how great tiny top hats are and that they should be worn more and why aren't they worn more. My co-worker Marion brought in today..........................................................A......Mini Top Hat. And it is glorious.
I may have to wear it tomorrow at tea.
The best part of tomorrow, is that after tea, we are all trekking over to our new favourite place in the world - the VIP cinemas at Yonge/Dundas. We will be seeing X-Men. In our formal wear!
I am very excited.
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Who would have thought
So....you remember when i promised to not be so negative with myself any more...and to try to be optimistic. Well.................
Guess who got a promotion!!!!
All that hard work....paid off.
I start June 2nd.
I am excited, and terrified, and nervous, and ecstatic. Basically i am feeling ALL THE FEELINGS.
It is only a contract but it is exactly what i need....to get the experience. It is going to be a lot of work but i am ready for it.
I guess positive thinking paid off. Take that negativity!
I want to brag more but i am also super shy and embarrassed about all the praise i am getting....it is weird, i am not use to the attention. I am usually a fly under the radar person (or so i tell myself). Now i am front and center....people expect things of me. I no longer have the support staff lifer protection.
I have two weeks to get my life in order and then everything changes.
As a present to myself for being awesome and getting this new job. I am totally going to buy a circle wicker chair thing....that i have always wanted!
Although buying it then bringing it home and getting rid of my old couch....all seems very hard so......................
Guess who got a promotion!!!!
All that hard work....paid off.
I start June 2nd.
I am excited, and terrified, and nervous, and ecstatic. Basically i am feeling ALL THE FEELINGS.
It is only a contract but it is exactly what i need....to get the experience. It is going to be a lot of work but i am ready for it.
I guess positive thinking paid off. Take that negativity!
I want to brag more but i am also super shy and embarrassed about all the praise i am getting....it is weird, i am not use to the attention. I am usually a fly under the radar person (or so i tell myself). Now i am front and center....people expect things of me. I no longer have the support staff lifer protection.
I have two weeks to get my life in order and then everything changes.
As a present to myself for being awesome and getting this new job. I am totally going to buy a circle wicker chair thing....that i have always wanted!
Although buying it then bringing it home and getting rid of my old couch....all seems very hard so......................
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Nirvana
I went to a magical place yesterday called the VIP Cinema's at Yonge/Dundas.
Fun facts about these movie theatres. To even get into the VIP area, you must show your ID because no one underaged is allowed. The seats are large and cushy like lazy boy chairs. You have a waiter come take your order (you can order full meals and alcohol) and then they deliver to your seat. And finally they have arm tables that slide out so you can store all your food.
IT IS AMAZING.
I don't want to over sell it but you know how i feel about youths (i am such a grumpy old man). And it was a smaller theatre so there weren't as many annoying strangers.
I repeat.....IT WAS AMAZING
So, there is one drawback....the tickets are like 23/each. But silver lining...if you have scene points it costs only 1000 which is the regular amount for any movie.
I believe we have found my new happy place!
Fun facts about these movie theatres. To even get into the VIP area, you must show your ID because no one underaged is allowed. The seats are large and cushy like lazy boy chairs. You have a waiter come take your order (you can order full meals and alcohol) and then they deliver to your seat. And finally they have arm tables that slide out so you can store all your food.
IT IS AMAZING.
I don't want to over sell it but you know how i feel about youths (i am such a grumpy old man). And it was a smaller theatre so there weren't as many annoying strangers.
I repeat.....IT WAS AMAZING
So, there is one drawback....the tickets are like 23/each. But silver lining...if you have scene points it costs only 1000 which is the regular amount for any movie.
I believe we have found my new happy place!
Monday, May 12, 2014
Running for Mom
It was our annual Mother's Day run on sunday aka Sporting Life 10k. Now i have not been looking forward to it because i have had almost zero training since the last 10k race, plus i had that asthma attack two weeks ago.
But....it is a tradition. and i can't let mom down.
Another transition happened yesterday, Andrea who has been working so hard at her running had a great race. She has found her running high.
I don't think i will ever find that running high. I have decided to embrace....i am an angry runner. It is just the outcome of the running. I will never be like 'this is the best, you know what i would love to go out and run today'. Nope those words won't come out of my mouth. I get mad and angry and every single cheering spectator, i want to punch in the throat. Dad says i should find an exercise that i love. I love yoga, and i do yoga regularly but it doesn't give me the cardio i need and want. Maybe i should take up boxing again. I do enjoy hitting things and it is amazing cardio. But i just don't know where i would go to do it. I have been thinking about joining Marvs again but it was just so expensive. And of my exercise budget, do i want to spend it all on a class i hate. I love the girls, they are my favourite people in the world and i love my brunch. I just don't know if my mind set is exactly where it needs to be to go back to that place that puts competition ahead of encouragement. I know there are a lot of people who are encouraging there but Marv is not....and it really effects my mindset when it comes to exercising. I constantly compare myself to everyone there and judge myself wanting. I know i want to get in better shape. i know it is a constant battle i have to lose weight and eat healthy and keep active. But i have learned in the last little while....negative leads to more negative. Sure i am an angry runner but it helps me get out all my frustration. Would i rather be swimming laps, of course, i love swimming and if there was a pool near by, i would sign up and do laps every day.
Reading Rainbow
I am an 80's kid.....who grew up with Reading Rainbow...anytime those words are said i automatically sing 'it's in a book, just take a look, it's reading rainbow'
It is an automatic response.
Now i have a new favourite Rainbow. Rainbow Rowell.
So Kelly says to me like 2 months ago....i have found a new author we are going to love (we hang out so much that our brains have started to merge into one, we call it the mind meld, normally if she loves something i will love it too and vice versa......except for teen wolf which i will love forever and she won't commit to)
Anyways....i immediately went to the library and put a hold on it. 2 months later and i still haven't gotten it. Then during my daily trip to Lainey Gossip, i see that she is hosting a Rainbow Rowell event. Me and kelly decide it is a MUST...and we start making our plans. I decide i can't go to the event without reading Elenor and Park. So i buy both Fangirl and Elenor & Park.
Elenor & Park....it is like together they are in the eye of a storm....you know they are in the calm center when everything around them storms and swirls around for maximum destruction. It was beautiful and heart breaking. After i was finished, i told kelly that i just want to put them in a snow globe where they are protected and safe forever.
Back to the yesterday. It was a very stressful day. We had this corporate team building session, where i got put into my personality group (the people pleasers). We are suppose to talk about how we work and what makes us work good but put a bunch of quiet people pleasers in a group without a leader...we sit around and stare at each other awkwardly.......seriously. So it was a stressful two hours of trying to talk to people. Then i immediately went into an interview for a job i really want. So my adrenaline and nerves were ratcheted up so much I was like seconds away from snapping.
So....work finally over, me and kelly head up to the library for the reading. We get there like nerdily early. So we sat outside and ate bagels...there were youths loitering. The youths not important information but....you know...i find them so awkward...always trying to prove how cool and grown up they are, so much stress.
Then we went in and sort of started lining up. Lines cause me such stress, it isn't bad if there is a line monitor and it seems like it is there is some measure of control. But lines in general are insane for me. So many strangers all standing around, and then the line started snaking back on itself and it started to seem like chaos. On top of that, i am always worried about cutters and non-rule followers because there are rules and we all waited. What makes them so special that they don't have to wait. It is just RUDE and i hate RUDE.
So the actual Q&A was amazing, Rainbow is a lovely person, amazing personality and you can tell she just has a good soul. I mean when you read her books you can tell she has such a good soul because her books are so beautiful and hopeful. But hearing her talk.....it just made things so much more. I don't know if i could describe it better...it was just so much more!
Then she was signing books....and i braved another chaotic line to get my book signed. Although secretly i was like DAMN....i don't want to meet her because I embarrass myself so easily. Also, i have never been a gushy fan...i like to admire from afar....close up...there is just too much pressure. I expect too much and they can never measure up to my expectations so it is better to keep the distance and the glossy expectations are never ruined.
Okay....anyways....me and Kelly decide it is best if we go up together to keep the other from embarrassment. We talk to her, a real normal conversation about buttons and office space and how you can never have too much flare. I know what you are thinking....how is that a normal conversation. Well it is as normal as we get. and it was fun and jokey and casual. It kept things light. Then afterwards...on a high of meeting her and not embarrassing ourselves.....we decided that we were the coolest people ever and then on the elevator back down to the street....We double high fived.
AND
FREEZE FRAME!
And that is my adventure with Rainbow Rowell
It is an automatic response.
Now i have a new favourite Rainbow. Rainbow Rowell.
So Kelly says to me like 2 months ago....i have found a new author we are going to love (we hang out so much that our brains have started to merge into one, we call it the mind meld, normally if she loves something i will love it too and vice versa......except for teen wolf which i will love forever and she won't commit to)
Anyways....i immediately went to the library and put a hold on it. 2 months later and i still haven't gotten it. Then during my daily trip to Lainey Gossip, i see that she is hosting a Rainbow Rowell event. Me and kelly decide it is a MUST...and we start making our plans. I decide i can't go to the event without reading Elenor and Park. So i buy both Fangirl and Elenor & Park.
Elenor & Park....it is like together they are in the eye of a storm....you know they are in the calm center when everything around them storms and swirls around for maximum destruction. It was beautiful and heart breaking. After i was finished, i told kelly that i just want to put them in a snow globe where they are protected and safe forever.
Back to the yesterday. It was a very stressful day. We had this corporate team building session, where i got put into my personality group (the people pleasers). We are suppose to talk about how we work and what makes us work good but put a bunch of quiet people pleasers in a group without a leader...we sit around and stare at each other awkwardly.......seriously. So it was a stressful two hours of trying to talk to people. Then i immediately went into an interview for a job i really want. So my adrenaline and nerves were ratcheted up so much I was like seconds away from snapping.
So....work finally over, me and kelly head up to the library for the reading. We get there like nerdily early. So we sat outside and ate bagels...there were youths loitering. The youths not important information but....you know...i find them so awkward...always trying to prove how cool and grown up they are, so much stress.
Then we went in and sort of started lining up. Lines cause me such stress, it isn't bad if there is a line monitor and it seems like it is there is some measure of control. But lines in general are insane for me. So many strangers all standing around, and then the line started snaking back on itself and it started to seem like chaos. On top of that, i am always worried about cutters and non-rule followers because there are rules and we all waited. What makes them so special that they don't have to wait. It is just RUDE and i hate RUDE.
So the actual Q&A was amazing, Rainbow is a lovely person, amazing personality and you can tell she just has a good soul. I mean when you read her books you can tell she has such a good soul because her books are so beautiful and hopeful. But hearing her talk.....it just made things so much more. I don't know if i could describe it better...it was just so much more!
Then she was signing books....and i braved another chaotic line to get my book signed. Although secretly i was like DAMN....i don't want to meet her because I embarrass myself so easily. Also, i have never been a gushy fan...i like to admire from afar....close up...there is just too much pressure. I expect too much and they can never measure up to my expectations so it is better to keep the distance and the glossy expectations are never ruined.
Okay....anyways....me and Kelly decide it is best if we go up together to keep the other from embarrassment. We talk to her, a real normal conversation about buttons and office space and how you can never have too much flare. I know what you are thinking....how is that a normal conversation. Well it is as normal as we get. and it was fun and jokey and casual. It kept things light. Then afterwards...on a high of meeting her and not embarrassing ourselves.....we decided that we were the coolest people ever and then on the elevator back down to the street....We double high fived.
AND
FREEZE FRAME!
And that is my adventure with Rainbow Rowell
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
The Final Countdown
Things haven't gone so smoothly in my life this past year. It has sort of been one unexpected gong show after another. I probably shouldn't complain too much because i got past it all. BUT i am just so tired of life punching me in the face.
Dad always says, you put positive out into the universe it returns to you. Basically Like attracts Like. So what does it say about me that i keep attracting these things? Am i really just a giant ball of grump.
My friend has a wedding in june and i went shopping for a dress to wear this weekend, and not a single thing actually fit over my boobs or my fat ass. Sometimes i wish i had that crazy exercise switch that the rest of my family has.....it seems like they just wake up one day and they are in crazy exercise town. They are focused and super motivated and disciplined. I try that...and like 10 minutes into disciplined lane, i am like good job...i really pushed it today, i should stop and watch tv. But do i want to flip that switch. Sure i would love to be skinny and model like but let's face it. I am short and curvy...i can't just exercise those things away....they will always be there. Maybe it is better if i just embrace the curve.
How is it that i am super comfortable with who i am personality wise but hate the package it comes in.
Wow...i am super insecure today......or every day....i guess if i am being completely honest....i have never thought i was attractive...like ever. That is such a sad thought!
Okay people....this is it...the final count down. I can't keep beating myself up about looks. Seriously...i need to embrace my "i am who i am" philosophy for outside not just inside.
So...here is the plan. Just stop being critical of myself. Okay, so it isn't really a plan per say...it is more of a mantra or whatever. But hopefully it will help.
Also, i am running another 10km race on sunday...which i probably won't survive because of that whole asthma thing. So if this is my last week....i might as well be nice to myself about it.
Dad always says, you put positive out into the universe it returns to you. Basically Like attracts Like. So what does it say about me that i keep attracting these things? Am i really just a giant ball of grump.
My friend has a wedding in june and i went shopping for a dress to wear this weekend, and not a single thing actually fit over my boobs or my fat ass. Sometimes i wish i had that crazy exercise switch that the rest of my family has.....it seems like they just wake up one day and they are in crazy exercise town. They are focused and super motivated and disciplined. I try that...and like 10 minutes into disciplined lane, i am like good job...i really pushed it today, i should stop and watch tv. But do i want to flip that switch. Sure i would love to be skinny and model like but let's face it. I am short and curvy...i can't just exercise those things away....they will always be there. Maybe it is better if i just embrace the curve.
How is it that i am super comfortable with who i am personality wise but hate the package it comes in.
Wow...i am super insecure today......or every day....i guess if i am being completely honest....i have never thought i was attractive...like ever. That is such a sad thought!
Okay people....this is it...the final count down. I can't keep beating myself up about looks. Seriously...i need to embrace my "i am who i am" philosophy for outside not just inside.
So...here is the plan. Just stop being critical of myself. Okay, so it isn't really a plan per say...it is more of a mantra or whatever. But hopefully it will help.
Also, i am running another 10km race on sunday...which i probably won't survive because of that whole asthma thing. So if this is my last week....i might as well be nice to myself about it.
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Life as i now know it
So.....i had people over to watch the hockey game on saturday. Yes, it is a big surprise because people in my space is new to me. But i took the time to clean and i have been feeling the need for a spring clean for awhile so it was a good time to do it. Cleaning complete and people come over....it is getting later in the evening and it is starting to ferl like someone is sitting on my chest. I can still breath but it is harder than normal. By the time they all go home the wheezing has started. I of course am cursing the gods because i am always terrified of that damned pneumonia. I don't sleep well and sunday my breathing is so laboured that I spend all day focusing on not panicking.
Monday I VOLUNTARILY go to the walk in by myself.....that is how you can tell it is bad it was because I irrationally hate the doctors.
The walk in clinic guy tells my I am having an acute asthma attack. If I could have breathed my response would havd been a lot more sassy but because I hadn't really slept or ate in two days I went with.......what?
I have never had breathing problems...I am not a smoker....and I exercise regularly.....so where the hell did asthma come from? Apparently that fucking pneumonia is the gift that keeps on giving. My lungs have become weakened and asthma is a potential benefit.
So I get my puffers and head to work. I get to work and finally start to feel like I can breath.....I decide that is the perfect time for a breakdown and cry. Perfect start to my week.
My breathing managed to normalize by Wednesday. And I got the all clear from my doctor today.
So outcome from my adventures....in a month's time when my lungs have recovered and normalized I will have to do breathing tests to find out how severe or milx this asthma is.
So.....what did I learn from this whole adventure? ?
Cleaning leads to horrible illness.
Monday I VOLUNTARILY go to the walk in by myself.....that is how you can tell it is bad it was because I irrationally hate the doctors.
The walk in clinic guy tells my I am having an acute asthma attack. If I could have breathed my response would havd been a lot more sassy but because I hadn't really slept or ate in two days I went with.......what?
I have never had breathing problems...I am not a smoker....and I exercise regularly.....so where the hell did asthma come from? Apparently that fucking pneumonia is the gift that keeps on giving. My lungs have become weakened and asthma is a potential benefit.
So I get my puffers and head to work. I get to work and finally start to feel like I can breath.....I decide that is the perfect time for a breakdown and cry. Perfect start to my week.
My breathing managed to normalize by Wednesday. And I got the all clear from my doctor today.
So outcome from my adventures....in a month's time when my lungs have recovered and normalized I will have to do breathing tests to find out how severe or milx this asthma is.
So.....what did I learn from this whole adventure? ?
Cleaning leads to horrible illness.
Friday, April 25, 2014
Stupid Kids
So....i fell into the hot topic hole. I might as well embrace the embarrassment that is me dressing like a tween forever. But they had a large doctor who section....where i bought two doctor who shirts....and a marvel shirt and marvel and doctor who earrings.....it was amazing and terrifying at the same time.
Yesterday i went to see The Princess Bride, it was showing at Yonge/Dundas. Going home, i get onto the subway and there is this woman, she is dressed super stylishly with her hair and make up all perfect, she was wearing mirrored aviators....and sitting all chill like. My immediate thought was that woman is trying WAY TOO HARD to look cool...like way to hard. And then dismissed her because i got all distracted. One of my biggest pet peeves is when a person goes to hold the pole right by the three seater (the one closes to the doors) and like all but hugs this pole which essentially brings their crotch right in my face if i am sitting in the first seat of the three seater. Seriously, you don't know where that pole has been why do you feel the need to wrap yourself around it. You don't look like a stripper. It is probably nothing, i just get irrationally annoyed when people, or i should say strangers, enter my personal space. And seem completely oblivious to respecting the personal space bubble. Like if someone stands right in front of you on an empty subway platform. SERIOUSLY??? can't stand two inches to the left or right, your prefered waiting spot is directly in front of me. You don't know me...i could be a deranged person that pushes people onto the tracks.....I'm not, but you don't know that. And you just leave your back completely vulnerable. Crazy.
Okay...i have totally gotten off topic here.
Where was i? Oh yah, personal space ignorers and that girl trying way too hard. So i am getting off at my stop and i notice....that girl, the try hard one, she hasn't moved at all, she is in the exact same position as when i got on the train. My brain immediately goes to OMG she is totally dead...but then i thought more and was like, she is totally a person/manikin like Jeff from today's special and she has lost her hat!
Then i completely forgot about her because the up escalator at my station was not working again. SERIOUSLY??? that is like the the 7th time in two weeks. Stupid kids, stop pressing the damn emergency stop button. I don't have proof that it is teenagers, but my old man senses are tingling and who else is careless enough to enjoy climbing 85 freaking stairs. Because that is how many stairs there are to get to street level at my station.
Anyways...enjoy your weekend.
Yesterday i went to see The Princess Bride, it was showing at Yonge/Dundas. Going home, i get onto the subway and there is this woman, she is dressed super stylishly with her hair and make up all perfect, she was wearing mirrored aviators....and sitting all chill like. My immediate thought was that woman is trying WAY TOO HARD to look cool...like way to hard. And then dismissed her because i got all distracted. One of my biggest pet peeves is when a person goes to hold the pole right by the three seater (the one closes to the doors) and like all but hugs this pole which essentially brings their crotch right in my face if i am sitting in the first seat of the three seater. Seriously, you don't know where that pole has been why do you feel the need to wrap yourself around it. You don't look like a stripper. It is probably nothing, i just get irrationally annoyed when people, or i should say strangers, enter my personal space. And seem completely oblivious to respecting the personal space bubble. Like if someone stands right in front of you on an empty subway platform. SERIOUSLY??? can't stand two inches to the left or right, your prefered waiting spot is directly in front of me. You don't know me...i could be a deranged person that pushes people onto the tracks.....I'm not, but you don't know that. And you just leave your back completely vulnerable. Crazy.
Okay...i have totally gotten off topic here.
Where was i? Oh yah, personal space ignorers and that girl trying way too hard. So i am getting off at my stop and i notice....that girl, the try hard one, she hasn't moved at all, she is in the exact same position as when i got on the train. My brain immediately goes to OMG she is totally dead...but then i thought more and was like, she is totally a person/manikin like Jeff from today's special and she has lost her hat!
Then i completely forgot about her because the up escalator at my station was not working again. SERIOUSLY??? that is like the the 7th time in two weeks. Stupid kids, stop pressing the damn emergency stop button. I don't have proof that it is teenagers, but my old man senses are tingling and who else is careless enough to enjoy climbing 85 freaking stairs. Because that is how many stairs there are to get to street level at my station.
Anyways...enjoy your weekend.
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Broken Brain
I have been having weird dreams all week. I could describe snipets of each dream, but i can never remember the full dream....and they never really make sense. Monday i had a baby dog, and tuesday i was in some sort of sobriety jail where to be free i had to answer 'skill testing' questions and do yoga. But last night.....last night was a winner. I was at college but it was staying at apparently alex and cathie's house. I carried around a giant bag to each class, like i was prepared to move at any moment. Then i was in a Kit Packing class....which is weird class topic but on top of that..i knew i was not actually enrolled in the class. After the class to add to the weirdness, i attempted to flirt with the instructor. We all know my flirting skills are below par...and i am super awkward when it comes to social interactions. So....that was fun....i embarrassed myself in my own dream.
In real life news. I have been working hard for my money....i am moving teams so that will be an exciting new chapter.
I have been told at work, i need to plan my vacations. So what days do i want to take off? My birthday for certain but that is as far as i got.
I was suppose to go on a road trip with Kelly but she bailed on me for Stratford. Oh well. Maybe i will hit up new york on my own.
Do you know i turn 34 in like 3 months. Seriously dude.....i have accomplished very little in my life, i run from romantic relationships, i have not gotten far at work, and i live with a cat in a rented apartment filled with clothes. Although if my goal in life is to be a crazy cat lady....i am well on my way. Maybe i should shake things up and get a puppy.
In real life news. I have been working hard for my money....i am moving teams so that will be an exciting new chapter.
I have been told at work, i need to plan my vacations. So what days do i want to take off? My birthday for certain but that is as far as i got.
I was suppose to go on a road trip with Kelly but she bailed on me for Stratford. Oh well. Maybe i will hit up new york on my own.
Do you know i turn 34 in like 3 months. Seriously dude.....i have accomplished very little in my life, i run from romantic relationships, i have not gotten far at work, and i live with a cat in a rented apartment filled with clothes. Although if my goal in life is to be a crazy cat lady....i am well on my way. Maybe i should shake things up and get a puppy.
Monday, April 21, 2014
Easter Adventures
It is normal for me to not celebrate easter. My mom and dad always go away, and i have to cat sit at their place. Also, my two sisters spend easter with their husband's families. I could get invited to any number of easter celebrations, i have been. But mom wants me to stay with her cats on the weekends. So every easter, i pick a tv series and marathon it over easter. I order swiss chalet and craft. It is a great way to spend a weekend. I actually think going to an easter dinner would be not enjoyable because the weekend i just described is my dream weekend.
So i marathoned season two of Scandal this weekend. It was intense! I now need season 3 like immediately.
On friday, me and Amy had a great day, we went for a walk with Austin, did some alterations, and painted our nails. I really enjoyed our day. We also made plans for future crafts days. We have decided to focus on storage crafts. I am super excited.
So i marathoned season two of Scandal this weekend. It was intense! I now need season 3 like immediately.
On friday, me and Amy had a great day, we went for a walk with Austin, did some alterations, and painted our nails. I really enjoyed our day. We also made plans for future crafts days. We have decided to focus on storage crafts. I am super excited.
Monday, April 14, 2014
I ran a race
and my prize is a wonderful sore throat (i have no voice) and terribly sore calves.
Before i talk about my weekend and all the awesome that happened, i need to give you a heads up about when i don't feel well. I am normally pretty laid back and although i am passive aggressive in my head, i am not really passive aggressive out loud. Well....sick me...HATES THE WORLD. I literally want everyone to just run off a cliff or something because i am so tired and grumpy i want to talk to no one, and deal with no one and just hibernate in my bed. But i am not home sick today enjoying netflix and making remy hug me. No...i am at work because i have an important meeting and reception duty. Once i am finished those two things...i am probably going to take off early and if things don't get better tomorrow...i will call in sick. The worst thing is i haven't really had a bad throat infection in a long while. I have mainly had chest colds all winter left over from that wonderful pneumonia. So it was a surprise to wake up with no voice this morning....NO VOICE. i can't even yell at people in my anger because i have no voice.
Okay now that the rant is over, here is how my weekend went.
Captain America on Friday...god i love that movie!
Saturday, i headed out to my parents to cat sit and i have to take the subway which includes like every transfer possible (university to bloor line to RT to bus) It takes me about 2 hours to get to my parents house that way but saturday it was magical......every time i got to a transfer point...the ttc was waiting for me. It was like they held it just for me and i got on and we immediately moved. It was such a smooth transition...i got to my parents in like 1:10 (the ten minutes was to walk from the bus stop).
The yonge street 10km was on sunday morning. I was slightly panicked (okay super nervous). my first race back since broken ankle of 2013. I didn't sleep saturday night...tossed and turned and worried about the race. Got up at like 6am (the worst) because we had to be back downtown at the race for 8:40. Andrea picked me up and we drove and parked near my apartment and walked to the start of the race at Yonge/Eglinton (about a 3km walk) we are clearly insane...but andrea called it a warm up. Then we ran. The first three km were cake (i think that is my distance) and i probably would have stopped after but Andrea kept me going to the 5km mark. Then Andrea got a terrible stitch in her side and we ran and walked from 5 - 7 km. When we hit 7km...i started pushing andrea to run a bit more. I knew she had a time goal, and i wanted her to beat it. We crossed the finish with at time of 1:15. So first race back completed! Although i am pretty sure i got this throat infection from being all sweaty and then standing around after the race with all that cold wind. Stupid running.
Although i will say, the free sunglasses i got as part of the race kit. AMAZING and my favourite thing i have ever got from any race....the tshirts never fit me because you need to have like zero boob for them to not be a crop top. The medals are nice but i don't really do anything with them. But those sunglasses AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyways....that was my weekend and now i am at work and super sick and grumpy with reception duty where i will be hardly able to speak as well as not be very friendly. Wish me luck!
Before i talk about my weekend and all the awesome that happened, i need to give you a heads up about when i don't feel well. I am normally pretty laid back and although i am passive aggressive in my head, i am not really passive aggressive out loud. Well....sick me...HATES THE WORLD. I literally want everyone to just run off a cliff or something because i am so tired and grumpy i want to talk to no one, and deal with no one and just hibernate in my bed. But i am not home sick today enjoying netflix and making remy hug me. No...i am at work because i have an important meeting and reception duty. Once i am finished those two things...i am probably going to take off early and if things don't get better tomorrow...i will call in sick. The worst thing is i haven't really had a bad throat infection in a long while. I have mainly had chest colds all winter left over from that wonderful pneumonia. So it was a surprise to wake up with no voice this morning....NO VOICE. i can't even yell at people in my anger because i have no voice.
Okay now that the rant is over, here is how my weekend went.
Captain America on Friday...god i love that movie!
Saturday, i headed out to my parents to cat sit and i have to take the subway which includes like every transfer possible (university to bloor line to RT to bus) It takes me about 2 hours to get to my parents house that way but saturday it was magical......every time i got to a transfer point...the ttc was waiting for me. It was like they held it just for me and i got on and we immediately moved. It was such a smooth transition...i got to my parents in like 1:10 (the ten minutes was to walk from the bus stop).
The yonge street 10km was on sunday morning. I was slightly panicked (okay super nervous). my first race back since broken ankle of 2013. I didn't sleep saturday night...tossed and turned and worried about the race. Got up at like 6am (the worst) because we had to be back downtown at the race for 8:40. Andrea picked me up and we drove and parked near my apartment and walked to the start of the race at Yonge/Eglinton (about a 3km walk) we are clearly insane...but andrea called it a warm up. Then we ran. The first three km were cake (i think that is my distance) and i probably would have stopped after but Andrea kept me going to the 5km mark. Then Andrea got a terrible stitch in her side and we ran and walked from 5 - 7 km. When we hit 7km...i started pushing andrea to run a bit more. I knew she had a time goal, and i wanted her to beat it. We crossed the finish with at time of 1:15. So first race back completed! Although i am pretty sure i got this throat infection from being all sweaty and then standing around after the race with all that cold wind. Stupid running.
Although i will say, the free sunglasses i got as part of the race kit. AMAZING and my favourite thing i have ever got from any race....the tshirts never fit me because you need to have like zero boob for them to not be a crop top. The medals are nice but i don't really do anything with them. But those sunglasses AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyways....that was my weekend and now i am at work and super sick and grumpy with reception duty where i will be hardly able to speak as well as not be very friendly. Wish me luck!
Friday, April 11, 2014
Count Down
10km will be run on Sunday. I will survive it but will i regret it??? Well i think i get a free pair of sunglasses..so it is not a complete waste. But on Monday i believe i am going to be in a lot of pain.
In other news....I am feeling the spring. I pulled out my leather jacket...and i put on my sneaker wedges. Yup i am ready for spring.
In other news....I am feeling the spring. I pulled out my leather jacket...and i put on my sneaker wedges. Yup i am ready for spring.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Issues
I woke up today a grumpy panda. Delays everywhere, on the subway, at work (there is only one elevator working in our building and i would normally just take the stairs but dude, i was too grumpy to climb stairs. I know, i know...my family would say "i missed a fitness opportunity" But i say....BOOOOOOOOOOOOO it is morning and i am tired.
Also, i already knew i had stubborn hair but i thought the drastic cut would not only be awesomely stylish and cool but teach my hair to get in line because i am not opposed to cutting it all off. But i have this one hair that likes to flop the other direction....just the one hair. So even at it's shortest....me and my hair are still at odds
Sunday is the day of the 10km. And i have been working hard...my running is getting stronger and stronger...but 10km is a lot longer than i have done in a very long time. It seems like a very bad decision i made to run this race.....seriously?????? Why am i crazy?
I am also feeling the work blahs again. I wonder if it isn't work and it is me...if i am the problem? I love the people but i cannot gather any enthusiasm for the work i do on a daily basis. If i can be completely honest...i thought i would have "achieved" a lot more by now....i don't even really know what i mean by achieved.
Caution ahead...i am going to have myself a little pity party.
But let's look at it....i am stubbornly single and run from any sort of emotionally romantic commitment....i am still just on the bottom level of the work pyramid....i am super lazy....i have all these creative ideas and stuff but i have little follow through.....and i have no will power when it comes to eating responsibly.
Okay...in the grand scheme of things....i am very lucky...i have a good job, i have talents i am proud of, a family i love, friends who are awesome. These are great! But all my issues are internal...i expect better of myself. I am my own worst critic. I am never impressed with myself...i always think i can do better.
OKAY.....pity party over.
Now back to faking it until i make it....if only i wasn't such a bad liar.
Also, i already knew i had stubborn hair but i thought the drastic cut would not only be awesomely stylish and cool but teach my hair to get in line because i am not opposed to cutting it all off. But i have this one hair that likes to flop the other direction....just the one hair. So even at it's shortest....me and my hair are still at odds
Sunday is the day of the 10km. And i have been working hard...my running is getting stronger and stronger...but 10km is a lot longer than i have done in a very long time. It seems like a very bad decision i made to run this race.....seriously?????? Why am i crazy?
I am also feeling the work blahs again. I wonder if it isn't work and it is me...if i am the problem? I love the people but i cannot gather any enthusiasm for the work i do on a daily basis. If i can be completely honest...i thought i would have "achieved" a lot more by now....i don't even really know what i mean by achieved.
Caution ahead...i am going to have myself a little pity party.
But let's look at it....i am stubbornly single and run from any sort of emotionally romantic commitment....i am still just on the bottom level of the work pyramid....i am super lazy....i have all these creative ideas and stuff but i have little follow through.....and i have no will power when it comes to eating responsibly.
Okay...in the grand scheme of things....i am very lucky...i have a good job, i have talents i am proud of, a family i love, friends who are awesome. These are great! But all my issues are internal...i expect better of myself. I am my own worst critic. I am never impressed with myself...i always think i can do better.
OKAY.....pity party over.
Now back to faking it until i make it....if only i wasn't such a bad liar.
Monday, April 7, 2014
I DID IT
I cut off all my hair. I had so much hair and it was so heavy....i couldn't take it any more...AT ALL.
So BAM....cut it all off.
This is right after it was done. I was still in complete shock.
But after playing with it for awhile, i love it. It is so fun and short and sassy.
Kelly says i have taken on a new sassy personality to go with my new sassy hair.
So BAM....cut it all off.
This is right after it was done. I was still in complete shock.
But after playing with it for awhile, i love it. It is so fun and short and sassy.
Kelly says i have taken on a new sassy personality to go with my new sassy hair.
Friday, April 4, 2014
It's Working
So you know how i constantly talk about how i am the old grumpy man. Well it is happening...I got a new old man power.
Last night i noticed my ankle was quite sore right where the break was......today it's raining!!! That's right...I CAN NOW PREDICT THE WEATHER. I can also now use the saying "i feel it in my bones". Everythings coming up ME!
Seriously, this is so exciting. Finally the broken ankle gives me something other than rage and dramatic stories. It gives me weather prediction and i can now fit in with the other people down at the old folks home steph keeps trying to send me to.
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
I Made a HUGE Mistake
I should have stayed home today!
So....i get home from work yesterday and my head feels like it is literally going to explode. I feel horrible and i am not a happy panda. I am so not feeling good that i am in bed by 10pm...and asleep before 11pm. I know most people would be like...big deal 10 pm isn't early. But in my land it is super early.
Then i had weird dreams where i was being forced to marry justin beiber. it was not a great situation. They kept making me try on these weird dresses. and i was not into it at all. I don't know why i had that dream...i am going to blame it on paint and carpet fumes.
My grump levels are like through the roof today. If i could actually explode things with my mind...today...everything would be exploded. EVERYTHING!
So....i get home from work yesterday and my head feels like it is literally going to explode. I feel horrible and i am not a happy panda. I am so not feeling good that i am in bed by 10pm...and asleep before 11pm. I know most people would be like...big deal 10 pm isn't early. But in my land it is super early.
Then i had weird dreams where i was being forced to marry justin beiber. it was not a great situation. They kept making me try on these weird dresses. and i was not into it at all. I don't know why i had that dream...i am going to blame it on paint and carpet fumes.
My grump levels are like through the roof today. If i could actually explode things with my mind...today...everything would be exploded. EVERYTHING!
Monday, March 31, 2014
Smoothie Party
Steph's birthday, Vitamix Blender, lots of fruits and veggies.
Steph turned 30 on Saturday. She ran a sub-30 minute 5 km, which is amazing for her first run post sophie. We all went to her place to celebrate and made a bunch of smoothies. It was quite enjoyable. I have become a big smoothie supporter ever since i learned it is an easy breakfast to do.
We tried all kinds of smoothies...surprisingly i really enjoyed the ones that featured veggies. The carrot apple ginger was nice...but i LOVE ginger so it makes me happy anytime it is in something. Then my other favourite was a variation of the one we make every day, cashew butter banana milk and spinach. It was the best! It was also green from the spinach...which made braydon like it. I believe andrea told him it was a hulk drink.
I also went on an Erin/Amy adventure on saturday. We wanted to go shopping at the Toronto Premium Outlets, it is an outdoor mall near Milton. I was very excited but the stores may have been just too high end for me. I am a big supporter of high end stuff. But here is the thing, my attention span is on par with maybe a toddler. I get distracted very easily....and i know...i spend money on a big expensive piece of clothes...i am going to get bored of it just as quickly as i get bored of regular clothes. So, i don't buy a lot of high end. It has always been my philosophy 'why by one expensive piece of clothing when you can buy many inexpensive pieces of clothing'. Yes there are things that you need to spend more on...jeans for example are something you shouldn't cheap out on (learned that the hard way...although my favourite ever jeans were from this random store in the Niagara Outlets in the states and they cost me like $25. But they were so comfortable....and they died so quickly). Anyways....random tangent......Long Story Short....the Toronto Premium Outlets are cool...just not for me. I don't need the latest designer thing. I am fine with clothes from target. Actually i prefer it sometimes because they blur the lines between tween and adult.
Funny story, i bought this cat wearing glasses sweater at target...and i was flipping channels yesterday....and a 12 year old on a family channel show was wearing the exact same sweater. I now don't know if i can wear it in public any more.......who am i kidding...i most likely will. After all...i am a giant tween.
Friday, March 28, 2014
Explosions.....A Million Explosions
That is how i feel today.
Everything is rushed. I feel like i am running around accomplishing nothing. 9am meetings throw off my schedule so much.
I also don't know if i mentioned this earlier but something terrible happened to me this week. You know how i feel about black skinnies....they make my getting ready for work amazing. Because everything goes with black skinnies. But tragedy struck on tuesday. Tuesday is yoga at lunch. It is offered through work and class is in one of our boardrooms. So, i was changing into my yoga clothes at lunch, my foot got caught and i lost my balance. Things damaged in the fall - my pants and my dignity! So, i had to spend the day wearing yoga leggings....which is a dream (wearing pj's at work) but it wasn't as fun as i thought it was because i felt way under dressed all day.
So after trying to find acceptable pants the rest of the week..i decided i needed new black skinnies. So i did some google research, found that these jeans - "Second Yoga Jeans". They were black, had the short legs for my little legs, and they were high waisted. They ticked all my boxes. And they are available for purchase at Jean Machine. One thing i don't like to buy online is jeans because they fit is so important. If you are familiar with the jeans and know they will fit you go for the online option. But new brand, new rules. I tried them on, and dude they are perfect.
Construction Update - it is tarped up and i feel they are dealing with it better. All my concerns have been addressed. Plus, we get to leave early today to avoid the painting smell! So they have bought my happiness.
Everything is rushed. I feel like i am running around accomplishing nothing. 9am meetings throw off my schedule so much.
I also don't know if i mentioned this earlier but something terrible happened to me this week. You know how i feel about black skinnies....they make my getting ready for work amazing. Because everything goes with black skinnies. But tragedy struck on tuesday. Tuesday is yoga at lunch. It is offered through work and class is in one of our boardrooms. So, i was changing into my yoga clothes at lunch, my foot got caught and i lost my balance. Things damaged in the fall - my pants and my dignity! So, i had to spend the day wearing yoga leggings....which is a dream (wearing pj's at work) but it wasn't as fun as i thought it was because i felt way under dressed all day.
So after trying to find acceptable pants the rest of the week..i decided i needed new black skinnies. So i did some google research, found that these jeans - "Second Yoga Jeans". They were black, had the short legs for my little legs, and they were high waisted. They ticked all my boxes. And they are available for purchase at Jean Machine. One thing i don't like to buy online is jeans because they fit is so important. If you are familiar with the jeans and know they will fit you go for the online option. But new brand, new rules. I tried them on, and dude they are perfect.
Construction Update - it is tarped up and i feel they are dealing with it better. All my concerns have been addressed. Plus, we get to leave early today to avoid the painting smell! So they have bought my happiness.
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Construction
So we are doing some construction on our floor at work. We were told the work was mainly going to be on the weekend and that they would tarp off the area. Guess what.....all of that is not very true...well the tarping off the area. The construction is literally beside my desk...and every time they pull up carpet they release horrible fumes. So....monday HEADACHE from fumes...tuesday not so bad because they didn't do anything. Now today...more carpet up...which means more fumes. And guess what..they still haven't tarped it off.
I am sure they will and everything will work out all sunshine and rainbows. I am just feeling a little annoyed.
In other news...I have been like crazy tired all week. I think that is adding to my grouch levels. They are very high and rising. I am definitely running at the gym today at lunch...i am going to need it to vent my frustrations of the gong show.
I am sure they will and everything will work out all sunshine and rainbows. I am just feeling a little annoyed.
In other news...I have been like crazy tired all week. I think that is adding to my grouch levels. They are very high and rising. I am definitely running at the gym today at lunch...i am going to need it to vent my frustrations of the gong show.
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
Survival
OMG.....kid's birthday parties are crazy. It was Ally's on saturday....tea party themed. Completely in my wheel house of things i enjoy. EXCEPT...boys on sugar.....so much wrestling. I don't understand the need to punch each other and wrestle with each other. One kid in particular would start every fight and then cry because he got hurt. He was very dramatic. It was intense.
At one part...the cookie decorating part, i was left in charge and it was TRAMATIC. I have never been the authority figure...i am the fun aunt. i have often been made fun of because braydon thinks i am the same age as him. So now...i am the grown up in the room...in charge of like a billion kids (okay it was more like 10 kids but they had the presence of a billion). At one point, ever single one of the boys were hurt. And i kept saying things like "no horesplay" "butts on seats"...there was a lot of craziness.
After it was over...i think it changed me. I couldn't retain any knowledge on sunday...i was so spacetastic it was crazy.
Side note...the sock monkey was very popular, and now i have to make one for Sophie, both of Ally's best friends, and probably Declan. I actually looked on Etsy, and not to brag or anything but mine looks much cuter than most of them on there, and looks sewn better! And they are charging at least $30/monkey. I could totally make a second career out of making things for a living......I want to make things and sell them on etsy. What i need in reality is someone to handle the business side while i make things....i love making things, but i have a horrible habit of giving them all away....instead of charging.
At one part...the cookie decorating part, i was left in charge and it was TRAMATIC. I have never been the authority figure...i am the fun aunt. i have often been made fun of because braydon thinks i am the same age as him. So now...i am the grown up in the room...in charge of like a billion kids (okay it was more like 10 kids but they had the presence of a billion). At one point, ever single one of the boys were hurt. And i kept saying things like "no horesplay" "butts on seats"...there was a lot of craziness.
After it was over...i think it changed me. I couldn't retain any knowledge on sunday...i was so spacetastic it was crazy.
Side note...the sock monkey was very popular, and now i have to make one for Sophie, both of Ally's best friends, and probably Declan. I actually looked on Etsy, and not to brag or anything but mine looks much cuter than most of them on there, and looks sewn better! And they are charging at least $30/monkey. I could totally make a second career out of making things for a living......I want to make things and sell them on etsy. What i need in reality is someone to handle the business side while i make things....i love making things, but i have a horrible habit of giving them all away....instead of charging.
Friday, March 21, 2014
I call him Loppy
So, i finished the Sock Monkey yesterday. It turned out okay but i have noticed that everything i make is just slightly uneven.....leans to one side.
I know when you guys see it, all you will see is an adorable sock monkey but i see all the things i wish i could fix. His ears are uneven, his stuffing is lumpy, one arm is bigger than the other, and you can see the stitches from the stuffing hole.
But it is what she wanted. Hopefully now i can successfully retire from the sock monkey making business.
I know when you guys see it, all you will see is an adorable sock monkey but i see all the things i wish i could fix. His ears are uneven, his stuffing is lumpy, one arm is bigger than the other, and you can see the stitches from the stuffing hole.
But it is what she wanted. Hopefully now i can successfully retire from the sock monkey making business.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
BIG DAY
Today is the bring your own cup day to 711. I am crazy excited. I am trying to figure out what cup i should bring. I am bringing my novelty Thor cup. And i will be hopped up on sugar all night. Hopefully that will make the finishing of the sock monkey more successful and less lop-sided.
In other news....i am almost certain that i have gotten my exercise routine, i have successfully completed the third week of exercising at lunch. I may survive this 10km yet!
I am so ready for the weekend. It is Ally's Frozen birthday party this weekend. I am giving her a Pink and Purple sock monkey, home made by ME. This is a big deal...the last sock monkey i made was like 3 years ago, i gave it to braydon and he was so scared of it that i swore i would never traumatize another kid with a home made sock monkey. But guess who made a come back. That's right...Braydon now loves the sock monkey and Ally has been asking for a pink and purple sock monkey for a long while but i was hesitant to make another. I have decided to cave...but it has been awhile since i have made a sock monkey and dude....it seemed easy in my memory but it is not going as well. I will post a pick of the finished monkey soon.
In other news....i am almost certain that i have gotten my exercise routine, i have successfully completed the third week of exercising at lunch. I may survive this 10km yet!
I am so ready for the weekend. It is Ally's Frozen birthday party this weekend. I am giving her a Pink and Purple sock monkey, home made by ME. This is a big deal...the last sock monkey i made was like 3 years ago, i gave it to braydon and he was so scared of it that i swore i would never traumatize another kid with a home made sock monkey. But guess who made a come back. That's right...Braydon now loves the sock monkey and Ally has been asking for a pink and purple sock monkey for a long while but i was hesitant to make another. I have decided to cave...but it has been awhile since i have made a sock monkey and dude....it seemed easy in my memory but it is not going as well. I will post a pick of the finished monkey soon.
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Camel Day
Most people call today Hump day....i have decided we should call it camel day, why should humps get all the attention?
And that is not the only vocab change i am approving today.....My friend Jordan is giving me a hard time about not reading my comics quick enough....i told him i keep getting distracted and he said get Tracted.
I LOVE IT....change approved. instead of focused i am now going to get tracted.
So what else is happening. This haircut...it is totally happening. I am officially obsessed with it. I can't stop thinking about this hair cut and how freeing it would be.
I am now convinced i need to find the perfect hair dresser. It is countdown time people....my days of long hair are numbered.
Unless i chicken out which is entirely possible because right now i am like 100% gung ho for the hair cut...then i flip flop to completely freaked and convinced it would look terrible
Monday, March 17, 2014
A weekend of STUFF
So....i tripped to Oakville on friday night for Veronica Mars which was my second viewing. Also, i got to hang out with Steph and Carolyn.....and Sophie. She is so adorable. But it was a late night.
Then i met up with Amy for Brunch on saturday. MMMMMM Brunch. I love me some brunch. We went to Buca. It was delicious. SERIOUSLY. After brunch i headed out to mom and dad's and had a nap while i waited for everyone to show up. Nana and Cathy were in town and we all descended on Mom and Dad's for dinner on Saturday. It was also Ally's birthday so we got CAKE!
It didn't seem like much but dude after those two adventures, i was super tired and i spent sunday in my pj's...hanging out and have a super fun solo day. I marathoned some Adventure time, i made a sock monkey. It was a good day.
So, in other news, i am focusing this week....getting the exercise on. I want to get my hair cut short but i am worried my face is too round. So i am going to go hard core at the exercise and try to lose some face weight. I know random and i don't know if that is possible but i really want this hair cut. I know...i worry about the weirdest things.
Then i met up with Amy for Brunch on saturday. MMMMMM Brunch. I love me some brunch. We went to Buca. It was delicious. SERIOUSLY. After brunch i headed out to mom and dad's and had a nap while i waited for everyone to show up. Nana and Cathy were in town and we all descended on Mom and Dad's for dinner on Saturday. It was also Ally's birthday so we got CAKE!
It didn't seem like much but dude after those two adventures, i was super tired and i spent sunday in my pj's...hanging out and have a super fun solo day. I marathoned some Adventure time, i made a sock monkey. It was a good day.
So, in other news, i am focusing this week....getting the exercise on. I want to get my hair cut short but i am worried my face is too round. So i am going to go hard core at the exercise and try to lose some face weight. I know random and i don't know if that is possible but i really want this hair cut. I know...i worry about the weirdest things.
Friday, March 14, 2014
Again with the Hair
So....after hair-megedon where i destroyed my hair in attempt to turn it blue.....me any my hair decided to try to co-exist. Or that is what i like to say, because i got tired of fighting my hair...and left it alone which meant, the dye washed out super fast on the ends of my hair, but held on at the top....so now i have this weird sort of blue brown grey ombre hair....and that's not cool. It really isn't.
So, i am thinking....i need to cut it. I need to chop it and start fresh.
Originally, i wanted this hair:
So, i am thinking....i need to cut it. I need to chop it and start fresh.
Originally, i wanted this hair:
It is fun and kind of funky and as you can see from below, it looks like it still pulls back nicely. which is important for workouts.
But, i saw the Veronica Mars movie last night and DUDE...i love Mac's new hair. I think it is cool and funky and fun. And i remember when i had my hair that short...how much fun it was.
But...draw back, i would most likely have to style it EVERY DAY!!!! and i am worried my face is too round for this kind of cut. And for some strange reason, i always worry that i look too much like a boy with short hair....i know that is kind of ridiculous because i have very noticeable boobs. But I never said my fears made sense. Plus think of how much fun it would be to have short hair like that.
I want a drastic cut, but my last trip to the hair dresser was a DISASTER! Seriously!!! Plus, i haven't been to my old hair dresser for like two years and i don't want her to see the mess i made of my hair. i feel like i will disappoint her.
So....i guess while i am still processing the ideas, me and my blue/grey/ombre mess will just continue to tolerate each other.
I am willing to listen to suggestions.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
VERONICA MARS DAY
So....today....i am going to see the Veronica Mars movie in the theatre. SO EXCITED!!!!
I have loved the show since it originally aired and i am a kickstarter backer and now....kelly got us tickets to tonight's show. Then i get my digital download tomorrow. I am probably going to watch this movie so many times in the next 3 days....it will be insane!
I didn't wear my Vmars tshirt because i didn't want to be overly enthusiastic plus i love it best to sleep in (it is so comfy) that it has not become a pj shirt. But we are going to line up early and we are going to stop at mary maxim to get crafts to do in line. Everything is coming up ME!
In other news....i have like a month to get back into 10km running shape. AND DUDE....i don't think i am going to make it. I am cool with like 5 km...but 10....10 is so long and so much distance. I am really afraid i am just going to stop running halfway through the race and just declare that i live here now. Actually we even run past my street so i could just go home. BUT i can't do that...it is my first come back race, and i am sharing it with my sisters. We are going to survive together...well they will probably thrive and i will survive but...surviving the 10km is step one to IN YOUR FACING running. When i finish i can then be like 'take that running you aren't the boss of me'
I have loved the show since it originally aired and i am a kickstarter backer and now....kelly got us tickets to tonight's show. Then i get my digital download tomorrow. I am probably going to watch this movie so many times in the next 3 days....it will be insane!
I didn't wear my Vmars tshirt because i didn't want to be overly enthusiastic plus i love it best to sleep in (it is so comfy) that it has not become a pj shirt. But we are going to line up early and we are going to stop at mary maxim to get crafts to do in line. Everything is coming up ME!
In other news....i have like a month to get back into 10km running shape. AND DUDE....i don't think i am going to make it. I am cool with like 5 km...but 10....10 is so long and so much distance. I am really afraid i am just going to stop running halfway through the race and just declare that i live here now. Actually we even run past my street so i could just go home. BUT i can't do that...it is my first come back race, and i am sharing it with my sisters. We are going to survive together...well they will probably thrive and i will survive but...surviving the 10km is step one to IN YOUR FACING running. When i finish i can then be like 'take that running you aren't the boss of me'
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
My True Superpower
So, i am obsessed with Buzzfeed quizzes. I literally can't stop taking them. I have taken so many! I was very annoyed yesterday when i found out that if i was a bagel i would be a pumpernickel bagel....they aren't my favourite.
Anyways...i just did the BEST quiz. It was What Super Power should you have?
My Results:
I think this is the best result ever...i always want things to explode!
Take the quiz and let me know your results: SUPER POWER QUIZ
Anyways...i just did the BEST quiz. It was What Super Power should you have?
My Results:
I think this is the best result ever...i always want things to explode!
Take the quiz and let me know your results: SUPER POWER QUIZ
Unlucky?
So the family spa day didn't go exactly as planned. There were all sorts of problems walking up to the spa, first the subway wasn't running past St. Andrew, second, there were large parts of the underground roped off. So we arrived later than planned. And then when we got there...the line was basically out the door. So when we finally get to the front of the line....there is a fun surprise.
The person checking us in asked if i was there.....i am the one who booked all the appointments for everyone. There apparently is a note on the system saying that i called back a second time and cancelled just my services, that everyone else would be attending but my stuff is cancelled. So...a packed spa, no actual services for me book....spelled trouble. I didn't call in a second time, and the spa didn't accidentally cancel the wrong person because they checked to see if there were two of me in the system...there weren't. So here is what i think happened. An arch nemesis, has decided to announce their presence by causing me distress.
Everyone else thinks i am crazy and that it is just some unlucky coincidence but think back...didn't i get jerked around my St. Mike's. Maybe they didn't screw up my appointment. Maybe this unknown arch nemesis screwed around with my appointments then too! I mean there have been a lot of problems lately....it would actually make me feel better to know i am not unlucky and that there is just some dick out there being uncool. Because you can defeat a person....you can't really beat luck because it is random and uncontrollable.
The person checking us in asked if i was there.....i am the one who booked all the appointments for everyone. There apparently is a note on the system saying that i called back a second time and cancelled just my services, that everyone else would be attending but my stuff is cancelled. So...a packed spa, no actual services for me book....spelled trouble. I didn't call in a second time, and the spa didn't accidentally cancel the wrong person because they checked to see if there were two of me in the system...there weren't. So here is what i think happened. An arch nemesis, has decided to announce their presence by causing me distress.
Everyone else thinks i am crazy and that it is just some unlucky coincidence but think back...didn't i get jerked around my St. Mike's. Maybe they didn't screw up my appointment. Maybe this unknown arch nemesis screwed around with my appointments then too! I mean there have been a lot of problems lately....it would actually make me feel better to know i am not unlucky and that there is just some dick out there being uncool. Because you can defeat a person....you can't really beat luck because it is random and uncontrollable.
Friday, March 7, 2014
Fashion Commentary
Last night i was talking to my friend and i realized i was really worked up about something.....and i was like....i need to blog about this. I am hoping i can stop the trend.
So you all know the trend of sheer-ish blouses that people wear with just a bra underneath....and the top isn't completely sheer but you can make out the bra. The type of shirt you should wear a camisole underneath. Well...I think it can look very nice if done correctly and worn in more casual/social setting. Where i have been seeing it lately is at work. Two high level people have worn those shirts with just bras and i want to say...yes you look very nice but DUDE....let's think about this...is it really appropriate to wear in a work setting? Should i be able to see a director's bra?
I am not the most strict about dress code, i tend to dress in a more sloppy comfort dress (although if you look at this year's runways....comfort is the new fashion)....but i am having trouble re-adjusting to jeans and pants after wearing boho dresses and exercise pants for like 4 months. Also, at ate my feeling so much during that time that, none of my nice clothes really fit any more and i didn't really want to buy new nice clothes...i really wanted to buy more comfy clothes.
So.....i know i shouldn't be throwing fashion shade at someone else when my main goal is to figure out how to wear pajama's at work without anyone realizing it. But when i can see someone's bra and we are in a work setting...THERE is SOMETHING WRONG! Seriously...i don't want to see your bra...wear a camisole at work...then go out there after work and show everyone your bra if you want to...just keep it covered up at work.
SIDE NOTE - my nail polish winnings were shipped yesterday via Purolator....which means i am going to get them today or i am going to have to go on a long journey to track them because purolator refuses to deliver to my apartment and won't leave any sort of delivery note. I look forward to finding out what will happen.
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Excitement Levels Rising
The other day, i was impressed by this guy's height...i guess it was because he is so tall and i am so not tall.
Earlier this week, someone sent me this video:
Earlier this week, someone sent me this video:
It is just a song about badgers....and I LOVE IT. Then i learned there was this song about Llama's. Why didn't i know that these songs exist? They are basically just like the songs i write about remy. Everyone loves a good nonsense song.
I also just got an article from one of my friends. This organization is looking for people to knit penguin pullovers because after penguins have been in oil spills they need sweaters to keep them warm and to stop them from trying to clean the toxic oil off them with their beaks. They are asking knitters of the world to unite and start making these pullovers. If i was an advanced knitter....i would be all over this stuff. Unfortunately my knitting skill is not at sweater level yet.
Here's the article if you want to read it: http://ht.ly/uhEpg
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
Winner Winner!!!!!
So, you remember last week when i was talking about how my sisters keep entering contests and winning. Well, i got jealous and decided if they can win contests, so can i.
So i entered a bunch of contests...the one i really wanted to win was that nail polish one. Guess What....I AM A WIENER!!!!!
So i now get the entire new brazillian collection from OPI...that is 12 awesome bottles of new nail polish available for my nail art pleasure. I got the email on sunday and it said i had 48 hours to reply...i of course replied within minutes of getting the email because i was so excited...then i overshared like a weirdo in the email telling her that i was so excited i was dancing. But let's get real for a moment. I never win anything. I think my last big win was that colouring contest when i was like 7. So it was a long time coming and i couldn't have won a more perfect thing.
Nail polish is my jam! now i have 12 new bottles headed my way.
But you know what this means....i need to enter more contests. I think i may focus on beauty give aways. I love beauty products and free beauty products are my favourite.
What else is new with me besides me being a winner?
I went to brunch on sunday....Starving Artist. It is a waffle place. I had the waffle blt, you know i can't resist bacon sandwiches...it is like my cryptonite. Although next time i think i want to try the waffle benny.
I am also experiencing thumb/hand pain on my right hand...i am worried it is from knitting too much but i keep stretching it out and hoping that it is not early signs of arthritis or something. You know before ankle-gate, i would have just assumed i pulled a hand muscle or something and now i am convinced i have early onset arthritis. But i can't have a craft injury this early in the year...i am on a craft roll right now...with that purse, and my log cabin, and all my home made christmas gifts.....i also just bought shrink paper, which i am going to have so much fun with...it is going to be awesome sauce. So lots of stretches, i can't have a craft injury.
So i entered a bunch of contests...the one i really wanted to win was that nail polish one. Guess What....I AM A WIENER!!!!!
So i now get the entire new brazillian collection from OPI...that is 12 awesome bottles of new nail polish available for my nail art pleasure. I got the email on sunday and it said i had 48 hours to reply...i of course replied within minutes of getting the email because i was so excited...then i overshared like a weirdo in the email telling her that i was so excited i was dancing. But let's get real for a moment. I never win anything. I think my last big win was that colouring contest when i was like 7. So it was a long time coming and i couldn't have won a more perfect thing.
Nail polish is my jam! now i have 12 new bottles headed my way.
But you know what this means....i need to enter more contests. I think i may focus on beauty give aways. I love beauty products and free beauty products are my favourite.
What else is new with me besides me being a winner?
I went to brunch on sunday....Starving Artist. It is a waffle place. I had the waffle blt, you know i can't resist bacon sandwiches...it is like my cryptonite. Although next time i think i want to try the waffle benny.
I am also experiencing thumb/hand pain on my right hand...i am worried it is from knitting too much but i keep stretching it out and hoping that it is not early signs of arthritis or something. You know before ankle-gate, i would have just assumed i pulled a hand muscle or something and now i am convinced i have early onset arthritis. But i can't have a craft injury this early in the year...i am on a craft roll right now...with that purse, and my log cabin, and all my home made christmas gifts.....i also just bought shrink paper, which i am going to have so much fun with...it is going to be awesome sauce. So lots of stretches, i can't have a craft injury.
Friday, February 28, 2014
One Hour
One hour until freedom!
One hour until i get two days of non-work
One hour. I can survive that.
It has been a very long and rough week. I am going to spend my weekend renewing my zen. I will do some knitting, catch up on some tv shows, and some family visits.
I went to best buy today....i was disappointed that their headphones weren't plugged into anything. How can i tell how awesome the headphones are if they don't have anything attached. But i did check out tablets with Jordan and they are pretty cool. but on the way out, i saw a 39inch flatscreen tv and it was less than the coolest Tablet. So, if i had to choose i think i would choose a tv.
Oh man....i just found a video of a bulldog refusing to go outside for a walk because it is too cold, so they put him on a treadmill. that totally just sold me on bulldogs.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
New Craft Project
So....i found this amazing scarf i want to make...but i have to finish making my log cabin blanket first. Also i had a great etsy idea but i have to do a bit of research first. But i am going to try to get an etsy store up an running by 2015. I have to first create a business plan, and then build up a bunch of stock before i can start selling things online.
Anyways...here is the scarf i love:
Anyways...here is the scarf i love:
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