Christmas Kick Off

It was the Santa Claus parade this weekend....and that is the start of Christmas in our family.  We are a HUGE Christmas family and i think Christmas will be even bigger this year because we have a lot to celebrate with Dad being cancer free now.

How do we kick off Christmas, well it all starts on Saturday with me and dad.  We get bundled up and go up on the roof and put up the Christmas lights.  With dad being retired this year, he put some of them up on Friday because he was trying a new method of hanging them.  So Saturday, Dad didn't want too many people on the roof since we just got it fixed so i stood on the lawn and watched him put them up on the roof, then i got bored so i raked the leaves.  It was a good afternoon.  Then we went to bulk barn for our first of many Christmas baking trips to bulk barn.  (We spend a lot of time planning our Christmas baking) and then dad baked his Christmas cake.

Finally we ended the evening by ordering in Swiss Chalet, and sitting in front of the fire, eating dinner while watching Hunger Games.  It was a great day.

Then Sunday was "the Show".  We all headed to mom and dad's for the Santa parade and we were all required to wear our Christmas sweaters.  It is loud and chaotic and overwhelming.  But i love the chaos sometimes.  Sophie, my youngest niece, ran around demanding everyone chase her.  Braydon and me talked Doctor Who, and Ally was of course in one of her beautiful party dresses.  She only wears party dresses.

So....Christmas is coming up fast....so many things i need to do, figure out who is getting presents, and if i have time to make things for everyone.  I love making my gifts but i don't always have the time to get everyone something homemade.  Hopefully this year i will.

Shopping and Fashion

Mom and I went to Buffalo this weekend to have a fun mother/daughter shopping weekend.  Now i am a great shopper but i haven't done a shopping weekend with mom in a long time.  So i was kind of excited.  I also realized that mom and dad didn't get me a birthday present for the last two years.  But that is okay....this trip was the present.

Although we are really out of practice.  We hit up JC Penny on friday night as soon as we arrived (they are open until 10pm).  Then the next morning we got up and worked our way through the mall.  A lot of the stores we have in Canada as well so i wasn't so excited but then i realized that the deals we get in the states are great when you can find them but the real reason i love shopping in the states is the selection.  They have so much more selection than they have in Canada.

So....today i am wearing a whole new outfit and i must say...i feel very fashion forward today.  Low heeled ankle boots, leather pants, plaid blouse, and sleeveless sweater.  I must say my favourite purchase from the weekend are my low heeled boots. and my saddest moment of the weekend was finding new riding boots to replace the pair i bought like 3 years ago and have worn to death.  They are completely falling apart.  So i found a pair and they are beautiful.  but they don't have my size so now i have to decide if i want to order them online.  How important are they to me?  Do they complete me?

Here is a pic of my best purchase:

Here is a pic of the boots i am debating buying:

The Battle Royal

I have spent the last few months in crazytown.  I always forget how busy this time of the year is until it is actually happening.  There are late nights and early mornings and a lot of balls in the air.

So...what's been happening with me since i last told you of my mental crazy?  Well, i have seemed to find a good balance between my fears, anger, and 'don't careness'.  I have been overwhelmed with negative emotions because that is how i process big life changes.

So...the battle royal happened internally and i think for once, the optimistic positive person may came out on top?  Do you know what i miss, worrying about tv shows and obsessing over new movies.  I am tired of worrying about heavy things like life and death.  Seriously....i have had to face some issues that i have happily ignored my entire life.  Like mortality.  Personally i had chosen to believe that everyone lives forever in a happy safe bubble.  Apparently that is not true, there is illness and sickness out there, there is darkness and evil out there.  And things happen that we cannot control.

So....when is it time to get back to the happy go lucky me?  Hopefully soon.  According to my counselor, i am experiencing a lot of swinging emotions right now because when things were bad....i didn't let myself feel anything.  During the months i should have worried, i pushed all the feelings away and now that everything is okay...i have allowed myself to feel.


Hopefully there will be more blog posts in the future...hopefully they will be happier....and hopefully i will stop being so hard on myself.